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your voice on the phone right now
it made me feel even more anxious
but I wanted to talk to you longer.

I wanted to see you on your birthday, but at this rate I won't
I wanted to see you then the most.
I don't think I'll sleep tonight.
I don't think I'll sleep until I talk you, because I'll dream about talking to youand wake up to disappointment

maybe I think too much...

reasons

I can't sleep anymore :(
You know... do you know why it still makes me a little sad when you tell me about people you like?

Because.. someone is going to get to call you a dork soon.
Someone is going to get to talk to you everyday,
Someone is going to sit across the table from you and be able to look into your eyes without moving,
Someone is going to laugh at everything you do or say and find you adorable,
Someone is going to get mad at you only for you to make it up in a really cute way,
Someone is going to hear about the small things that happened in your day that youdon't really tell others,
Someone is going to get to know all your favourite things,
Someone is going to order green apple bbt all the time to remind themselves of you,
Someone is going to feel the warmth of your hug,
Someone is going to get to see your smile all the time...
and that person isn't going to be me..

that's what scares me the most...
I'm selfish..

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from now on
I'll leave you alone