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FTISLAND 'PRAY"

I been a Primadonna this long to see this amazing change from them.Im just amazed and mind blown right now haha.The fact that these boys grow up with their music.I feel like a proud mother ! my boys.. I love them so much.I need to see them again somehow..

FTISLAND LA 2015

My FTISLAND photo from the concert!Honestly I was kinda late for the show because of flights delay.One of my friend waited for me to arrive! I told her she can go inside and dont miss the concert because of me. But she said without me isnt fun watching FTISLAND concert.haha I felt touch! She is my real friend <3 and because we had always seen FTISLAND together <3 Thank goodness the show was 2 HOURS LONG!Jamil was their translator hahaha so they had to speak Japanese for him to translate in English. so funny.. and Seunghyun suck at speaking Japanese hahaha so Jamil was like WHAT? HAHA nvm goes back to Hongki.The sound quality at CLUB NOKIA was really good !We had the pit tickets so we were really close ! ^-^They sound perfect as usual , when was there a flaw? haha just kidding...Their acoustic set was like freestyle hahaha it was so short ! Seunghyun and Jaejin was always cheerful and smiley throughout !I wish I coulda seen Minhwan more , but the drum set is blocking him haha.OH OH ! did I mention Im finally on Seunghyun and Jaejin side! HAHASo glad to be, their so much fun and so cute.No offense to Jonghun HAHAHA its just every time we are on his side.. hes just so boring HAHAH but he still rock as leader & guitarist! DO YOUR THANG JONGHUN!Hongki shirt was so ugly hAHAH its like paper plates glued on.But lets not even talk about the fashion ahah Hongki sound amazing as always!It was fun ! I miss and love my FTISLAND boys <3 I dont know when the next time I will see them, but I hope its soon >< MY FAN CAMFTISLAND LA 지독하게 AcousticSeunghyun Focus ON MY WAY

PYO Calendar

funny I made my own desk calendar ~but I also got a calendar from pyonizom.com !So now I have two desk calendar of P.O !Today is Block B debut in JAPAN ! I want to wish everybody a HAPPY NEW YEAR!Im seeing FTISLAND in L.A in 10 DAYS !so excited hehe

HOLIDAY

Im sitting here with a nosebleed. hahaSo glad its gone fast.I feel so tired and over worked ! Im glad today is my day off but you know.. its back to work tomorrow !So fast.. and Im working on NEW YEAR EVE! lets hope they dont keep me late.I actually want to enjoy my new year countdown at home.MY XMAS was nice, Since I have thursday off! perfect ! no work hahaJust hung out with my close cousins.. and some friends.It was nice , I rather spent it with my niece and nephew anyday.I love you MALIYAH & CONNOR ! This year went by so fast.. Its funny how we say the same thingabout the year going by fast every year !But its so true.. where did the time go?I feel like i havent done anything.. as in an accomplishment !This year Im thankful to a certain group..Its them who is keeping me grounded and that there isa little bit of happiness.. Oh and I cant forget about my boys forever FTISLAND.Im so happy that they are coming next month.Its a dream come true I tell ya !MERRY XMAS & HAPPY NEW YEAR !

FTISLAND U.S.A Concert !!

OMG... im so happy Ima cry.I haven't seen the boys since 2012...I miss them so much. Finally their coming to L.A again.I already plan everything hahaha I will go to L.A next month hehe SEE YOU THEN MY BOYS !!HAPPY BIRTHDAY JAEJIN ! I LOVE YOU!

