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keeping a stranger passing in my prayer.As we get older, all you hear from friend is the passing of their parent.That is one sign of growing up. T_T its just how life is.I have to say , Im really bless that I had a friend who was by my sidewhen my dad passed away. & friends with me in spirit , supported me on what I was going through. I have my regrets and I still cry every night .A bad habit that I cant get rid of...all these thoughts I have.My mind is so busy that I can't sleep.. just thinking of this and that.They say time will heal, it wont. You will always remember it.I still miss you and think of you everyday.

Go your way

CNBLUE - GO YOUR WAY My song for today ~Lately I been trying to be MIA.Because I want to let them know how it feels to be "forgotten"You know, its enough that my family don't consider me in their plans.But for my friends to assume this or that about me, I really dontknow what to say. Honestly I do want to fit in but people nevergive me the chance. But now Im over it, I rather do my own thing.MY WAY ! I don't care anymore about what other people are doing.Im just going to worry about myself and what I want to do.Man dont even say I never asked ~ do I really need to? NO! I think as time goes by right now, I just feel numb about my friendshipwith certain people.Im thinking far and ahead that in the end, I really don't have a truefriend. I guess I could have but I screw up too many friendship.Because of my situation and the person I am.. I guess it really is my fault.I dont cherish it like I want too.. I really do think of everyone..But I know Im not good enough to be someone's friend.Even one of my best friend, I feel like she has other friends that are more better than me. So I sometime wonder why she even want to be my friend.I guess I'll be thankful that shes in my life.Because as a friend she makes me laugh and give me happiness.Ill cherish that forever...I feel selfish.. tho I dont show it.I dont even know myself sometime. goodnight.

#1BB

I can not express how happy I am they won!seriously i feel like im part of this group now. HAHAthem winning #1 makes me feel refresh and happy.YES YES YES THEY ARE MY #1 these days. I have to admit that !

eo~eo~

this feeling... Im so in love.So in love that I ask myself what I should do.Ugh and I cant believe i got that feeling today.That stupid feeling you want to avoid toward a person.JEALOUSY! But I need to stop , what Im feeling is all wrong.This can ruin other people happiness.I feel like I committed a crime.Though I talk about it to a friend,She told me I shouldn't feel ashamed...I just cant help how I feel.Shes right .. thats why I needed to tell somebody.To ask for their opinion about this whole situation.I didnt know there would come a day when this happens to me.Whenever I think about it, I still feel sad.Its better to let this person go and slowly walk away.

Block B『JACKPOT』 PRODUCTION DVD

I told myself do not buy anymore MERCH!but here I am wanting Block B Jackpot so bad ! the production DVD.Japanese fan get to buy it in Japan.Wonder when the sites are having it for sales..And today I brought Block B HER T_TBecause if I get it, there will be a member signature on it.HAHA its a special buy.. Im curious who I am going to get...Sigh Ill wait patiently for the Jackpot production dvd.Need to hurry though. Sucks being a U.S fan ! haha we get shit first..

Overcoming this.

man I know I been stressing out this week...because !I keep getting pimple on my face.Ugh its because of how I been treated at work this week.Im so glad its my day off today, I really need to rest. hahaAnd lately I been thinking about more than just how I amtreated at work...Also how people treat me, whether its friends or family.I realize everyone is treating me the same.They dont really think or consider me in any of their plans.Just assume right away "oh she wont be interested or she cant make it I bet"If everyone I trust or believe in think that way of me, I must bedoing something wrong. hahaBut right now I am glad I have one friend who is by my side and understand me.I think without someone to listen to me, I would probably be really depress.But I AM NOT ! because I have someone there for me ...And right now I am happy too.. Even though Im a fool, Im trying to get over all the negative shit.LETS SMILE AND BE BRIGHT ~ ENJOY YOUR LIFE !

TRUTH

honestly where is this rule that says I must be a ftisland fan forever.Are you kidding me. Who are you guys to judge me and tell me to stick to one thing.first of all, Im still a FTIsland fan and will always stay a FTIsland fan until they stop with their music career! I support them and their music.Even though I am into Block B right now, their the ones making me happy.Maybe I fell out of place with FTIsland, but that doesnt mean Im over them.LOL their my brats forever. I had my ups & down with FTIsland , i feel like some part of my life has been ruin, the friendship I built and the person who walked away from me. Every time I think of this person, my heart ache because I'll probably never talk to you again...or see you. I do feel like im avoiding them sometime.I really do think of you every time..Thats piece of my heart hurts still.But like I always tell myself, I hope your doing well wherever you are.I support you and still love you. If it was meant to be, then we will see each other again.I miss you a lot.& I dont know, I feel like I dont post often like I used too.My lovely blog, Ill come again to you some day.Oh and I do still read my friends blog here on ameba, love you guys..

