日本行き航空券買いました！
がしかし、帰る前までにやらなきゃいけないことが山ほどあります。。。
とりあえず、荷物整理。2年以上の滞在で積もったものがたくさんあります。
そしてカナダにおさらばする前にもう1っこだけTattooをいれたい！
そして最後にみんなと会ってから帰りたい！
アルバイトは10日まで続けるので帰国の3月14日までのタイトなスケジュールで頑張らせていただきたいです！
I have bought a light ticket going back to Japan. I am leaving on 14th of March.
However, There are a million things to do before I can go home.
First. I have to get rid of whole bunch of stuff. ex clothes, shelf, TV, PC monitor and etc....
Second, I have gotta get my last Canadian tattoo. I want a last one before I leave here.
And the last, I have gotta meet a few friends.
I have only a few friends I hung out on occasion basis, but I have a lot of friends to meet before I can say goodbye to Canada.
I will keep working until 10th of March that leaves me only 3 whole days to pack up.
It is getting harder to imagine leaving here with some of my friends still here. I have made some really good friends through work and school. Its really sad man...
お久しぶりです
日本に帰ってました！2年と2ヶ月ぶりです。
帰った瞬間はまさに外国人な気分でした、わぁー日本だーみたいなｗ
懐かしい面々と会って改めて日本人であり日本にいることがありがたく感じました。
もちろん都内のごみごみした景色、夜10時過ぎても座れない下りの電車も含めて日本に帰ってきたのを本当に実感した2週間でした。
この2週間の間で気持ちにも整理がつき、日本に完全帰国することにしました。
家族のことや自分の将来のことを含めた上での決断です。
この2年半を過ごした地を去ることは本当に寂しいことですがいつかは決めないといけなかったこと。
今回帰国して決断が出来て、本当に懐かしいだけじゃなくて意味のある帰国だったなと振り返っています。
今回どうしても時間の都合など連絡できなかったMyfriendsよ、次に帰る時には絶対に会おうぞよ！
完全帰国まで約1ヶ月。。
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It has been a long time!
I am back in Canada coming back from Japan for a 2 weeks trip.
Caught up with friends and family.
There are things have happened in the last 2 yrs...
Some tied the knot, some got a job, changed a job.
I was mostly happy with what I was hearing from my friends. There are ups and downs, but that's life...
I was just so happy that there are people who think of me as one of their friends, coming to gather to see the friend who hasn't even contacted them even once in the last 2 yrs.
This 2 weeks, I have totally been appreciative for my friends.
You don't realize how important they are to you until you don't have it. When they are around, you take them for granted....
This was the first discussion I had with my roommate after I came home here in Canada....
I really think it's true. family and friends are especially forgettable, because most time you are with them so you don't fully realize the importance of having them....
I am so lucky to have realized it so I can be more nice to them from next time...
日本に帰ってました！2年と2ヶ月ぶりです。
帰った瞬間はまさに外国人な気分でした、わぁー日本だーみたいなｗ
懐かしい面々と会って改めて日本人であり日本にいることがありがたく感じました。
もちろん都内のごみごみした景色、夜10時過ぎても座れない下りの電車も含めて日本に帰ってきたのを本当に実感した2週間でした。
この2週間の間で気持ちにも整理がつき、日本に完全帰国することにしました。
家族のことや自分の将来のことを含めた上での決断です。
この2年半を過ごした地を去ることは本当に寂しいことですがいつかは決めないといけなかったこと。
今回帰国して決断が出来て、本当に懐かしいだけじゃなくて意味のある帰国だったなと振り返っています。
今回どうしても時間の都合など連絡できなかったMyfriendsよ、次に帰る時には絶対に会おうぞよ！
完全帰国まで約1ヶ月。。
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It has been a long time!
I am back in Canada coming back from Japan for a 2 weeks trip.
Caught up with friends and family.
There are things have happened in the last 2 yrs...
Some tied the knot, some got a job, changed a job.
