deciding what to do...

There was another huge earthquake occurred in Fukushima prefecture, the magnitude of 5.4?
and the media said that it was still one of tremors triggered by March 11 earthquake?
Holy crap...
how long will it last...

It struck Tokyo as well but very slightly.
When I heard there was the level 5 earthquake coming, I almost leaped up from a chair!
(We have an early earthquake warning system in an office, which tells you that at where and
of what magnitude it would be when earthquakes occur, and you get those info about 30 seconds
earlier it actually arrives where you can feel it.)
Well, everybody in the office tuned their necks or stood up to look at the system to make sure
what they heard of was not a lie.
The system is not always accurate, but this time, all their faces must have gotten pale cuz
it kinda reminded us the 3.11 disaster.

"Never happens" is my genuine hope.


At the moment, I was deciding what to do...
either crouching under the desk or waiting to see until it actually comes closer or ...

I should settle on an action I take for this kinda unexpected things.

typical fucking japanese bitch!

Here another fucking japanese bitch was!
I know this kinda fucking crazy bitches, I've seen them very often among japanese ladies who had gone abroad or lived in other countries.

don't wanna talk because I'm japanese and not speak english fluently as you do!?
am i kinda a shit!?
you do look down on me, don't you!?
ah fuck off.



i tell you the story.


One day, i was on the way home from work and fortunately I had an opportunity to talk to a
black guy in a platform of Medaimae station.
When I was in a train which was heading for Meidaimae, I overheard an english conversation
out of nowhere and noticed there was a black old guy and some Japanese talking in english.
At the moment, I just didn't really care about it.

When we got to Shimokitasawa station, those japanese stepped off and left the black old guy
in the train.
As soon as the guy had a seat, he had asked a person right next to him for how to get to
Cho-hu station, and seemed to be told to get off at a next stop, which was Meidaimae,
and transfer to the Keio line, that leads him to Cho-fu.
I was not sure if the asked japanese guy gave those instructions to the black guy
correctly, but I thought he did.

As the train arrived Meidaimae, the guy got off and started to walk as if he had no idea
which ways were correct and not really didn't know.
That action he took encouraged me to go talk and help him out.
Actually, I might had been given a chance by him.

He was a great man. I first thought.
When i asked him to let me guide him to keio-line, he nodded and had a big smile on his face.

...I forgot his name.

As we made our way to Keio line, we had minutes to talk a little bit.

while heading for the platform of keio-line, I questioned him...
"what do you do for living?"
"how long have you been here in japan?"
took those some kinda steps.
Like you do when meeting someone who you don't know.
if not, what would you ask?

Anyway, what really struck me was that he was a jazz singer!
it even didn't come in my mind.
Absolutely　doesn't have nothing to do with me at all, but it was rare for me to see someone who does it as a job. you know.
And he gave me his business card, printed his name and what group he belongs with on it,
regardless of saying I'm not into jazz music.
Thanks. I meant no offence. genuinely I felt.
Then he began to describe that he had performed worldwide.
For instance, it took places in LA, London, NewYork, etc.
In these days, he has been performing in japan, tokyo and oosaka.

Since I had attended an english cafe for an hour, I might had been confident in speak of
english. I was just eager to talk!
When we got to a platform of Keio line, we had a little chitchat like how horrible it was
always in a morning train. Too many people. crazy!

In all of sudden and out of nowhere, a lady showed up, well actually she was standing right
next to me, waiting for the next train as we were doing, but i just didn't noticed.
She suddenly interrupted us! well, should i say she joined in our conversation?
She started talking to the black guy, asking what i had asked him just before.
"what do you do?"
"are you permanent here?"
those kinda questions, she asked.

That's fine for me.
I didn't even care about interrupting because I understood there was not many
opportunities for speaking english on the streets in japan.
she might had been eager as well, like me.

He replied to her gently.
And after he mentioned, he was a jazz singer.
I was like "ya he is a worldwide jazz singer! awesome isn't he?"
Words just came out of my mouth.
Since I already knew the answers to those questions?
I don't know... I think i was just welcoming her to join our conversation and trying to be
friendly.

Yet, i realized that there was a serious problem being raised.
I thought... could have had some interaction with her, but it turned out.
what happened was that she had talked to the black guy as if i was invisible,
knowing I was the one who had been chatting with him!
She didn't talked to me and even didn't look at me.
Her eyes were straight toward the black guy.





you bitch.

just can't believe!

Haven't you had an experience that the doors of the elevator just closed despite all of your
effort to make it?

From my experiences, there is always a person who pushes the button of "close" in the elevator, knowing somebody heading to the elevator and rushing into.
I had faced this issues many times.
I don't know exactly why the person do that. Just making a fun of me?
Just wanna go downstairs quickly?
or maybe the person would be in rush.

Whatever it is, don't fucking even let the elevator close if you see somebody running and
get eye to eye with him/her before closing.

It just happened to me today.
I was heading toward the elevator and saw there was one just before taking off, so I started
ran. He, in the elevator, must had seen me running.
The distance from where I was at that moment to the elevator was not much far, and plus, I had
caught the person's eye so I thought the guy would wait for me and let me get in.
But he didn't do what I was expecting him.
Just shout the fucking doors when I got to right front of it, as though there was no person
getting in.


...FUCK you.

Why couldn't he wait just a second?
Doesn't wanna miss even any seconds? 5 seconds maybe enough.
Wasteful?
fuck you.


If you were the person in the elevator, would you do that?
I wouldn't.