Zico Tough Coookie

Everybody has their own opinion, and their title to that opinion.But not everyone feels the same way.While some people hating on Zico using the word "Nigga & Faggot"That doesnt have any effect on me.Its normal shit you hear everyday if you were me.. Thats saying.. IF YOU WERE ME !Because I grew up in the hood, hearing those words is a typical normal day.So while other people feel offended by this shit.. I DON'T !& people are so blinded by the hate that they find way to hate even more.You think the song suck because you dislike one word you hear.O.K.... like that make much sense.The song is talking about his life & struggle and what he been through toget to where hes at now.Obviously people need to realize what hes trying to say.He obviously is directing that words to the haters & posers.Its not about the sexuality of an individual... GET IT STRAIGHT PEOPLE.When did he even mention that in his lyrics that he hate gay people or anything. Zico is probably the gayest member to be honest, he loves tokiss & hug his member & abuse JAEHYO with kisses. SO CALM THE FUCK DOWN. lolMaybe thats your definition of what FAGGOT is..But others also uses that word to define something else.Really it just depend on how someone defines that word... I really dont give a fuck how some people are feelingbecause to me its not a big deal.To you it might be but to me its not.Zico music is good shit and he expresses it in a way I can relate.So therefore I will always support him.If you dont like his solo , then stop listening and supporting him.EASY AS THAT ! no need to give him any chance. Be honest with yourself.Just because he might be one of your favorite "OPPA"You going to go through more harsh words because ZICO as a solo is atrue underground rapper who will write & spit what he wants to say.DONT GET TOO SERIOUS NOW & walk the fuck away now while you can.If you can not support someone who wants to speak the truth,then his music isn't for you.CONGRATS ZICO on your solo !TOUGH COOKIE hit the chart ! GO GO GO

Work Suck

Work is a bitch lately.People at work can be so nosy and all up in your business.These days Im getting annoy.Cant wait to get a new job and deuces to them foos !They really need me more than I need them.But seriously everyone there need to calm the fuck down.Mind your own business, dont worry about me...Worry about your damn selves..

Block B HER signed

Wow Im so happy ! Tho the poster is so girly hahahaBut I shall still hang it up because I love them. HAHA

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PROUD

I feel so Proud of my friend.Seriously, her inspiring stories.The fight she puts up with for stranger.She really is a great person , a ANGEL i should say.She want me to experience the same so next yearI hope we can explore together and fight together for others.Her story makes me angry,, depress, HAPPY !I am so proud of you ! Im glad you made it back safe.Im glad your such a thoughtful considerate person andthis world need more of you.Most importantly, Im so happy and grateful that you are my friend.

All Of A Sudden

This guy is really in my heart, haha I became really cheesy.But he makes me so happy ahhh ! Love him !

Jackpot Production DVD

BLOCK B JAPAN EDITION ~I finally got the DVD, i feel so happy. now I need to watch it.. hahaIts so nice, The cover and the photobook is so beautiful.Its so cool ! I just love all the Jackpot MV photos.

sick of it

im so tired of everyone in this household being so fucking mad and upset all the time.I used to not feel this way but now im becoming one of them.Im always mad to the point I ignore them.And they do this to each other, always rude and angry..ahh I cant stand it...I wish I can disappear from this stupid world and away fromall these dramatic feelings.Everyone is being too damn emotional, and its getting to me too these day.It sucks because I live with these people. MY FAMILY!and this is how they behave.. It drives me crazy.Cheer the fuck up. Can we be a happy family for once.Stop letting your angry carry you away to destroying those whoare around you.Lets stop this please !Ill try yo change myself.. Ill try to stop being selfish also.

erranger

I been so angry and unhappy.I feel like I been working so hard for nothing.Also people around me and people i know makes me mad.Im sorry but im hating everybody right now.I go home and go straight to the computer with my headphones on.I dont want to fucking listen to anybody talk. Just want to listen to my music and be left alone!Then when I go to work I have to put on a stupid fake smile.FUCK i hate myself. When I go to bed and get ready to sleep,All these thoughts come to my head.All my worries and Im thinking of all the peoplewho I thought was my friend , but really they dont care.I think what hurt me the most this year is the friendsthat I thought as a friend dont count me in anything.I dont know, I have to say I felt left out , I just feel likeI been treated by them the way my family has been treating me.And when I come to think about it, I been treated this way byeverybody I guess.Thats why I have given up ! I give up!In this stupid lifetime, Im going to just focus on myself until the day I die.

Shopping Time!

Finally found a similar sling shot shose I wanted.So hard to find these in U.S! Im not kidding you! haha my skincare product has arrived. So happybecause my skin was becoming so bad.. like i had no good face wash. PRINCESS MALIYAH! hahhaa

BACK

I feel so emotional right now to finally get in contact with my only real friend. HAHAWell she been away on a mission in the Philippines for a month now.. So its hard to get in contact with no internet or phone.But now she just arrived in Korea ! Will be staying there till September 30th at her dad house.Man I am so happy again ! My friend, I miss you so much T_TI felt so alone in the world without you ...Shes coming back to the state at the end of the month..So Ill be planning our Halloween outting ! heheGoing to be so funny with her again in my life.Love you JAYE!!