I was mostly happy with what I was hearing from my friends. There are ups and downs, but that's life...
I was just so happy that there are people who think of me as one of their friends, coming to gather to see the friend who hasn't even contacted them even once in the last 2 yrs.
This 2 weeks, I have totally been appreciative for my friends.
You don't realize how important they are to you until you don't have it. When they are around, you take them for granted....
This was the first discussion I had with my roommate after I came home here in Canada....
I really think it's true. family and friends are especially forgettable, because most time you are with them so you don't fully realize the importance of having them....
I am so lucky to have realized it so I can be more nice to them from next time...
最近ファイトクラブを見て台詞のひとつがひどく自分の中に残っています。
”全てコントロールしようとするな、流れにまかせろ”
これは車の中でのシーンでの台詞ですが、大分病んでるのか自分がエドワードノートンの演じた役に当てはまったきがしてなりません。
日々の生活にストレスを感じつつも行き場のないストレス。
たまには欲望に任せて自分を演じるのを辞めたいです。
I've been thinking recently. One line from the movie Fightclub, the one almost everyone has seen before left me thinking. "Do not try to control everything, let it go just let go"
I don't know if I am still depressed, but it seems that I can put myself into that role done by Edward Norton. I am frustrated by the everyday life, trying to act sane when I am really not. Putting artificial smile trying to make look ordinal. I am trying to figure out everything, trying to control everything, and not letting what's really inside of me control. I sometimes let it control I am wanting it to take over me...
”全てコントロールしようとするな、流れにまかせろ”
これは車の中でのシーンでの台詞ですが、大分病んでるのか自分がエドワードノートンの演じた役に当てはまったきがしてなりません。
日々の生活にストレスを感じつつも行き場のないストレス。
たまには欲望に任せて自分を演じるのを辞めたいです。
I've been thinking recently. One line from the movie Fightclub, the one almost everyone has seen before left me thinking. "Do not try to control everything, let it go just let go"
I don't know if I am still depressed, but it seems that I can put myself into that role done by Edward Norton. I am frustrated by the everyday life, trying to act sane when I am really not. Putting artificial smile trying to make look ordinal. I am trying to figure out everything, trying to control everything, and not letting what's really inside of me control. I sometimes let it control I am wanting it to take over me...
今年も残すとこあと５日。まじ早い、時の流れが怖いこのごろ。。。
仕事、見つかってません、てか探してませんｗ
だめだめな自分です。
てか最近実は若干忙しくて、働き始めたバーが意外にも忙しくてまぁ、まとも？とはいえないですが仕事してます。なのでなんとか生活もできるかと。。
他はあんまお伝えすることもないんですが、クリスマスプレゼントに自分にいくつかプレゼント買っちゃいましたｗそのなかには新しいTattooも入ってます。あとBoseのイヤフォン、これやばい、さすがBose。
あーーあとあと、１月にどうやら念願の一時帰国がかないそうです。お店にも休みたいことを伝えOKもらったので２週間くらい帰ります、まじ嬉しい～みんなに会えるかな～。もう妄想で一杯です。
なんやかんやでみなさんも良いクリスマスを過ごしたことを祈っています、そして良いお年を迎えてください。
でわでわ
Having today passing by, there is only 5 days left for 2009.... oh boy.. I am scared of how fast time flies...
Anyway, I have yet to find a job. well... I am not really looking for it yet lol
I have been kinda sorta busy ever since started working for the bar. The place is jam packed every night since its opening. it is certainly a good thing for the bar, but it's also taking our life away. the place is that busy.
Ah,,, nothing much new to tell.... I got myself a few x'mas presents, which includes a new tattoo and bose ear phone, which blew my mind away. This thing is freaggin awesome! love it as much as my new tattoo.
What did I get for the new tattoo? well.. you know what I like... yeah you guessed it right, it's another skull baby!
I haven't taken a pic of it yet, and I don't want to take a pic because it is still healing and dont look pretty yet. I will though once it's healed and looking good!
oh another good news is that I will mostlikely go home in January!!
