It's really complicated now, or at least that's what I feel like.
I don't really know what to do, and I cannot do what I want to do.
What if I say I want to end it? Then what? I live by myself? or live with my mom?
Who am I gonna spend time with? Will he be my boyfriend?
I am hurting everyone, and still I am selfish. I want to kiss him, hug him, sleep with him, but at the same time I don't even have courage to end my marriage.
I hate myself. I hate everything I got myself into.
Wish I can just fly and start a new life, somewhere, far far away.
I love you, and I wish I could be with you right now. I wish I could just call you and ask you if it's okay to come over and sleep beside you. I just want to hear your voice, you always make me smile.
Sleep well,
sweat dreams.
What if I say I want to end it? Then what? I live by myself? or live with my mom?
Who am I gonna spend time with? Will he be my boyfriend?
I am hurting everyone, and still I am selfish. I want to kiss him, hug him, sleep with him, but at the same time I don't even have courage to end my marriage.
I hate myself. I hate everything I got myself into.
Wish I can just fly and start a new life, somewhere, far far away.
I love you, and I wish I could be with you right now. I wish I could just call you and ask you if it's okay to come over and sleep beside you. I just want to hear your voice, you always make me smile.
Sleep well,
sweat dreams.