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2019 May 2

／(･ × ･)＼・・(○･ω･)ﾉ----end-----◌⑅⃝●♡⋆♡⃝ ˻˳˯ₑ♡⃝⋆●♡⑅⃝◌꙳★*ﾟ꙳★*ﾟ꙳★*ﾟ°｡⋆⸜(ू˙꒳​˙ )໒꒱大好きです!I love stars!(○･ω･)ﾉ----end-----✩°｡⋆⸜(ू˙꒳​˙ )໒꒱・・・Heisei has ended!New era has begun!Welcome Reiwa!令和もよろしくお願いします！<(_ _)>(○･ω･)ﾉ----end-----✩°｡⋆⸜(ू˙꒳​˙ )໒꒱

2019 APRIL

／(･ × ･)＼・・・・Heisei has ended.(○･ω･)ﾉ----end-----

2019-04-15

／(･ × ･)＼・・woke up early,had breakfast early,had coffee early,rest for a bit,before doing your agendafor today.あ、待って!大ちゃん,　お誕生日おめでとうございます！(○･ω･)ﾉ----end-----

2019-04-14

／(･ × ･)＼can you feel the heatfrom these pictures?i was experimentingand it turned out like thisit turned out badbut it has its own charm(○･ω･)ﾉ----end-----

2019-04-13

／(･ × ･)＼・・もう夏なんですよ！暑い!it's summer time here alreadyand i can't keep up with the heat!but still, i won't choose not to drink coffeejust because it's hot and drinking hot coffeemakes me hot.it's a saturday.take your time,it's a weekend.HWAITING!

アメンバー限定記事2019-04-12

2019-04-11

day 2 of my new routineof taking 30 minutes of my timeto have a morning sessionwith the sun.i woke up a bit lateso the sun is already up highwhen i went out.still, no one can stop meon drinking my coffeei'm just glad for the treessurrounding the house.your presence are highly acknowledged.thank you, treesfor the shedand for the beautiful soundof the wind rustling your leavesand with the birds chirpingon your branches.always be thankfulfor the little thingsin your life.you woke up today,be thankful for that.you have food for breakfast,be thankful for that.your family is safe and breathing,be thankful for that.your friends are happy,be thankful for that.you are giving the chance to relax,be thankful for that.you have work to do,be thankful for that.keep on doing your best,keep on doing the thingsthat you love with passion.keep on going,persevere.頑張って下さい！୧(๑•̀ㅁ•́๑)૭✧

Dear You

Beautiful, keep your dreams alive.Do not cast them away.You might have experienced many kind of setbacks right now or this past few monthsYou might have think things don't make sense anymore and you just want to give your dreams up.Don't, Wonderful.Take a positive and faithful stand.Instead of worrying and being eaten by your problems, pray and talk to Him.Tell Him everything, no filter for He knows yet He wants to hear it from You.Have faith in Him and trust Him.The storms that made you worried, anxious and doubt yourself will help shape you and strengthen you.Have a positive-filled mind, "This too shall pass. And I will walk through this bravely, for He is with me."He gives us tests to help us strengthen our faith in Him; for us to call for Him and remember that we are not alone; to teach us to be humble, compassionate, kind, caring, and loving.Keep this in your mind and heart, Love:There is nothing wrong with trying again,So stand strong, stand again and try again.You are not alone and you are loved.For He is with you, always.So shine, Dearest.Shine🙏💜

ただいま

God, I am home. Thank you for waiting for me. I am sorry it took me so long. It took my lost soul years Before itfound itsway back to you. I am sorry. You must have been in pain Watching over me, waiting for me To call for You, to remember You. I am sorry, deeply sorry. And thank You. I thank You with all my heart. Never again will I forget to call for You. Never again will I hurt You. Thank You for patiently waiting for me. My faith in You grows As high as the mountains as days go by. You never leave my side. You kept my light burning, Till I managed to stand and found the way, Till I was able to keep it burning, ablaze. Thank You for waiting andfor loving me, This broken, lost, and wounded Daughter of Yours, Lord God. I love You. I am very glad to be home.

2018.09.19

After being comforted by my Bible app yesterday,After talking to Him and asking for help,Something good has happened that lift my spirit and mood up.I know it was not just a coincidence.How great He is?Thank you, God.And as I was able to evade the pulling (down to the abyss)I did this.Another one of my "恋虹の世界" collection. 💜🍀I thank You, GodFor always being there,For not leaving my sideEven when I thought of myselfAs worthless, failure, not enough.Thank You,For letting me see and feelThe light againAnd for ignitingThe flame that is within.I love You so muchThank You, my confidantThank You, our Heavenly FatherI will work hard, harderBe more confidentTrust myselfAnd continueOn doing the things that I loveI will continue on being kind,Compassionate, understanding, loving,Caring, and gentle to the people around meIn this way, I am showing You my faith,In this way, I am showing You my deeds.🙏💜🌸🍀

2018

2018 so far has been an up and down ride.You said you would do your best.Yes you did, but when October came...You stopped your medications.And you had a relapse.You didn't manage to enjoy and feel the essence of the holidays again and it continued till February.It is September 20 right now.How many times did you have a minor episode this year?How many times did you manage to crawl, did you manage to stand your shaking legs?How many times did you feel you were touching the surface of the Abyss?But now you are wiser,And I am thankful for you, Self.You didn't forget we have Him.And with Him, we felt at peace.Self, do not give up.The pauses that you have been doing this year are better than totally giving up.I know you have those thoughts again.And that's when He managed to convince you through His Words not to give up.We can do this, Self.We can pass this storm again.Baby steps, start with baby steps first before taking big ones and then making a leap.We will be able to reach that dream, Self!Believe in me and let's have faith in Him.頑張ります！

My World

Stars, full of stars.And colors, full of colors.My world.

