本当は全摘でなく、同時再建も考えたかった

まだ20代だったし、胸が完全になくなるのは考え難かったから

でも主治医に再建の前に命をと言われ、そんなの比較できないだろうと思いつつも、そう言われるのには理由があるんだと思った

 

4ヶ月での再発がどれだけ異例なのか、統計上はわからなかったけど

よろしくない状況なのは主治医の言葉や早く手術をしたい想いに伝わってきた

 

緊急枠があったのだろう、セカンドオピニオンを取って、全摘手術を受けると伝えたらすぐに手術日が決まった

10月7日に最後の採卵をしてから、まさか10月25日に再発で全摘手術を受けるとは思ってもなかった

 

 

I wanted to think about reconstruction at the same time I do full mastectomy

I was still in my 20s, I had just broken up and I was still a young girl - I couldn't think of losing a breast

My doctor's words were that I need to think about my life before recon

I don't think its something that can be compared, but I understood

 

I didnt quite fully understand how irregular it was to have a recurrence in 4months

I didn't have numbers, and I wasn't going to go look it up

I had enough information that it was a grave situation, just by looking at my doctos face and tone in his voice

 

As soon as I agreed to full mastectomy after the secon opinion, my surgery date was fixed immediately

I did my last oocyte collection on the 7th of October

Little did I think I would be going through another surgery for recurrence on the 25th of October