若侍の娘は５歳で売られてゆきました。 ５歳の幼子でありながら女郎屋の掃除、洗濯、食事の支度、遊女の下働きをし、１２歳で客を取り、１７歳で労咳にかかり他界しました。 その娘は両親のもとに帰ることを夢見て、文句ひとつ言わずに懸命に働きました。
その娘は懸命に働いて得た少ない給金で両親に手紙を書くために文字を学びました。 周りから”遊女が文字を学んで何になる”と揶揄されながらも懸命に学びました。 そして、両親に宛てた手紙に、”元気で暮らしていること、今を楽しんでいること、そして、生んでくれた両親への感謝の気持ち”が綴られておりました。
その娘は自分に与えられた天からの運命を受け入れ、その運命の中で、まじめに、気高く、一所懸命に生き抜きました。 短い人生を、泥のように汚れた境遇の中で、誰を恨むことなく、気高く、美しく、人生を生き抜きました。 まるで、泥水の中から芽を出し、大きな丸い葉を広げ、やがて、薄紅色の美しい大輪の花をつける蓮のように。
私の娘の同級生の男の子が、中学２年生の時に急性白血病で亡くなりました。 その男の子は死を悟り、葬儀でいきものがかりの”ありがとう”を流すように遺言したそうです。 それまで、いきものがかりを知らなかった私は何度も何度も流れる”ありがとう”の唄を聞いて涙が止まりませんでした。 たった１４歳の男の子が、自分に起こった辛い運命をすべて受け入れ、両親、兄弟、友達、同級生に”ありがとう”を伝えたのです。
私はこの年になっても、自分の周りで起こる天からの不平等、不公平、不条理、理不尽、不幸で辛い運命を受け入れることができません。 そして、もがき苦しんでおります。 天からの試練が自分を成長させてくれると頭では分かっていても、感情では決して受け入れられません。 そして、悩み苦しんでおります。 運命の悲しい現実をすべて受け入れた時に、辛さ、苦しさから解放され、新しい出発ができることは頭ではわかっていますが、未だ出来ません。 １４歳の男の子が成し遂げたことが、未だにできません。
いきものがかり ”ありがとう”の唄
ありがとうって伝えたくて あなたを見つめるけど
つながれた右手は 誰よりも優しく
ほら この声を受止めてる
まぶしい朝に苦笑いしてさ あなたが窓を開ける
舞い込んだ未来が 始まりを教えて
またいつもの町へ出かけるよ
でこぼこなまま積み上げてきた 二人の淡い日々は
こぼれた光を 大事に集めて
今 輝いているんだ
あなたの夢がいつからか 二人の夢に変わっていた
今日だっていつか 大切な思い出
青空も泣き空も 晴れ渡るように
ありがとうって伝えたくて あなたを見つめるけど
つながれた右手が まっすぐな思いを
不器用に伝えている
いつまでもただいつまでも あなたと笑ってたから
信じたこの道を 確かめていくのに
今 ゆっくりと歩いて行こう
喧嘩した日も泣き合った日も それぞれいろ咲かせて
真っ白な心に描かれた未来を
まだ書き足していくんだ
だれかのために生きること だれかの愛を受け入れること
そうやって今を ちょっとずつ重ねて
喜びも悲しみも 分かち合えるように
思い合うことに幸せを あなたと見つけていけたら
ありふれたことさえ 輝きを抱くよ
ほら その声に寄り添ってく
愛してるって伝えたくて あなたに伝えたくて
かけがえのない手を あなたとのこれからを
わたしは信じてるから
ありがとうって言葉を今 あなたに伝えるから
つながれた右手は 誰よりも優しく
ほら この声を受止めてる
The daughter of the young worrier was sold at the age of five. Though it was a girl of 5 years old, cleaning of a brothel, wash, preparations of a meal, and the prostitute's subordinate work were carried out, the visitor was taken at the age of 12, and tuberculosis was started and it passed away at the age of 17.
The daughter worked hard, without fancying returning to parents' basis and even a complaint saying it. She studied the character, in order to write a letter to parents at little salary which worked hard.
Though bantered with "a prostitute studying a character and becoming what" from the surroundings, she learned hard. And "the feeling of I being fine and living, enjoying now, and the gratitude to the parents who bore" was spelled by the letter addressed to parents.
The daughter accepted the fate from the heavens, and survived nobly and hard seriously in the fate. In the environment which became dirty like mud about short life, without blaming whom, she was noble, and it was beautiful and survived life. Just like a lotus who shoots out a bud out of muddy water, becomes round big leaves, and pink's large flower soon.
My daughter's classmate's boy passed away in acute leukemia at the time of the second-year student in a junior high school. It is said that the boy realized death and expressed dying words as passing "thank you" of a stylish tale at a funeral. Till then, I who did not know a stylish tale heard a song of "thank you" which flows repeatedly, and a tear did not stop. Only 14-year-old boy accepted all the hot fate that happened to himself, and told parents, the brothers, the friends, and the classmates "thank you."
Though I become around 60 years old, I cannot accept unfairness, inequality, diseases, unhappiness from god/buddha. And I am struggled and troubled. An ordeal from god/buddha grows me up. Though I know it with my head, by feeling, I never accept it. And I am worried and troubled. When all fates are accepted, I know I am released from hardness and painfulness and I can start again, but I cannot yet do it. I cannot yet do what only 14-year-old boy did.
A song of "Thank you" by Ikimonogakari
I would like to tell thank you. Right hand connected although you were gazed at It is a big talk more gently than whom. This voice is caught.
It smiles bitterly in the dazzling morning. In you, the future which opens a window and which came in unexpectedly He teaches beginning and goes to a usual town again.
While it has been uneven, it has accumulated. It is the light which fell two persons' light days. It collects carefully and is shining now.
Your dream -- from [ when ] today when it had changed to two persons' dream -- when an important recollections blue sky also cries -- empty it clears up -- as
I would like to tell thank you. The right hand connected although you were gazed at The straight thought is told awkwardly.
Forever -- merely -- forever -- This way believed since he was laughing it as you confirming -- Kon -- I will walk slowly and will go
The day which quarreled, and day which cried each other be, respectively -- the future which made it bloom and was envisioned in the pure white heart is still added
It lives for someone. Someone's love is accepted.
It does so and is now. Pile up every just for a moment. Also joy and sadness Share.
It is happiness for considering each other. When it could be found with you, were even common. Brightness is held. Big talk It nestles up to the voice and is く.
I would like to tell that it loves. Hand which he would like to tell you and is irreplaceable After I believe future with you
It is now about language as thank you. Right hand connected since it told you It is a big talk more gently than whom. This voice is caught.
蓮の花 ： Lotus flower
