so sorry...

god... thinking back how rude i was...


I was at my local gathering last Saturday, hosted by my old friend and some.
In other word, drinking party at 居酒屋.
There were over 20 people not only people who I have known.
some new faces for me, and some who I haven't seen for so long.
this wasn't just a gathering, one of my friend had said.
In my local area, there are several public junior high school exists despite a small district so that numerous fellow pupils who you've never known or seen are around your local.
more than you think.

the concept of the gathering is ... what? what was it?
um...i think the concept was that making a friend could be tough as you get older because
of the change of your environment or something like that. i forgot.
like making 0 to 1 is really difficult, but once you get it, making 1 to 2 or 3 could go
easily.
the title of it was... " the love haven't even started yet."

anyways, the point is that you have lived in a town you were born and raised but you don't
know much people with your age who also have lived in the same area. isn't it too sad?
if you get to have more and more local friends, your life would be more enjoyable and
the possibility would also be expandable.
that is it. that was the purpose of the gathering.
you see what i am saying?
no? well it's okay.
i don't even know what has been said,too! haha

okay, the party was good.
here is the disaster i got.

I had talked to the guy who came to the party with two more fellows in the last 30 minutes
before it ends.
i recognized that two of them looked familiar to me but he didn't.
maybe just because they were not from the school i was at.

anyways, since the guy had sat down across from me, I tried to talk and get along with him.
we started chatting with the introduction, such as "nice to meet you. my name is ～.
what's yours?."

and then when he got to know the fact that i was from the specific school, he asked me if i
knew a girl named ○○.

she was the one of my classmates so i replied
" oh ya! of course i know her! pretty fat girl, isn't she?".

a little silence.
he looked like...paused.

i added. " how did you know about her? had hung out with her a lot?"

" um she was my ex-girl friend..."


oh-oh.

hate the way you walk!

ugh! you idiot!
don't walk in front of me like that!

i know this is not what i could control but how i feel when a fucking stupid lady walk right
in front of me, like you take the lead, especially in a crowded daily morning.

haven't you see a lady walking with their arms swinging back and forth wildly?
when i commute, i sometimes run into that kind of ladies.
and unfortunately, i am to walk right behind them.
i don't know why.
just they appear like that and being in front of me when i notice.

and you know, because of the way they walk with their arms swinging so hard, their hands
sometimes hit the part of me, like a significant place for men, you know, but ACCIDENTALLY.

rrrrright. maybe too close to them when i walk?
my fault to be thought it was me?

no, the answer is no.

you see the great number of people commuting by trains and swarming in platforms of stations in the weekday morning in tokyo.
there is no space to take a step back, just you have to follow the stream of people to head
for your direction.

oookay, when the hands, whose fugly ladies, either touch or hit me, of course not even my
purpose, they turn back toward me and give me a frown as though i've done it as i planned.


wwwwwwwwwwtf!?


i didn't even thought of trying to be behind you and wanting you to touch me in that way!
for that matter, you hurt me. because you walk like that!
you slap the exact point of me! you gotta be sorry! not me!


understand!?

missed a big chance to see them!

I had no idea that big well-known music artists in the us had come to tokyo and had a concert in a small club in shibuya!

LMFAO!
the group creating dance music, R&B, and any kinds of music.
i love their songs, one of my favorite artists in Hollywood.

Back to the morning today, i was preparing my stuffs for work cuz i had a day shift, which
was the shift i hadn't been on, so i was much much sleepy.
it had been a while you know ...and plus, I stayed up until 2 or 3 am last night.

In these days, my shifts had been night shifts or kinda middle shifts, which means i didn't
have to get up early morning.
fantastic! isn't it?

Anyways, when i was doing my hair, i overheard that some kinda familiar sounds came from the
TV in the bedroom. I made my way toward TV and saw the group, LMFAO, was on the news describing they had a small live concert in shibuya last night.

holy fuck...didn't even know that...

How inconceivable that was,such a major artist in the us as known worldwide had a small
concert at a not big club in shibuya???
it is just unbelievable, man.

why couldn't i get any info of that!?
shit! shit! this is shit!
Just regret to not be part of them there.
If i knew it, i absolutely would have bought a ticket, no matter what.
seriously.

think of it.
in this case, you could have seen LMFAO in person and from where you could touch them or
where they could hear your voices!
Isn't it amazing?

in most of cases, when major artists make a plan to have concerts in anywhere in the world,
places chosen by them would be huge stadiums or something like 10,000 or more capacity big
fields.
That is what we call "concerts" produced by major artists, isn't it?
you barely see them but not really.


god, LMFAO had had the concert in the fucking small japanese club.
damn...i missed it.