Battle of the Band

Its been a longass time that I been to local shows!LONG TIMEEEEEEEEEEEE! To the point that I don't listen to that type ofcertain music anymore haha.Well I got invited to one.Winston band call INFINITE. Hes the vocalist in the band.HAHA out of all the name, why it got to be Infinite.But yeah they do Hardcore/Metal music.HAHA I swear I laugh out of nowhere because It made me realize,How the hell do I understand anything their talking about.You really cant understand the language beside the "MUSIC LANGUAGE" But their drummer and guitarist was really good.its all about that Instrumental ! haha There was a few other bands performing , I saw a few and head out.I dont know, its just not my scene anymore.Plus it was underground so it was fucking hot ! HAHA I swear someone could die down there.But in a way it was nice to get out and enjoy some local band in this state.I needed to relax my stressful mind! hahaThis weekend is the baby shower.. I got shit done T_TTomorrow is my 1 day off so Ima try my best.Im so sleepy, been listening to BEENZINO music hahaI love his music so much, never realize how good he really is.I never paid much attention to him until I saw some of his old shit.Hes good ! OKAY GOODNIGHT !

RED

I dyed my hair red last night. hahaOkay so what am I suppose to think..So today I saw this person at work, whom I havent seen for a while.I thought he quit! HAHA but he didnt...Everyone was telling me they like my new hair color haha.But okay he was the first GUY to notice ... HAHAOut of nowhere hes like I like your new hair color, it looks good!hahaha so in my mind, Im thinking what does this mean.What guy even notice a girl hair or hair color to be exact.First thing that popped in my head was IS HE GAY. HAHAHAoh no... cant be hAHA.I shouldnt be thinking too much into it but it made me laugh.But he was just always so nice to me. So I am glad hes back!yikes Im getting used to my red hair ..I really wanted to dyed it pastel purple.. but I cant at my work place.The rules are too strict, you got to be professional. sigh.Maybe in the future.Oh Im glad the person I was talking about is happy again. HAHAI LOVE YOUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU ! STAY HAPPY! heheGOODNIGHT!

Dont be sad

Dont be sad...When I see a bright cheerful person like you upset,I feel like my world has turned dark.I know she was someone you cared about.But just know shes in a better place now.Hope you can live on with your life and be that bright person again.The bright person who I wish to be and look up too.I never realize how much I cared about you but i really do !Stay strong and lets keep smiling !

Stress come on!

August Rush... it was a rush.I feel so tired and stressful from work.When I do have that one day off, I feel so tired.Just want to sleep in all day.I feel sad about that, im wasting my day away.Working sucks, it takes up your life .& of course theres more to life than just work.Hopefully it pays off in the end... I know its the way of life. You cant be lazy laying around forthe rest of your life.Sigh.. okay I'll just take it as it is.Living my life day by day.I was watching Love & War, the episode about the mothergetting ignored by her husband and daughter hahaAnd she later became a kpop fan because she felt like the boy group comfort her. But she end up getting to deep into themas a fan and she needed to draw the line of her being creepy &stalking them. HAHAH I dont know but it made me laugh so much.Like in a way I understand why she was that way..But it was so funny... I hope I dont become like this. haha FK WHO KNOWS!Watching superman is back made me all emotional and I cried a bit.Everyone has a lovely family. & the kids are so cute and innocent.I wish I was a kid all over again.. life back then was just so honest.Oh Jaehyo has became one of my favorite in Block B hahaJust the fact hes so honest and loves to eat.He has that additude of I DONT GIVE A FK! HAHA call me fat, who caresIll keep on eating delicious food. Yepp Im loving Jaehyo these day.All Block B members are real! they dont act fake.Just be themselves and their emotion is easily shown.I guess Im drawn to them because of how honest they are.I see them as normal people who I can relate to.The type of people you can approach and wont scare to say hi to.Why cant they be my friends? HAHAHAH okay ill end my craziness.Tho I feel depress at time, I really try to tell myselfLife isnt that bad you know. There are people out there whosreally struggling so why am I complaining about these little things.just live your life day to day.In the end it will be okay,