最後に真面目に英語を勉強したのはESLにいた7ヶ月前
こうゆう風に考えてる人って少なくないと思う、”英語漬けの環境にいれば英語なんか自然に伸びる”
自分もその一人だった。しかし、現実はそんなに甘くない。
自分はカレッジの生徒になって早8ヶ月、カナダ人のようになんかとってもじゃないけど話せないし、それに近いまでもない。自分が目指してるレベルにさえすぐには到達できそうもない。
才能がないんじゃないかって？
そうかもしれない、でもそんなにサボってるわけでもない。ヘルプデスクの仕事を得られたのも自分の英語がそれほどダメでないことを証明してくれてる。
それでも間違ってばっかりだし、それを恐れて英語を口に出すのがおっくうになることだってまだある。
でもそんな現実ももう嫌だし、普通に会話したい。相手の言ってることを全て理解して思ってることを正確に伝えたい。
そんなことは限りなく不可能に近いかもしれないのを知りながらも英語の勉強になるような事を心がけている。こうやって日本語と両方書くのも時間はかかるけど考える勉強になってる。喋る練習をしたい時は今更と思うかもしれないけどフレンズのようなドラマのサブタイトルをオンしてTVに向かって話しかけてる。地味でもゆっくりためになってると信じて。やってみるとどれだけ出演者に合わせて話すのが難しいかが分かる、自分は読んでるにも関わらず。
あと数週間で仕事が始まる。学校の教科の一貫としてでも選ばれたことに責任を感じてうまくやりたいと思う。無用なミスコミュニケーションが出来るだけ避けたい。
だから勉強せなあかんのですな～
Last time I "studied" English was when I was an ESL student back in Hamilton about seven month ago.
I think it is not only me think this way, if you throw yourself into absolute English environments, you will pick up the language. that was exactly what I thought. nah, the reality is not simple as that.
I've been a college student for about eight months now, do I speak English like Canadians? hell no, it's way far from that. and I am not likely to reach where Im hoping to get any time soon. am i not talented? yeah maybe, however, I don't think I'm slucking off too much, I took interviews and got a job that will probably require a lot of communication esp on the phone. this proves me not bad either. despite all I went through, I still mistake a lot, Im even afraid of making mistakes when i talk with them.
the truth is, i don't want it anymore, i want to understand everything what they say, i want to convey how i feel as precisely as possible. with having knowing it won't be easy. i put a little effort day by day for my English.
writing this is part of it, but when I want to practice speaking, I use dvds of half an hour shows, how i use this is pretty simple, put subtitles on, speak it out along the subtitles. I think many English learners have done this. I like it and believe this is gonna work, you will know how difficult it is to keep up with speakers on the tv even though you are reading it.
I only have a few weeks until my work starts, and I feel responsible for being chosen for the position. I want to avoid miscommunication as much as i can. that is why I keep doing this.
Redsox was swept by Jays, oh man
野球見てきました
それも去年のチャンピオンRedsoxがプレイする試合なんて・・・・ 嬉しい
昨晩のゲームではブルージェイズが3－5でレッドソックスを破ったんですが、今日はさすがにレッドソックスが勝つだろうって思ってました。
しかし、ふたを開けてみるとジェイズのワンサイドゲーム。レッドソックスが先制したにもかかわらず、終わってみれば10－2
昨日のような接戦を期待してたんですが、そしたら岡島も・・・・
しかしむなしくその夢は敗れましたw
今日全員で自分ら14人、フランス、フィンランド、ドイツ、シンガポール、オーストラリア、そして私日本、あとカナダ人も。野球を全く知らない人がたくさんいてその人たちに英語で野球を説明するのは骨でしたがこんな絵に描いたような国際交流が出来てとても幸せです。
一人、カナダで生まれ育ったんですが祖父祖母が日本人の人に会いました。日本語は話さないんですが日本には興味があるようでまた会えたらな～って思います。
Went to see a ball game!
especially, game like today, last season's champian Boston Redsox playing in can be so exciting.
in lastnight's game, Bluejay's won by 3 to 5, but I doubted them winning two games in a row against the champion.
However, the game turned out to be a one-side game despite Redsox scoring in first inning, the game ends up with 10 to 2 for Bluejays, I did not expect this score expecially bluejays against Redsox, I was hoping to see a game like last night, but the otherway around, I could have seen Okajima piching. it was a little dissapoint.
There are about ten people who never watched a bassball game, they are from France, Finland, Singapore, Germany and Australia. well, and here I am Japan also a couple of Canadians.
it was great meeting with them from all over the world, they go to Waterloo university, and they live in a residense where most students are international students like us, whereas my residense where 95% are Canadians. I wish I lived there, would have been so much fun. well, can't complain, our college is just a small college in a small city.
