病院についてから、私はいつもの調子で自分の質問や懸念をお医者さんに質問した
一通り話し終わったら、父が話し始めた
寡黙な父は、ここ4ヶ月、病気のことをほとんど直接聞いてこなかった
父の口から出てくる質問は、明らかに娘の病気、乳がんのタイプ、乳がんの標準治療、様々な治療方法を勉強した人の質問だった
あの忙しすぎる仕事のスケジュールの中、この人は一体いつこんなに私の病気について知識を貯めたんだろう
何も言わないくせに、どれだけ心配してくれてるんだろう
表には出さないけど、なんて頼れる父親なんだろうと、胸が熱くなって、セカンドオピニオンのことを忘れかけた
As we arrived at the hospital, I went through my questions and concerns with the doctor in my usual way
After I finished talking, my father opened his mouth
My very quiet father hardly asked me much about my breast cancer in the last 4 months
I wondered what he was going to ask, whether he was going to ask if I would be ok like my mother did
Instead, the questions that he asked were those that would only come from a person who studied breast cancer, the types of breast cancer, the standard treatment, the other options
I was taken aback
Wondering when in the world he made time to study all of this, in his super busy schedule all over Japan
How much pain is he going through for me silently
And what a wonderful reliable father he was, if he cared not to show
How blessed I was to be his daughter
I forgot about my second opinion for a while