(*￣Oﾉ￣*) I'm currently studying for a big physics test tomorrow～
This week has been very busy, so stay tuned～
I will probably be able to write a very lengthy entry on Friday～
Until then, じゃね～
I haven't written in a while. Things have been getting hectic as the school year is drawing to an end, and very soon at that. Other than that, it seems like a lot of things have been happening, but in reality, when I step back and look at life, nothing much has happened, or is happening in general. I guess it's the type of life I lead, simple but without a purpose. But I've found a purpose, some days it feels like it's getting closer, others it feels like it's slowly slipping away.
But especially today, something did happen that affected someone close to me, and no matter how I act, I don't want to come across as selfish or self-indulgant. I want to be there for anyone I can help. For what happened today: I didn't know you, but in some ways I did. I know that we all share the same emotions, but it's unimaginable what you went through. Here's to hoping you are in a better place.
After all that's happened, it makes you really think about who might be next, it can literally be anyone. I just hope to live life everyday thankful and grateful for the wonderful people around me. I hope they can return those feelings towards me.
ありがとう伝えたい今なら言えるよ
過ごした季節も忘れはしないよ
向日葵揺れるタイヨウのように
私のうた君を照らすよ...
Right now, I want to tell you "Thank you"
I won't forget seasons that has since past.
A sunflower swaying beneath the sun
My song will shine for you...
- Kaoru Amane, "Taiyou no Uta"
Today started without warning, it seemed as if I was caught off guard or something. While it wasn't exactly the warmest of days or the brightest, I found myself enjoying the light rain hitting my face as I walked outside. Even though I dread a lot of things in the day when I get up, I always face them and surprise myself, I think that's the thing I look forward to the most everyday, surprising myself.
Today I also seemed to feel something that really made me wonder about things. On more than one occassion I had people who depended on me to help them, or just for the sake of depending on me. I'm glad that people can share these precious feelings with me. Please continue to depend on me, I'll always do my best.
I hope to surprise myself even more tomorrow, there's something that needs to be done on Friday that I'm not really looking forward to, but I'll face it with all my strength and do my best. I will end this week as strong as I started it.
I'm sorry to finish off so succinctly today but I'm growing tired and I need my sleep (・ω・)/
別に誰より先を歩いて行こう
なんて気持ちはなくってね
だからと言って誰かの後ろから
ついていくワケでもないけどね
I don't particularly feel like
walking in front of anyone.
But I don't feel like walking
behind anyone either.
- Ayumi Hamasaki, "AUDIENCE"