３・９・２００６
昨日は青年団の芝居を観に行った。前に東京で観た東京ノートがすごくおもしろかったから、かなり期待していたんだけど、まあ、おもしろかったけど、ものたりないかんじ？ヤルタ会談は、まあもともと落語かなんかのために書いたものみたいだし、それなりにテーマもあっておもしろかったけど、ＯＬ忠臣蔵って、で、？何がいいたいの？ていうか、まあ、いいたいことなくてもいいっちゃいいんだけど、それにしても、で、それで・・？てかんじがした。兵藤さんに楽屋まで会いにいったら、扉のむこうで、え・・ヒューストンに友達なんていないよ・・と戸惑った声が聞こえておかしかった。兵藤さんて、なんか、いい。芝居も好きだし。なんか人も好き。ものすごく肩の力が抜けたかんじで、ものすごくバランス感覚がよさそう。
昨日はお昼から１０半までＤＥＥＤＥＥといた。ＤＥＥＤＥＥは本当にアニメのキャラみたい。かわいい。子供。ずーーとぺらぺら喋り続けてたけど、私が全部理解できてると思ってるのかしら・・・・？理解できてませんから・・。特に運転中は半分くらい分かってませんから・・。いちいち、こういう意味？と確認がとりたいがそれじゃ、はなしがすすみません。
今日は稽古あり。
面白いー！この人！！といわれた。ＫＥＬＬＹに。彼の方がよっぽど面白い気がしますが・・。
アニーはとっーーても歌が上手で芝居もうまい。ジュリーの振り付けはかなり面白い。あれはかなりいい。
明日は、ＡＣＴＩＮＧ１の発表とオーディションがあるー。歌うたわなきゃー。
すんごく眠い。花粉症のせいなのかな？貧血なのかな～？
3/5
I took the audition for polaroid story. I was supposed to tell my own story as a charactor. I told a kind of a pretty story when I lived in Koujin-machi as a beaten wife who killed her husband right now. Phi told me it worked, but I am not sure it was good or not...
I wondr why some japanese like forcing other people to drink? Some love saying "are you drinking?" "why didn't you drink?" Leave me alone! Who are you telling such a shit to me? Oh you are the last person I want to talk to!! I prefer talking to someone interesting at parties to just drinking.
I am sure Miriko has big mental problems. I hate her, but I can't stop myself thinking about her...I am coursed.....
3/4/2006
I had the audition for the children show, elves and shoemaker. I couldn't get sides before.But sides were not so difficult, altough I was told to be care about my vowles. I am not sure I could make it or not.....Let's see......
Today we went to wedding party for Taro san and Tomoko san.She was so beautiful. We had a great time. I am so glad to meet Julie, who is a wife of izumi sensei.
but Mariko is soooooooo annoying.
3/2
I used a walking counselor at a writing center, which is a service for ESL students. we can bring any papers to be read and checked. It was so hot today, I think winter won't come back any more. I prefer warm but the allegy socks! today I tooa a nap because I was so sleepy and had a headache. Alex is so beautiful and so kind. I love her.
３月１日
今日から３月か・・。毎日すぎるの早いなあ・・。なんだか、最近花粉症のせいか、学校から帰るととても疲れてて、眠いー。いやだなーー。明日から運動始めようっと。
today is March first....days past so fast. recently I am likely to feel tired, I guess it's because of allegy(?) i am going to restart exercises.
今日はオーディション用のＨＥＡＤ ＳＨＯＴと夫夫に撮ってもらった。本当はプロに頼むべきだけど、今回は、写真で合否がきまることはないだろうし、構内だからいいの。today i got my husband take my headshot for the audition. I should have asked pro photgrapher, but this time headshot sholdn't be a decisive fact, so it shold be ok.
今日もＤＥＥＤＥＥと交換授業をやる。英語は発音と聞き取りが難しいけど、日本語は文法が難しい。動詞がいちいち変化するのが法則があるようだけど、習ってないので、教えられない。この動詞はＣＬＡＳＳ３だからこう変化するんでしょう？と聞かれても、ＣＬＡＳＳ３の動詞って何か全くわかりませんから・・。ＤＥＥＤＥＥはもうー異常なくらい日本が好き。Dee Dee love Japan so badly. I wonder she was a japanese in her previous life. in general, those who are learning Japanese are like that. they are called Nippophle.
前世が日本人だったのかな？日本語習ってる人はそういう人が多いけど。そういう人をＮＩＰＰＯＰＨＬＥというそうな。キャバリアの話をする。
we went to see the circus called Cavalia which deals with horses. (they are keeping 47 hourses. all of them are stallion, not mare.) The show was not bad, but I had high-hopes, so it was a let down. The horses are amazingly trained well; they can walk side to side, they can lay on the floor by the order or something like that, but I really didn't expect those kind of things. I wanted to be impressed by the horse itself. the beauty of horses. So I don't say I was cheated on my money, but I wasn't satisfied.
