何度か説明を受けてる際、私の身体の対応について早く決めることを淡々と勧めるお医者さんの言葉に涙が止まらなくなり、その後その先生は私の前に出てこなくなったこともあった
多分病院側の連携と配慮だと思う
今考えると、少しでも私の苦痛を無くすために、そんなメンタルサポートも陰でしてくれる病院の連携は有り難かった
一方で、自分の身体に対する決断ができない私の気持ちを汲み取り、混雑している診察が押していても、1時間以上かけて、質問がなくなるまで付き合ってくれる先生もいた
今でもその先生には本当に感謝してる
激混みで激務の先生の立場からすれば、1人の女の子の消化不良に付き合うのは時間使ったと思う
私のせいで残業させたんだと思う
でも辛い時に私の心の声を聴き取り、一緒に歩もうとしてくれる先生は本当に有り難かった
手術前にも会いにきて励ましてくれて、もう合わなくなったけど今でも大好きな、本にも書いた先生
本当にありがとうございます
While receiving explanations several times for me to make up my mind, there were unfortunate visits where I couldn't stop crying at the words of one of the gynaecologists, who bluntly told me to hurry up and make a decision. The doctor never appear in front of me after that.
I probably never saw that doctor again, thanks to the hospital's consideration.
I was grateful for how hospital saw my agony and tried to make it easier behind my back.
On the other hand, there was a doctor who understood my struggles to make decisions about my one and only body, and stayed with me for more than an hour until I had no more questions, even when my time was up and there were many people waiting for him.
I’m still extremely grateful for that doctor.
From the doctors point of view, he was overworked and his schedules overcrowded, and he could have thought it a waste of time to deal with one girl's struggles
I probably made him work overtime because of me
But I was truly grateful to have a doctor who listened to my heart and tried to walk the journey with me when I was having a hard time.
He came to see me before my big surgery and encouraged me. He’s the doctor that has a page in my book - I don’t see him any more, but I’m still grateful for him
Thank you doctor, you helped the girl so much