It goes on

"You are alive,The light inside you has been ignited, at last,And it is getting brighter as you think of the dreams you have put aside.You are alive,And now a smile always blossoms on your face as you got motivated and inspiredBe it by the little steps you are taking and the many things that give you insights and strength.You are aliveAnd can feel again.Is it not great?To be able to smile and laugh freely and genuinely with friends and family again?To be able to enjoy and like the things and hobbies that you liked and enjoyed before again?I want to thank you,Thank you for your effort and courage on walking forward, taking small steps each dayFor getting up, arranging your bed, taking a bath, going out of your room and your house to take a stroll.Thank you for fighting the thoughts that kept you awake each night till morning.Thank you for working and fighting hard each day.Thank you for taking solace on the sky and the stars--though you easily get lost in your thoughts when you are looking up there--and for talking to Him always.Thank you for you have learned He is always with you and is always listening and ready to listen to you.Thank you for believing that you are worthy, you are loved and cared and appreciated.Even though you still have a long way to go, still have to fight your demons for a long time,Thank you for thinking positively about the things that you always worry about.You can only fully open yourself to God so please remember this when you feel yourself slowly getting pulled down to the abyss again,Pray and talk to Him about everything no matter how long it is, please.I know you have always wanted a very long and tight hug as a comfort and reassurance but you always shy away in fear of being annoying and of being too affectionate.Do not worry, someday, someone will give you many hugs even when you do not ask for it.Also, there are some things I want you to know,Please do not change. Do not let other people dim your light.Be yourself, love what you love and do the things that you want to do.Do not hold yourself back too. Being affectionate is your way of showing you care and love and appreciate their presence after all.I know you have many insecurities and they hinder you... let's take things one step at a time, alright?Do not worry, you are doing well!Continue on moving forward.You will find your way soon,Just please continue on stepping forward.You may pause but never give up.You can do it!I believe in you!" viaLost in the Void Your own website, Ameba Ownd

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It's all in the mind.I can do this.I might be tired.I am trying.It's all in the mind.I can do this.I can do this.I can do this. viaLost in the Void Your own website, Ameba Ownd

30th of July

Face forward,never let depression win.Move forward,and tell yourself that you arestrong.I am strong.I can do this.I can win this fight.But I can't do this alone.I'm gonna be honest with myself,Without a helping hand,I can't win this fight alone.It is alright to accept help from others.It is alright to be vulnerable in front of others.It is alright, it is alright.Continue on fighting,Everything will be alright.

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Coping up... viaLost in the Void Your own website, Ameba Ownd

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"At night,You are wide awake.Weeping, shaking,Silently screaming,In the dark.You were fighting your demons.As nighttime give way to daybreak,You closed your eyes,Cleaned up the remains of the battle,And rested your tired tired soul.Hours later,You woke upWith the mighty sunAlready up and high.Getting out of bed,You straightened your composure.With a mask on,You started your day.Then,Comes the Night.You are wide awake."春夏秋冬 viaLost in the Void Your own website, Ameba Ownd

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Dear You,You who fell down,Got lost within the darkness,You who couldn't find your way back,Lost your Strength and Hope,So you lay still,Staring at nothing,Ready to give up to Darkness.Dear You,Another year is here.As you lay there,Time runs still.Dear You,There's a turmoil inside of you.Is it Heart?Is it Mind?Is it Soul?Something was being ignited within.Have you seen the Light?Did you feel His warmth?Hope is back.Whispering,Time to move,Let's go home.Accompanying Hope is Love,Saying,Please,It's time to love yourself,Strength is there too,Telling,Breathe, love.And heal,For yourself, do it for yourself.Let's start living,We'll meet Happiness on our way back,You will be all right,Everything will be all right.For He is our guide.Let us rise,And forward we go.春夏秋冬 viaLost in the Void Your own website, Ameba Ownd

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Night after night,Tears pour down your face,You feel helpless, hopeless,Darkness engulfs you.Day after day,You are suffocating,You feel alone,Worthless, lost,Stop please, everything will be alright.Get up please, you can win this fight.You are worthy,You are not alone,Never have been,Never will be.You are loved,You are needed,Always have been,Always will be.Breathe, break down your wallsBreathe, let Him in.Let Him comfort you,Breathe, He is your comfort.It's alright.Breathe.You'll be alright.cross-posted:春夏秋冬 The Lost Purple Star viaLost in the Void Your own website, Ameba Ownd

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Thoughts are getting lighter,Slowly getting bathed by the warmth of the Light,That has snuck in.And catching a glimpse of Light,Made them hope for more of it,For more brightness and warmth,But,Thoughts are delicate and vulnerable still,One touch from the Dark is enough to get them cold again,One whisper and everything goes dim. viaLost in the Void Your own website, Ameba Ownd