I met a guy who were born here but he has japanese grand parents, he doesnt speak a word of japanese, but he still seems interested in knowing about japan. I hope to catch up with him after today.
それも去年のチャンピオンRedsoxがプレイする試合なんて・・・・ 嬉しい
昨晩のゲームではブルージェイズが3－5でレッドソックスを破ったんですが、今日はさすがにレッドソックスが勝つだろうって思ってました。
しかし、ふたを開けてみるとジェイズのワンサイドゲーム。レッドソックスが先制したにもかかわらず、終わってみれば10－2
昨日のような接戦を期待してたんですが、そしたら岡島も・・・・
しかしむなしくその夢は敗れましたw
今日全員で自分ら14人、フランス、フィンランド、ドイツ、シンガポール、オーストラリア、そして私日本、あとカナダ人も。野球を全く知らない人がたくさんいてその人たちに英語で野球を説明するのは骨でしたがこんな絵に描いたような国際交流が出来てとても幸せです。
一人、カナダで生まれ育ったんですが祖父祖母が日本人の人に会いました。日本語は話さないんですが日本には興味があるようでまた会えたらな～って思います。
Went to see a ball game!
especially, game like today, last season's champian Boston Redsox playing in can be so exciting.
in lastnight's game, Bluejay's won by 3 to 5, but I doubted them winning two games in a row against the champion.
However, the game turned out to be a one-side game despite Redsox scoring in first inning, the game ends up with 10 to 2 for Bluejays, I did not expect this score expecially bluejays against Redsox, I was hoping to see a game like last night, but the otherway around, I could have seen Okajima piching. it was a little dissapoint.
There are about ten people who never watched a bassball game, they are from France, Finland, Singapore, Germany and Australia. well, and here I am Japan also a couple of Canadians.
it was great meeting with them from all over the world, they go to Waterloo university, and they live in a residense where most students are international students like us, whereas my residense where 95% are Canadians. I wish I lived there, would have been so much fun. well, can't complain, our college is just a small college in a small city.
I met a guy who were born here but he has japanese grand parents, he doesnt speak a word of japanese, but he still seems interested in knowing about japan. I hope to catch up with him after today.
久しぶりのぼやきです。
カナダに来てからとゆうもののたまに、ブルーになることがあります。ちょっとしたこと日本にいたらたいしたことじゃないんだけどこっちだとなんかブルーになる引き金になってしまうような
この前、友達の一人をMLBの試合に誘いました。
そしたら「行きたい、でも先約があるからちょっと聞いてもいい？」とのこと。
もちろん行きたいのであれば聞いてみたらと勧めてその後
「やっぱり無理でした」とのこと、なので「そう、いいよじゃあまた今度なんかあったら誘うよ」と伝えたところ彼女は急に「もうどこも行けません」
自分「は？？？」
どうやら元彼とよりが戻ったらしく自分が色んなお誘いをしてることが問題になってた模様。。。
そんなの知らんわ、元々そっちやん、なんかあったら誘ってくださいって言ってたの。それも土曜の用事も彼とのものだったらしく、それを聞いた自分は、「なんで彼との用事があるのに他の男の誘いがあるんだけど・・・みたいなこと聞くねん？？」とかなり呆れてました。
それもその会話の後、何故か自分は振られた気分。それも元彼とその友達は自分を若干避けてるし。。
親切のつもりで、とゆうかみんなで楽しくと思って誘ってたのが完全に裏目った。
一回も個人的に誘ったことはなくて、いつも友達と一緒だったのに。。。
まじいやな感じです。
今日友達と再確認したのが
トラブルにかられたくなかったら関わるな。
まさにその通りな出来事でした。
Things doesn't go as easy as I hope or predict,
ever since I came to Canada, I get depressed once in a while. just a little thing that wouldn't be anything matters if i were in Japan can be something really different here.
the otherday, I asked one of my friend for a baseball game this saturday, she said " yeah that sounds exciting, I want to go but I have previous engagement, but I ask if I can push it to Sunday instead"
So, I didn't expect anything like I was going to face after this conversation. after a while, she got back to me, and say, "hey I'm sorry I don't think I can make it" so, I go, "oh, no problem, I'll let you know if somethingelse comes up" and yeah, here's thing. then, she suddenly broaches, "I can't go out with you anymore"
I was like ???, what is wrong? well the thing is, she now belongs to who she was with before, yeah her ex-.
she told me, that me asking her out kinda making him nervous kinda thing,
but, I never knew you back with your boyfriend, why didn't you tell me, plus, you are the one wanted me to ask if anything going on, I wanna join. so I never personally asked her out, its always with my friends. why am i feeling like dumped??? and her boyfriend and his friends kinda ignores me now.
did I do anything wrong? seriously, I hate this thing happening to me. give mea break.
if you want to stay away from troubles, do not get involved.