２月２８日
今日は昨日とうってかわって、体の調子もよく気分もいいかんじ。花粉症だと思われる鼻ズマリはあるけど。前回のＳＴＡＧＥ ＣＲＡＦＴの授業でベンチを作ったのだけども、今日はそれにペイントした。各グループがそれぞれテーマを決めて、好きかってに塗る（描く）。うちのリーダーは、経験豊富はリサだからとっても素敵にしあがったけど、ひどいグループもあるし、どちらにせよ、コンセプトがばらばらですから・・・なのに、演劇科の前にずらりと並べて使用させちゃうんだーー。いいんですか？景観そこねてない？ま、いいけど。
ＳＴＡＧＥ ＤＲＡＦＴの授業はかなり謎。もちろん、興味がないせいもあるけど。作業とか、説明とかせず、出来る人まかせでやらせるかんじ。出来る人といっても、生徒だし、アメリカ人だもんで、人に教えようなんて気はさらさらなし。リサはほとんど自分でやる。ベンチは彼女の力作。誰にも手をださせなかった。そして終わったら、自分の信頼してる気な人を呼びに言って、意見を求めてた。全て終わったら黙って、刷毛を手渡された・・。あ・・はい・・洗って収めればいいんですね・・？て、私・・・助手・・・・？いや、ほら、働いたのはあなただから当たり前かもしれないけど、働かせなかったのはあなたよ？ま、いいけどねー。
今日は朝気分いいもんで、よっしゃーーがんばろーー。出来るだけ英語使おうーーとはりきってたけど、作業中の英語の会話ほとんどわかんなかった。～して、とか持ってきてってのはわかるんだけど・・あーーあーー英語うまくなんないなーー。嫌んなる・・・。
My nose is stuffy and my eyes is itchy because of an allegy. today we paited a bench which we made last time. Our leader is Risa who has a lot of experience at shop, so our bentch is best. But becasue she is not a theacher nor kind enough to teach us, she just does waht she wants to do. when she finished the bentch, she handed brashs to me scilently......OK...you mean I am going to wash them and put them back at shop...Got you!
２月２７日
ちょっと、もうとりあえず、日本語でいいので、できるだけ日記をつけようと思い・・。なんだか、先週末から風邪か花粉症かわかんないものを発症していたけど、なんとなく治ってきた。ところが、今度は夫夫が風邪をひいた模様。今、寝てます。今週土曜日はレストランの結婚式に呼ばれてるのに、夏のチルドレンフェスティバルのオーディションもある。事前に台本渡されないので（英語練習したいから）特別に駄目？と言ってみたけど、駄目～といわれた。Ｄｒバーガーはなーんかおもしろい。昨日観に行った彼の演出の検察官はまあまあおもしろいかなってかんじだったけど。英語よくわかんなかったけど・・・。ＷＯＮＤＥＲＧＩＲＬはほとんど分かったのになー。現代しかも、リアリズム芝居だったからだろうなあ・・。つか、今、ああいう形で検察官を上演する意味ってなんだろう・・。しかも、大学の演劇科のしばいなのに、主役はプロ（ＡＣＴＩＮＧ１の先生＝Ｍｒ クレバンス）て意味わからんし・・。いっみわからーん。今日は午前中は貧血だったのか、頭が朦朧として、気持ち悪いし機能せず。ＡＣＴＩＮＧ １のパートナージョンは下手くそで困る・・・下手っていうか・・・演技が何かまず分かってない！（おおーーーえらっそうにぶったぎった・・。）だってサーーー本当だもん。自分の台詞じゃないときの方がむしろ大切なのに、その間、その役で相手役を見てない。台詞中もたいして見てないけど。一人で芝居してる。バイオレンスな男の役なのに、怒れないし。なんだそれ・・。ま、彼も、なんでよりによって、俺だけ、英語喋れないやつが相手なのよーー？と思ってるかね。それにしても、どうして私が常にイニシアティブをとっているのだ？馬鹿ーー。Ｍｒ クレバンスは前回も前々回見せたときも、すごくいいって言ってくれた。役の感情が動いてるのがよくわかる、ＬＯＶＥＬＹだ！！て。嬉しいけど、外国語なまりのアメリカ人て・・・あ、外国人の役だと思えばいいのか・・。ＪＩＭはＶＯＩＣＥの先生だけあって、英語がＮＡＴＩＶＥになってはじめて０地点てかんじだけど、クレバンスはＡＣＴＩＮＧの先生だから手放しで褒めてくれるのかな。ま、飴と鞭っていうか、そういうのもないと、辛くなっちゃうからね～。
昨日はジェニファーとデイビットを夕食に招いた。ジェニファー結婚して大人びてすごく綺麗になった気がした。結婚式の写真も超ーーかわいかった。ちょうーーーーーー好きってかんじ。かえちゃんからのメールも新婚生活がすごくらぶらぶで楽しそうで、読んでてこっちも嬉しくなるけど、そんなかんじ。超仲良しの夫婦ってかわいい。
おとついは、ジョンとチャーリーとアイリンそれから、みゆきさんとつぐみさんとこと鍋をした。おいしかったけど、いまいち、盛り上がりにかけ、喋らないアメリカ人をＴＡＫＥ ＣＡＲＥできるのは、一人までだと痛感・・。
2/6/2006
I haven't updated this in so long....
