a bit weird

Karin's coming here (｡・ε・｡)

Mum found "Little Dorrit" from our bookshelf! I'm happy to start reading it. The story is so lovely... though we have just the first part

Today it was fun at school. I spoke with our history teacher, who is a very strange guy. But in a funny way. It has been ages since I last talked with him.

Now I'm angry with my grandmother and father... they don't even try to understand young people's hardships. Though our counselor was really nice today. Again. I want to talk with him more so badly. There are things i need to discuss with him.

My hands are shaking again. ヾ(｡｀Д´｡)ﾉ

- ilona -

fuu

I still can't get to my own computer ヾ(｡｀Д´｡)ﾉ writing is very hard right now. And I think dad is angry with me 'cause I use his computer...

Actually I feel awful - my stomach and eyes hurt and I need someone to talk with. Too bad I have nobody like that... I have lots of friends, but this is a thing I can't speak up. There's one person I could talk, but I was said that I kill him with stress and worries so I'll not do it. I hope I've never talked to him... I don't want to make him worried. He's such nice to me.

Nowadays I'm told every day, that I'm killing somebody with my unsolved things, and I'm always wrong and everything is my fault, so I've decided to be more silent. That's why writing things up would be extra lovely right now, but... well. My PC's not working

I should prepare myself for the next test, too. German is easy for me, though. The zu-thing still goes far over my understanding.

Not feeling too happy. Sorry about the complaining.

Now I'll take some medicine and read more German

- ilona -

in fact in excited

I got to send that important email last week... and now I'm stressed (◎｀ε´◎ )

The answer came to me the following day. It was very nice, and I actually laughed to it for half an hour and I smile always when I remember it. So tomorrow I'm going to have a long chat - who knows what I'll say? I'll try to explain everything that's on my mind. Though I don't want to make him stressed...

Today was a good day. I have been quite happy at school in these days, and this day was one of them. The weird chemistry teacher I had looked today kind of friendly! Usually he looks at me in some odd way.

Mum's not at home. She's coming later with my brother, who is in military right now. My bro is very nice, and I hope he's on good mood. It's horrible when he's angry or sad. He shouts at me and hits sometimes. Not hard, though.

Now I must go to see if dad has made the food right (｡・ε・｡)