最近毎晩やっていることがあります。ポーカーです
毎日5,6人と一緒にやっているんですが、初めてやったのは今期が始まってすぐくらいです。昨季も何人かがやっているのは知っていたんですがちょっとやり方がいまいち不明だったため控えていました。
ポーカーはポーカーなんですがちょっと日本人になじみのあるポーカーとは違います。
カードは2枚しか手元には配られません。何故でしょう？
こんな場面を想定してみてください、従来の5枚で6人がテーブルにいるとします。
カードは54枚しかありません、最初のディールで30枚が配られてしまいます。残りの24枚ではみんながチェンジ出来ません。
だから2枚なんです、どうなるかとゆうと、最初の2枚が配られた時点でまずチップをベットします。全てのプレイヤーがチップを賭けたあと3枚のカードが全てのプレイヤーに表示されます。そしてこの3枚が自分の手元の2枚と照らし合わせ役を探すための5枚です。プレイヤーは各々チェック、フォールド、レイズすることができます。
チェックとは何もしないことです。フォールドとはその場を降ります。レイズは名のとおり賭けチップを増やし相手にプレッシャーを与えることが出来ます。
ここで5枚揃っているのですが、その後更に2回のレイズ機会がプレイヤー達に与えられその度に1枚のカードが追加提示されます。なので最後までフォールドしないプレイヤーは合計7枚のカードで役作りすることができます。
プレイヤーは注意深く相手を観察し相手の読む洞察力が必要になります、そして自分は常に冷静を装い”ポーカーフェイス”を常に装う必要があります。
このTexashold'emはあたなが考える以上に色んな要素を必要とされます。
自分は一部にマージャンと通じる部分があると感じましたが、それよりもプレイ自体は単純で役も少ないため覚えるのが簡単です。その代わりにプレイヤー達はマージャン以上に相手の手を予測する必要があります。
自分には何故これが日本では流行っていないのが不思議ですが日本に帰ってもやりたいと思っています！
Texas Hold'em
I'm playing it almost everynight with five, six guys. my first time was the begining of this semester. I always was interested, but I was not sure how to play. it's poker, but I think its different from what we japanese know as poker. you only have two cards on your hands instead of five. you know why? think of a situation which let's say six people are at the the table playing poker, if five cards are dealt for each one, that leaves only 54 - 30 = 24 cards. after first cards are dealt, players need to change their cards to draw a hand, but there are only 24 cards left. depending on the situation, but there might be a case in which all players can not change their cards.
So, we play with two cards, how this works is after two cards are dealt for each player, they make a bet, after everybody make their bet, only three cards, with which you can match up your two cards will be shown for every player. after this, each player make their bet again, each player can either "ckeck", "fold", and "raise". check means no action, fold means you are getting off the session you are currently playing in, and raise means you bet more chips for the session.
after the three cards is dealt, each player has two more opportunities to raise the pot. each player also can fold if you assume other players have better hands than yours. the each time a new card is shown to players. So total cards are five, players match up their two cards with those five cards to make a hand. you need to carefully observe other players, if they have better hands than you or not. you can not be predictable, you have to have "poker face".
This game requires more than you ever think it does if you have never played it. that's why people are so absorbed in it.
at certain degree, I see similarity with mah-jong in poker. however, poker is less complex, fewer hands, thus, it is easier for anyone to learn. in exchange, players are required more insight be able to anticipate opponents hands.
I don't know why it is not popular in Japan, I never played it in Japan I believe nether do most people.
I want to play after coming back to Japan!
