人生でこれからある困難なことに一緒に対応していくことを考えたら、無理だった
歯車が狂い始めてしばらくお互い頑張ったけど
抗がん剤治療開始直前に彼から別れを告げられた
苦しかった
1番身近だと思ってた人が、1番辛い時にいなくなって、心の穴をどうやって埋めればいいのかわからなかった
病気のことはさておき、どうしたら上手く行ったのか考えた
考えても意味ないこと、いっぱい考えた
文章に書いて、自分の感情を整理しようとした
失恋だけでも辛いけど、今の状況下では、全てが真っ暗だった
Life gives us lemons, this wasn’t going to be the only lemon in my life - when I thought of that, I saw how we wouldn’t be able to do life together.
We tried to fix things when our relationship started to tear apart, and we both worked as much as we could
But at the end, he broke up with me right before my chemo therapy started
It was painful
The person I thought was the closest to me left me, at the worst time and I didn't know how to fill the void in my heart.
Putting aside my illness, I wondered how we could have done it differently to make it work
My mind thought of a lot of things that were pointless to think about
I tried to sort and make sense of my feelings by writing
Heartbreak alone hurts like hell
But under the current circumstances, everything was a blackhole