the Japanese

I'm so happy （‐＾▽＾‐）

"Nishinomiya boys and girls chorus" was here for four days. There were about 45 singers - just two boys. I went to town with them every day and we talked in English - sometimes it was hard to understand, but I was able to do it! I got new friends too - Rimika was such a wonderful girl. I miss her so much...

I got new friends from our acting group, too! I'm still surprised how kind they were. I have one new friend from our school too - she is maybe going to join our choir! I hope that she will do it, she seems to be very friendly and nice ☆

So, the Japanese bought some salmiakki (it's a Finnish candy) and I ate doughnuts with them. It was very good, I want more of it! We talked lots, and I'm proud - I understood Japanese better than i excepted. I taught Rimika to say "mustikka" which means a blueberry. We had fun time together... I cried really much when they left. We all cried.

It was an amazing experience.

(｡・ε・｡)

I need a new haircut, I'm so fed up with this. I need a new color too. I want it to be blond, but mum is old fashioned, so she won't let me dye it... I want my hair to be longer. And I want to grow taller and get thinner! I want to be beautiful so badly o(；△；)o

My friends are so beautiful. I want to be one of them, but I can't...

Today I swam at school. I'm very much afraid of water, but the teacher understood me better than I thought. The school is going to go well, I feel it.

- ilona -

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... I'm so tired i could cry. I have headache (wrote "deadache" at first, lol), so I couldn't go back to school after practice... I feel guilty and bad. Soon I should go to the practice again, and I feel a little better because of the medicine. But when we came home from town I felt like someone was hitting my head all the time. It must be the ultimate hotness ヾ(｡｀Д´｡)ﾉ

After practice I go to town with a friend of mine. I should buy food too... tomorrow I can't eat at school. Maybe Steiner school will offer me food? They must do it on Friday too. I eat lots.

... I stole my mothers chocolates. She will get mad, eh.

No more today, I must be going. I'm going to be so late...

- ilona -

i've been tired.

I could sleep right here - I don't know why I'm so tired all the time. When Karin was here today, I nearly fell asleep... maybe it's the lack of coffee! ヽ(`Д´)ノ

The school has begun. I leave a bit early every day because of the choir, but it won't last long. Just next week, and I can be totally at school.

Today I've spent my time in memorizing and writing down old things. Many weird things have come to my mind.

My hair is wet and the table is wet too. It makes me remember the day I heard about Ayabie disbanding. The table was soaking wet 'cause of my tears.

I've had a nice day. Eero and Juho have been really kind - I even got a new camera from Juho. We three just sat in downstairs and ate chips and watched C.S.I. It was relaxing... though yesterday Eero's head was full of bullshit. He didn't listen to me at all, and he didn't behave himself.

My cosplay costume is nearly ready. Just the yellow shirt is missing - I'll do it myself someday. Then I should start doing my Hiroto cosplay.

... no more text today. I feel depressed about something.

- ilona -

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