I couldn't keep my New year's resolution...but I' ll resume and try to keep a diary as much as I can again.
Now my darlin is in Bahrain on business. He left houston on sunday and it took him 22 huors to get there. He must be exhausted. He is not lnly working in U.S, but also is admired his achievement. He is working in the world. But he doesn't boast it particularly.
I believe my huband is one of the coolest guies in the world!!
I took an audition for next show called "Prot hobo", which is directed by Bernerd, He was the cast of "waiting for engine" and really nice. Julie is also working as a choreographer. she is from Columbia and sooooo nice. I really happy with work with them again.
They admired me as an actor:Berberd said at the audition that it was really pleasure to see my acting in the stage and I am really good actor.
But he casted me as passer-by eventhough I was calle back for two main roles.
But it's to be expected, becuase
I can't speak English well, I'm not good at singing, I can't dance..
Anyway it must be fun!!
１月２１日
Today was an unforgettable day for me.
I did English Monologue.
And I made a big mistake....
It was terrible. It was disaster. It was a hell.
I was so nerves that I got blank in the middle of the line. At th emoment I forgot what I was doing.
In Japanese I can make lines myself even if I get blank. (I rarely forgot lines, though.) But in English I can't.
I'm not sure, but I believe I repeated lines twice at least. (I kept speaking.)
So shocked I couldn't stop crying after the show. (Oh my God!! I'm 28 and I was crying.....) I was really disappointed!!!
I'll never be blank on the stage. I swear.
I should have practiced more.
But now I feel better actually. I shouldn't forget this mistake but I shouldn't and can't worry about it forever. So I think it's good.
Everyone said something to me to cheer up.
They said I could cover the mistake. (some of them said no one noticed it, but it was not true.) And I am a good actor and my job was amazing in spite of the mistake.
Also we had a party after the show tonight. (It's kinnda unbelievable to have a party in the middle of the show. NO! Wait!! It's not true...We Japanese actors don't have a party in the middle of the show, but we always go to bars after the show with friends who come to see the show...)
At the party some strangers told me that I did good job or something like that.
Actually some member of the show told me that their friends said they love my part (Japanese) most.
The party was held at a house, which many theater major students share. I though I really didn't want to live near the house. More than 50 people in there and loud music. I wonder why the neighbors called to the police.
By the way yesterday Miyauchi san came to see the show from Austin.Unfortunately, there were few audiences yesterday, so the stage sffered from it. (you know actors are affected by the audiences, of course it is not professional if it is too much and if it is bad way.)
I thought he would stay at hotel, but he left Houston after having dinner together.
(we went to Japanese restaurant at Montrose called Okamoto, I didn't expect at all, but it was kinnda good and not so expensive!
１月１９日
I haven't kept a dairy recently...
The spring semecter has just started on Thuesday. I'm taking english writing and acting1 and stage craft. The instrctor of acting 1, Cravence said that actor is the worst job that he an imagine, especially for women, colored women.I absolutely agree with him.(but I was shocked a bit.) I made a mistake...But I can't turn back. I sholdn't....
Most of the students in acting 1 are not Theatre major. He encoraged them not to change their major.
(Trey, who is the instructor for stage craft said the same things..)
today was the preview. Honestly speaking, The show is trribly boring. I can't understand it. I can't appreciate it at all.... There are tooooo many scene-changings. today I met Jim again. He always encorages me a lot!! He said that he would come to see the show on the day when I'll read lines in English. Wooooow Wooooow. I'm happy.
American students are kinda tough(?) Of course they are taking classes during the rehearsal and the show and usually the amount students are required to be prepare for the class in the U.S is much larger than in Japan. And Of course most stuents have class from 8:30 in the morning. Some of them are working right before the rehearsal starts.