Block B H.E.R Teaser #3

The FULL MV comes out tomorrow while Im at work!boo this sucks. HAHAHA Ive seen all the teaser one by one on my days off.Im so excited for their comeback ! GO GO GO BLOCK B !

Confession

I LOVE BLOCK B...Im seriously a BLOCK B fan now.Tho I am late with them, Im all caught up. hahaI still love my FNC boys.But right its BLOCK B that has me laughing like crazy.& I need that craziness in my life. haha They are just too funny.I love P.O , he is so funny !!!!Let's meet soon BLOCK B!

Flower

Testing out my photographer skills haha

How Will I know

What a great cover of Whiteny Houston songFeels like Im relating to this song right now. hahaahhh !

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FNC Oh Hee Joon

here we have another JUNI hahah haha Its going to be a long time before this band debut.Oh Joon Hee - Guitar & Lead Vocalist

Apple Carrot

Just enjoying my day off ! And a fresh way to start is juicing apples and carrot. OMG so refresh !I love fruits so much... on this hot day, it is so perfect.

Spicy Beef

Tonight's Dinner at GOGI !I ordered 욕개장~ yummy but damn just realize its too damn hot to beeating soup. haha I also order Squid & Pork Belly.Next time I'll just get some pork belly!man today at work I feel like a yo-yo.Its really annoying but this guy was nice.He give me a nice tip. hahah I was surprise.

Godzilla

Chilling before Godzilla starts.Its so hot ! We are in the 100+ degree zone.Every time its hot, I feel so weak hahaI feel like I need to live in Alaska or with Polar Bear... GODZILLA was EPIC !I went to watch it and I love it so much.But the downsize to the movie is not ENOUGH of Godzilla.I feel like their going to make a sequel anyways.But I always loved Godzilla, since the old days...Its the original good "monster" film you grow up loving.Godzilla to save earth... hahahaThe Japanese used in the movie was kind of funny tho.When the dad said HELLO in Japanese he pronouns it as "mushi mushi"hahahah I laughed so hard..~ so funny.

FNC Trainee Lee Hwee Chan

Teeny Tiny Band ; Lee Hwee Chan ~ DRUMMER

Mother's Day

haha its Mother's Day, the funny thing is my mom rather spend it with my aunt. Well.. as long as she had fun !See her tonight hahahWe went to eat & swim at my house.So fun ahh !

Chocopie Reunite

I really miss my friends !SARAH, KELLY, ANKIE and where was LINH !but the 5 of us really are close friends forever.its so great to talk to them again.Tho we all live far away from one another, we still connect andkeep in touch.Thats what friendship is all about ! being there ! hehe new cell phone case.I think I like this the best ! because it has a front cover.Which cover up the small crack i made. haha I cant believe its May!I order a new Camera so I am going to start blogging like I did before.you know it feels like I stop blogging every since my camera broke. hahaI miss rambling on about my life and day haha.These days work suck !I mean my work place... its a place were there is no room to grow.I work there so long and the only one who see how hard I workis my favorite supervisor whom is like a elderly I respect so much!She makes me love being at work. Everything else sucks hahah.But its life and I got to go through it... and hopefully findsomething better in the future.Theres people at work whoa re very special to me .. their so kind to meI would never forget them. Darlene, Blanca, Patirica, Linette...yeah everybody else is annoying. LOLI really love ATTACK OF TITANS.I feel so obsess with the anime.The SOUNDTRACK. omg I am in love.Thought I was over the anime phrase but its all coming back.love love love it so much !!!!!!!!!!!TOMOKO I MISS YOU SO MUCH !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

April Re-Cap

Why this month of April going by so fast. I feel like I haven't done anything memorable. All I been doing is work ... Well speaking of work, my aunt might open her own real estate office soon.Probably I will be working there as assistant by the end of this year.Im so proud of my friend whos going to the PH this summer to help out.Then shes going to Korea to visit her family.I wish I can go to Korea too T_T ありがとうございます Eiko-san!! Sweet customer of mine at work made this for me. She's from Japan, a Japanese teacher/origami teacher haha so cute she has her papers in her purse. She was surprise I spoke Japanese to her with my crappy pronounication but said it was great ㅠㅠ . lol