三男の誕生日。
お祝いパーティーは後日だけど、今日は誕生日気分で過ごしてます。
17歳です。
17年前に生まれたときのことを昨日のことのように覚えてます。
3人目、しかも双子の五歳下の3人目だったので子育てに対する緊張感もなく、手放しで誕生を喜び、手放しで愛情をかけて育ててきました。
私自身が年の離れた末っ子で、本当にかわいがられて育ったと言われていましたが、三男を産んでなるほど、こうやってかわいがられたんだなとわかりました。
手放しでかわいがられた人にもいいことと、悪いことがあるでしょうけど、いいことを活かして生きていってもらいたいです。
びっくりするくらい自由で、やらなくちゃいけないこともほとんどやらず、やりたいことしかやらないけど、図太く生きてもらいたいです。
Today is my youngest son’s birthday.
We will have a birthday party next weekend but today I spend time feeling celebrated.
He turned 17 years old.
I still remember the moment when he was born as if it was just yesterday.
He was born as the third son, especially after the twins, therefore I just had the joy of his birth and have just given him my love without the pressure to raise a child.
I had been told that I grew up with a lot of love because I was much younger than my brother and the youngest child of my parents.
I understood that after I had him and looked at how he was deeply loved.
Those who were given much love have pros and cons but I wish he would leverage the pros.
He isn't forced at all, doesn't do what he should do, and does only what he wants to do, but I wish he would boldly survive.