I don't give up until the end

I just got the important midterm back. I couldn't get the grade I wanted. o(；△；)o However, there is still more than one percent that I don't need to change my major, so I won't give up. I always didn't give up when I was playing basketball in the official games until the last second regardless winning or not. I need to remember that mind and keep going. (･ω･)b

finally..

My energy is getting back. I have been feeling very weak recently, so it is a good sign. I think I need to keep a good daily schedule, like sleep and wake up early, eat healthy, do streching or sports regularly.

I hope I can keep this good condition until the finals finish.. murikaa..(´＿｀｡)

my bad habit

When I feel insecure, I can't really say things directly. So I unconsciously imply what I want to say, which often makes people uncomfortable. At that time, I ruin the good atmosphere. I don't want to do it, but sometimes I can't help it.

I need to grow up! ┐(￣ヘ￣）┌

why..?

I got my midterm back from Econ class. I almost failed last time, so I studied more. However, I got the almost same score.・°・(ノД｀)・°・ It's so stressful. If I don't get a B at least in the final, I can't pass that class. I took time to study for this class but it didn't work. I really wondered why.

The professor in that class is a very old man. He doesn't say things directly. He uses NOT a lot in his sentences. I get unsure if he said 'not', so I don't understand what is correct in his statement. In other words, I'm not understanding what he says. And in his class, there is no lecture note or study guide for the exams at all, so it is fatal that I can't understand what he says.

I should have researched about classes I need to take. Since the last quarter, actually since I entered this university, I lost motivation for study, so I didn't really get prepared for anything. I'm often behind in this school. The reasons why I am failing in this class is not only things in the class but fundamental factors in me. ε=(｡・д・｡)

break after midterm

Finally, the last midterm in this quarter finished. I continuously had midterms for 5 weeks! Can't believe this! (°д°；)

After the midterm, I was just chilling out and hanging around. Then after dinner, my friend asked me to help him with some writing in Japanese, which was like resume. I found myself irritated since he tried to make me write it instead of him. I think that I was expecting too much to this friend too.

Also, I found that English native speakers don't really understand the fact that the way of Japanese writings needs to change a lot dpending on the situation. I think that it is hard for them to understand it because there are less differences between formal writings and general writings in English. I was too tired to put some effort to help fixing his writing. too bad..

I hope I can enjoy and relax this longer weekend! Oh I need to call my Chinese friend. I try not to forget..

Nervous

I am nervous about the last exam since I need to get a very good score from it. All I can do is just do as many problems as possible and get enough sleep. One good thing is I've already finished the homework due tomorrow morning.

I need good concentration-- ε=(｡・д・｡)

Worriedly

I'm stressed out again. Today, one of my friends tried to ask a certain question to me. I don't really like nosey people, especially people who try to know about the other people but hide their own story. I didn't feel good today and also I was studying all day long so I was really tired. If I was just normal, I would have ignored what he says, but I couldn't completely ignore. I think he noticed that I was feeling strange about what he says. Things didn't go well, so I was stressed out.

I do not have positive and cheerful mind today because of tiredness. This might be why I am thinking about that friend this way.

I can't study--(´□｀｡)

i hope..

This good concentration for study will last until I finish the last midterm and homework on Thursday.. (・∀・)

ganbaro tto

I needed some rest..?

I slept for about 9 hrs totally. I still feel tired but I think my body is releasing stress and fatigue right now. My mental state is very quiet. I'm not depressed. A few days ago, I was really depressed and I couldn't study at all, so it is good that I don't feel depressed today.

I have the last midterm for this quarter (finally!), and a big homework for econometrics class. I'll try my best for them. (°∀°)b

(´□｀｡) → (^∇^)

This morning, I was really really depressed in my class. I was about to cry at that time. I didn't want to talk to anyone. On the way back to my dorm, I found my roommate going same direction but I couldn't talk to her at all. The depression feeling lasted till evening. So I couldn't go to afternoon class. It was like if I go out of my dorm, I might start to cry. It was hard.

I think I'm getting better now. But.. I just wonder whether I absorbed energy from the other people then I became better. Hope not.

I hope that I wouldn't be depressed that much again because I have important schoolwork to do this weekend to next week..