毎日5,6人と一緒にやっているんですが、初めてやったのは今期が始まってすぐくらいです。昨季も何人かがやっているのは知っていたんですがちょっとやり方がいまいち不明だったため控えていました。
ポーカーはポーカーなんですがちょっと日本人になじみのあるポーカーとは違います。
カードは2枚しか手元には配られません。何故でしょう？
こんな場面を想定してみてください、従来の5枚で6人がテーブルにいるとします。
カードは54枚しかありません、最初のディールで30枚が配られてしまいます。残りの24枚ではみんながチェンジ出来ません。
だから2枚なんです、どうなるかとゆうと、最初の2枚が配られた時点でまずチップをベットします。全てのプレイヤーがチップを賭けたあと3枚のカードが全てのプレイヤーに表示されます。そしてこの3枚が自分の手元の2枚と照らし合わせ役を探すための5枚です。プレイヤーは各々チェック、フォールド、レイズすることができます。
チェックとは何もしないことです。フォールドとはその場を降ります。レイズは名のとおり賭けチップを増やし相手にプレッシャーを与えることが出来ます。
ここで5枚揃っているのですが、その後更に2回のレイズ機会がプレイヤー達に与えられその度に1枚のカードが追加提示されます。なので最後までフォールドしないプレイヤーは合計7枚のカードで役作りすることができます。
プレイヤーは注意深く相手を観察し相手の読む洞察力が必要になります、そして自分は常に冷静を装い”ポーカーフェイス”を常に装う必要があります。
このTexashold'emはあたなが考える以上に色んな要素を必要とされます。
自分は一部にマージャンと通じる部分があると感じましたが、それよりもプレイ自体は単純で役も少ないため覚えるのが簡単です。その代わりにプレイヤー達はマージャン以上に相手の手を予測する必要があります。
自分には何故これが日本では流行っていないのが不思議ですが日本に帰ってもやりたいと思っています！
Texas Hold'em
I'm playing it almost everynight with five, six guys. my first time was the begining of this semester. I always was interested, but I was not sure how to play. it's poker, but I think its different from what we japanese know as poker. you only have two cards on your hands instead of five. you know why? think of a situation which let's say six people are at the the table playing poker, if five cards are dealt for each one, that leaves only 54 - 30 = 24 cards. after first cards are dealt, players need to change their cards to draw a hand, but there are only 24 cards left. depending on the situation, but there might be a case in which all players can not change their cards.
So, we play with two cards, how this works is after two cards are dealt for each player, they make a bet, after everybody make their bet, only three cards, with which you can match up your two cards will be shown for every player. after this, each player make their bet again, each player can either "ckeck", "fold", and "raise". check means no action, fold means you are getting off the session you are currently playing in, and raise means you bet more chips for the session.
after the three cards is dealt, each player has two more opportunities to raise the pot. each player also can fold if you assume other players have better hands than yours. the each time a new card is shown to players. So total cards are five, players match up their two cards with those five cards to make a hand. you need to carefully observe other players, if they have better hands than you or not. you can not be predictable, you have to have "poker face".
This game requires more than you ever think it does if you have never played it. that's why people are so absorbed in it.
at certain degree, I see similarity with mah-jong in poker. however, poker is less complex, fewer hands, thus, it is easier for anyone to learn. in exchange, players are required more insight be able to anticipate opponents hands.
I don't know why it is not popular in Japan, I never played it in Japan I believe nether do most people.
I want to play after coming back to Japan!
もう今期も2週間になりました
ほんと時間が過ぎるのは早いものです、もし全ての雪が溶けて暖かくなってたらもっと時間の流れを感じてたとおもいます。あいにく今日はめっちゃどんよりした天気です
今期ですが自分は５教科とっています、１教科は免除になりました。そもそもその教科はＣＣＮＡとゆうＣｉｓｉｃｏ社の資格に向けた内容で自分は既に取得済みなためです。
５教科の内容は
Ｃｏｍｍｕｎｉｃａｔｉｏｎ ａｔ ｗｏｒｋ
このコースは仕事環境でのやりとりを重視したものでメールの書き方、会議模範、調査レポートなどを含みます。
自分は”書き”がまだ苦手です、大分成長はしたもののまだまだ間違いが多いです。
Ｏｊｉｂｗｅ ｌａｎｇｕａｇｅ ａｎｄ ｃｕｌｔｕｒｅ
これはカナダの先住民特にオンタリオの言葉を主とした教科。先生がちと怠慢。
だけど基本的に出席してるだけで点がもらえるので昨季に続きとっています。
Ｓｅｒｖｅｒ Ａｄｍｉｎｉｓｔｒａｔｉｏｎ
マイクロソフト２００３サーバーに特化したコース、もう一つの方と何が違うのかはちと不明
Ｓｅｒｖｅｒ Ｃｏｎｆｉｇｕｒａｔｉｏｎ
同じく２００３サーバー特化コース、今期終わった後にこの資格取得を試みている。。
ＴＣＰ／ＩＰ
なんとゆうかネットワークの包括みたいな内容。特にＴＣＰ／ＩＰに特化はしてなく基本的なＩＰアドレスからサーバーの話、更にルーティングプロトコルまでを勉強
今期のまず目標としてＤｅａｎ’ｓｌｉｓｔとゆうものに残るとゆうこと、今のところは順調で期末テストで失敗しない限りはいけそうですｗ
The semester leaves only two weeks to go....
