彼らがいなかったら、私は今ここにこの状態ではいない
身体が治療を乗り越えていたとしても、心は同じ状態ではない
1番身近な人だと思ってたパートナーから、欲しかった支えがもらえなかったのは辛かった
この病気を乗り越えるのは私だけで、周りは何もできないと考えるのは恐ろしかった
孤独にされたことよりもっと辛かったのは、家族含め周りが一生懸命支えてくれていることを、無意味だと言われた同然だったこと
とても受け入れ難かった
If it weren't for my family and friends, I would not be here right now
Even if my body survived the treatment, my mind would not have been in this healthy state
It was painful not getting support I wanted from my partner who I thought was the person closest to my heart
The thought that I'm the only one who can overcome this disease, and my my loved ones could’t do anything was painful
What was even more painful than being left alone was being told that it was meaningless for the people around me, including my family, who were supporting me with all their might.
Those values were something I couldn't come to terms with