Well. this actually is the most exciting thing for me now. I haven't been to Japan in last 2 yrs! away from home so loooooooooong.. I miss everything now right this moment, I am writing this.
So I am pretty excited about that...
My plan for the new year is nothing unfortunatelly. I've got alot to figure out especially next year is going to be one of the most important years of my life, I need stuff figured out... what stuff? ah,,,, my future.... and etc..
Anyway, I hope you all had good christamas holidays and hope everything will go right until new year!
トロントでとうとう本降りの雪
とうとう冬がやってきたかな～
去年のこの時期はまだバリーに居てバリーでは１０月の半ばから本降りするからほんと不思議な感じだったけどまじでこれでまたカナダの長い冬がやってきたなって気持ちになれる（あまり嬉しくない）
今日２年ぶりに妹と話した、まじ２年ぶり、まじ冷めた関係だよねうちの家庭。。
まぁ元気そうだったからいいけどさ。
ばあちゃんと話して、とてもおれのことを心配してくれてるんだよね。助けが必要な時はいつでも言えって言ってくれるし、ほんと頭が上がらないですよ。泣きそうです。
みんなに会いたい。。やべまた若干ホームシックなってきた。。気をつけないと。
とりあえずこんな生活やってらんない、早く本当に抜け出さないと！
It's snowing! It's officially winter in Toronto!
Wow, it took so long before snow finally started falling in Toronto.
This time of last year, I was still up in Barrie, so snow started falling in mid Oct. Well... sure enough Toronto's winter comes after the one in Barrie....
I am starting to work tomorrow not knowing exactly what to do... Training? yes, but what kind of??
The restaurant opens on 17th....
I spoke to my sister in 2 yrs today, wow what a dried family lol. I usually speak with my grandma every week or two, but it has been so long since last time I spoke to my sister. Wel... she sounded good so I hope she is doing good.
I am bored..... I want to start doing things I want... but without money... no...
My family has been very very supportive. They say that they will help me if I am in need.. man... It really toutched me.... I want to see them so bad.. my dad, mom, and grandma.. thank you so much I can't thank you guys enough....
Man... I have to stive really really at my limit... I can't be what I am right now.. I need to change...
とうとう冬がやってきたかな～
去年のこの時期はまだバリーに居てバリーでは１０月の半ばから本降りするからほんと不思議な感じだったけどまじでこれでまたカナダの長い冬がやってきたなって気持ちになれる（あまり嬉しくない）
今日２年ぶりに妹と話した、まじ２年ぶり、まじ冷めた関係だよねうちの家庭。。
まぁ元気そうだったからいいけどさ。
ばあちゃんと話して、とてもおれのことを心配してくれてるんだよね。助けが必要な時はいつでも言えって言ってくれるし、ほんと頭が上がらないですよ。泣きそうです。
みんなに会いたい。。やべまた若干ホームシックなってきた。。気をつけないと。
とりあえずこんな生活やってらんない、早く本当に抜け出さないと！
It's snowing! It's officially winter in Toronto!
Wow, it took so long before snow finally started falling in Toronto.
This time of last year, I was still up in Barrie, so snow started falling in mid Oct. Well... sure enough Toronto's winter comes after the one in Barrie....
I am starting to work tomorrow not knowing exactly what to do... Training? yes, but what kind of??
The restaurant opens on 17th....
I spoke to my sister in 2 yrs today, wow what a dried family lol. I usually speak with my grandma every week or two, but it has been so long since last time I spoke to my sister. Wel... she sounded good so I hope she is doing good.
I am bored..... I want to start doing things I want... but without money... no...
My family has been very very supportive. They say that they will help me if I am in need.. man... It really toutched me.... I want to see them so bad.. my dad, mom, and grandma.. thank you so much I can't thank you guys enough....
Man... I have to stive really really at my limit... I can't be what I am right now.. I need to change...