本当は、彼にそこにいてほしかった
初めての手術の時も、一時帰国して一緒にいてほしかった
それだけで、私の安心は違ったから
でも彼は帰ってこないことを決めた
最終的に治療を乗り越えるのは、私だからと
私の家族や友人たちの対応は違った
手術と治療を受けなければならないのは、確かに私の身体
でもメンタルな部分は、1人にされなかった
I really wanted him to be there
When I had my very first surgery, I hoped he would come back to Japan and stay by my side
Because frankly, it would have had a big impact on my peace of mind
He didn't come back
He decided not to come back, because I was the one who had to overcome this
My family and friends treated me differently
It’s certainly true that my body was the one that had to undergo surgery and treatment - Only my body could do that
But as taking care of my mind - I wasn't left alone