I received 11 pairs of socks from kawabata.
The conversation after work went like this
me: (about to go to the backrooms) お疲れ様です！
kw: There's two plastic bags in the backrooms, it's for you. Take them, it's your birthday this weekend right?
me: ??? ah...! Thank you! (I didn't understand he wanted me to take the whole bag)
me: (bringing it out from the backrooms) I'll take one pair...?
kw: no they're all for you, the price tag is on and everything sorry but yeah
me: ???
kw: I heard from miu you liked my melody, there isn't my melody inside though...
me: no it's ok!!! Thank you so much !! really
and I brought home 11 pairs of socks.
I still don't know how to live. I still struggle with food. I still struggle with everything.
I went to work without any food yesterday, I survived till 12am. I cried the whole day, I couldn't hold in the tears.
Some drunk customer grabbed me by my arm when I went to collect the yakitori sticks, another invited me to have a drink and told me to take it easy.
I felt so horrible.
But those 11 pairs of socks really cheered me up a little, I am glad, and I am happy to have all the other staff there with me. It's just... so hard to live.
Am I really going to turn 21? Will I be okay?