何度か行ったがん患者の会は苦手だった
辛い時にみんなで傷を舐め合って慰め合おうみたいな会は、暗くなったメンタルが復活するのに数日かかった
それで元気になる人もいるんだろうと思うけど、病気との向き合い方が、私には合わなかったんだと思う
でも彼女は違った
彼女がいると明るくて
いつも楽しい話ばかりをしていて
幼い大好きな子供たちの写真を見せて嬉しそうに話してくれた
In between my first and second surgery, I went to some breast cancer meet ups
I tried several, but found myself feeling depressed after each visit
The types of meet ups where women gathered around to listen to each others sad painful experiences killed me inside
Some people feel better after this I suppose, but it wasn't how I wanted to face my sickness, it wasn't my way of dealing with it
Getting swollen up and reliving the painful emotions, wasnt my style
My new friend was none of that
She was a strong ray of sunshine that brightened up the room
She was always talking about things she enjoyed
She showed me her little kids that she loved, and talked about them happily