Replacement of Colleagues
i don't have to distribute flyers this weekend but i am allowed to return home on Fridayand returning to my aunt's house by Saturday night, which means i only have 1night of rest.i've been having coughs and slight fevers lately, because of a colleague who coughed at me. i'm also feeling extremely exhausted at the moment because i've just returned home from distributing flyers and it's 11 pm, and i'm usually forced to sleep at 10:00 pm, and waking up before 5 am. it was 10:30 pm but they changed it. my left eyelid is also inflammed.i've also been assigned to a different location for collection of flyers, and all my colleagues have been replacedand all of them are very, very different from my old colleagues. i hope they will be kind. but i'll tell you about what happened before i was assigned to a different location first because i've only been relocated today.besides the cough and slight fevers i mentioned, my once fractured arm has also been in more pain than usual. recently i had a doctors' appointment regarding my previous chest pains, back pain, and throat tightness, and i took the chance to tell the doctor about the pain in my arm and that i've fractured it before. he took a quick look at it and said "it looks okay" and ignored it. that's a few days ago, and today, despite me telling my new manager that i have fractured my arm, i was still told to carry and distribute flyers, because the delivery truck is in use, and because the doctor said that my arm isokay. it was the largest and heaviest amount of flyers i've ever distributed, and it was so heavy that i had to drag the bag. i couldn't lift it at all. but fortunately, about 2 days before my relocation, i had very little flyers to distribute. i really hope the delivery truck won't be unavailable again. because of my eye condition, i get watery eyes often but i couldn't wipe them because i have a hand carrying flyers and the other hand distributing it. that's how my eye is inflammed right now.on the bright side, speaking of managers, most of the managers before my relocationarequite attractive. although one of them scared me by suddenly shouting behind me, and he didn't apologise. i kept staring at some of them. i should try to stop staring. there's also a previousmanager that i find attractive but he was extremely strict and fierce. besides his attractive appearance, he is entirely similar to my cousin. i still miss all my previous managers, because all but one of my new managers are even stricter than the previous manager who i said is entirely similar to my cousin. in case you don't understand, my new managers are stricter and fiercer than my cousin.speaking of my cousin, we sleep on a bunk bed. he sleeps on the top bed and whenever he turns or moves, it always makes a loud noise. i'm worried that the bed might break someday and he would collaspe on me. i'm not afraid of dying though, i'm afraid that i'd still be alive when that happens. most of the time when i go to bed, i dream of things that completely takes my mind away from work and imprisonment at my aunt's house. when i wake up, i feel that reality is false. i feel that reality is a nightmare. i don't want to be here. yesterday, i went to sleep starving. i asked for food before bedtime, but they simply told me they don't have any food left and that i'm not allowed to go out to buy food. when i woke up in the morning today, i had to wake up at 3:30am and leave at 4am because i got relocated to a different location of flyers and my cousin doesn't want me to be late. that caused me to skip breakfast, and i had to distribute flyers from 6 am to 1 pm underthe sun and remember i said about the largest and heaviest amountof flyers i've ever distributed? i did it without breakfast and i was already starving the night before. i was giddy, extremely hungry and i felt like i was about to die even when i was finally havinglunch at 1 pm.did i mention that i took more than an hour to get home from the new location for collecting and distributing flyers? first, i shared a cab with 3 colleagues, but i had to apologise and get off halfway because i had a really bad motion sickness. then i took a bus to a train station, and took a train home. through the entire journey, i still felt really nauseous and it was very difficult. i've never gotten motion sickness on trains, and if i'm still going to get it every time i go to work, i really don't know what to do. it will take a longer time to get to the new flyers collection place, and if i'm late, i can't take a cab. i know there are meds that help with motion sickness, but the last time i told a doctor, she didn't give me any meds.oh, Eiko almost forgot. i have an upcoming interview this month. i asked what the interview or interviews would be about, my aunt just replied that i'd know when i'm there. i'm so nervous. i don't even know what i'm going to be interviewed about. i thought things were getting better when i had lesser flyers to distribute 2 days ago. i shouldn't have assumed.imagine distributing flyers with the fear that you'd refracture your arm a 3rd time, with extreme hunger, feeling really weak and giddy, with an annoying eye condition, coughing, and carrying the heaviest thing you've ever constantly carried while climbing up stairs. i also took a long time to distribute my flyers today, but surprisingly i finished it on time.thank you for reading, i'll make another post again if i'm still alive.sorry for any spelling or grammar mistakes in this post, i'm tired.i must sleep now, i am so tired.