How fast time is passing by, it maight have felt even faster if all snow melted away and it brought warmer temperatures. unfortunatly the weather is groomy today, I'm staying home a little depressed by that.
So far, I had five courses this semester, I was exempted from one course, which focuses on Cisco CCNA certificate, because I have it.
The five courses are Communication at work, Ojibwe language and culture 2, Server administration, Server configuration and TCP/IP.
Communication at work is focused on any communication methods used in work environments which includes e-mails, meetings, research reports and resumes. although my writing skills has improved, I still make lots and lots of mistakes when i write. So, I am not really good at keeping good marks for this course.
Ojibwe language and culture 2 is studying about aboriginal people in canada especially around Ontario. the teacher is a bit lazy though, he I think is not passionated about teaching much. I'm taking this just because he gives marks without us doing not much.
Server Administration is focused on microsoft windows server 2003, Im not sure what defferentiate this from the other one.
Server Configuration is same as Server administration, these two actually focus on certificate of microsoft. I'm looking to get it after this semester.
TCP/IP is not only focused on TCP/IP, it covers broad network areas, from IP address calculations to various servers and routing protocols. it doesn't really specialize in anything, its like a recap of networking.
I find Server configuration most interesting and beneficial for my future career, my purpose of staying dean's list from the last semester is likely accomplished as long as I won't do bad on the final exams.
ほんと時間が過ぎるのは早いものです、もし全ての雪が溶けて暖かくなってたらもっと時間の流れを感じてたとおもいます。あいにく今日はめっちゃどんよりした天気です
今期ですが自分は５教科とっています、１教科は免除になりました。そもそもその教科はＣＣＮＡとゆうＣｉｓｉｃｏ社の資格に向けた内容で自分は既に取得済みなためです。
５教科の内容は
Ｃｏｍｍｕｎｉｃａｔｉｏｎ ａｔ ｗｏｒｋ
このコースは仕事環境でのやりとりを重視したものでメールの書き方、会議模範、調査レポートなどを含みます。
自分は”書き”がまだ苦手です、大分成長はしたもののまだまだ間違いが多いです。
Ｏｊｉｂｗｅ ｌａｎｇｕａｇｅ ａｎｄ ｃｕｌｔｕｒｅ
これはカナダの先住民特にオンタリオの言葉を主とした教科。先生がちと怠慢。
だけど基本的に出席してるだけで点がもらえるので昨季に続きとっています。
Ｓｅｒｖｅｒ Ａｄｍｉｎｉｓｔｒａｔｉｏｎ
マイクロソフト２００３サーバーに特化したコース、もう一つの方と何が違うのかはちと不明
Ｓｅｒｖｅｒ Ｃｏｎｆｉｇｕｒａｔｉｏｎ
同じく２００３サーバー特化コース、今期終わった後にこの資格取得を試みている。。
ＴＣＰ／ＩＰ
なんとゆうかネットワークの包括みたいな内容。特にＴＣＰ／ＩＰに特化はしてなく基本的なＩＰアドレスからサーバーの話、更にルーティングプロトコルまでを勉強
今期のまず目標としてＤｅａｎ’ｓｌｉｓｔとゆうものに残るとゆうこと、今のところは順調で期末テストで失敗しない限りはいけそうですｗ
The semester leaves only two weeks to go....
How fast time is passing by, it maight have felt even faster if all snow melted away and it brought warmer temperatures. unfortunatly the weather is groomy today, I'm staying home a little depressed by that.
So far, I had five courses this semester, I was exempted from one course, which focuses on Cisco CCNA certificate, because I have it.
The five courses are Communication at work, Ojibwe language and culture 2, Server administration, Server configuration and TCP/IP.
Communication at work is focused on any communication methods used in work environments which includes e-mails, meetings, research reports and resumes. although my writing skills has improved, I still make lots and lots of mistakes when i write. So, I am not really good at keeping good marks for this course.
Ojibwe language and culture 2 is studying about aboriginal people in canada especially around Ontario. the teacher is a bit lazy though, he I think is not passionated about teaching much. I'm taking this just because he gives marks without us doing not much.
Server Administration is focused on microsoft windows server 2003, Im not sure what defferentiate this from the other one.
Server Configuration is same as Server administration, these two actually focus on certificate of microsoft. I'm looking to get it after this semester.
TCP/IP is not only focused on TCP/IP, it covers broad network areas, from IP address calculations to various servers and routing protocols. it doesn't really specialize in anything, its like a recap of networking.
I find Server configuration most interesting and beneficial for my future career, my purpose of staying dean's list from the last semester is likely accomplished as long as I won't do bad on the final exams.