New me!

Okay!
I've decided to write my journal again!
To build my speaking english skill from the beginning.

A few days ago, I went to an English cafe and joined a conversation for an hour.
There was a lady chat host named.... i forgot but I remember she is from Australia.
Anyway, it has been so long since the last time I visited there.
I was worried about myself speaking english because...
not that I haven't study english, I have been doing practices on essays and reading some books in these days,
but speaking is different, you know.
However, out of nowhere, I kinda had a confidence about speaking up with a host on the table at the cafe that day.
I always am a positive man.
But to be honest, it didn't go well as I thought.
The reason for that was very obvious.
Essays and books that I have worked on, both uses kinda words that aren't used in a daily conversation.
Whenever words came into my mind, I found myself correcting words if there was a spelling mistake or order mistake and
struggling to tell what I was gonna say, taking so long.
Isn't this a bad habit?
I mean, when I speak what I think, everytime I tend to check and correct words in my mind before speaking up.
This is worst. Poor me.
I thought it wouldn't be problems, not visiting the cafe for long time, but it would.
Now that I know how important it is. Good lesson.
To improve myself, I have to do "Speak out right away as I think of something."
It's totally not a word of wisdom. It's a word I made up just right now.lol

In conclusion, there are two things I've decided.
To do my daily jounal again as I had done before and to go visit the cafe at least once a week.
Plus, to keep doing practices for essays and focusing on CCNP as well.
It would be hard but very beneficial when done.

ramen restaurants.

let me introduce a story of ramen restaurants.


There are three ramen restaurants newly open on the street, side by side.

the left one has a name " the best ramen restaurant in the world ".
the right one has a name " the best ramen restaurant in the universe ".

the middle one, what name they put on the sign is " the entrance is right here."

you kiddin!

this is one of my embarrassing stories I've ever had.
before i start telling the story, let me mention these below, not an excuse at all!

when there is a lady looks pregnant in trains, in buses, or maybe at restaurants and
if you notice them coming down to you, you might go help them do something better for them
such as, you know, giving a seat you've sat in a train or let them go first to be seated
while waiting for the table at a restaurant, for example.

Behavior. just to be nice to them, don't you do that?
I do.



okay. get back to the agenda.
what was happening to me was on the way home from work one day, taking a train, pretty
crowded.
when i transferred for another train line, and as soon as i entered another train,
I got seated.
But then i realized there was a lady with a pregnant belly, barely i could tell, coming in
and stopped in front of me. again, pretty crowded.
she looks pregnant but possibly not.
because of the loose clothing she was wearing, i can't tell you whether she WAS pregnant or
not.she could be.

i thought of giving my seat to her at first but suddenly something came to my mind that
"if she was NOT? wouldn't it be too rude?
of course man!
it could be so mean.
oooookay. so what do i do?"

asking myself what to do.

in the end, somehow i came to think that she was pregnant cuz she looks a little chubby but her forearms and legs are skinny! or some kinda of.
just her belly was a little chubby.
it made me think of that she IS third or fourth months pregnant.

i stood up, with decision, and went closer to her ear and then told to take my seat.
like " you can take my seat."

yet she replied "no. it's okay. i'm fine."
　
well, that was not the word i was expecting.
I thought that she rejected because of her shyness or something.

although i had caught the eyes of people around me, again pretty crowded train,
i asked her again " it's okay.
you shouldn't be like that. you are pregnant, aren't you? i will be
getting off at next stop. just take............."

before i finish the last of the word, she slowly opened her mouth with kind of huge surprising and
studied at my eyes.
said with " i'm NOT pregnant at all! No! "




.......oh my god.