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SF9 - GOOD GUY

please watch the music video and gives lots of love to SF9 .https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=n8zQysKciao

GOT7 Keep Spinning Concert

this little girl is foever a GOT7 fan.It was a fun concert in Los Angeles ~Next week is TWICE... Get Ready !Mills is ready for GOT7 hahaha

SF9 L.A Concert 4/26

VVIP for SF9 / Hi-Touch was after the concert.I am so in love with SF9.Attending this concert just made me fall in love so much harder hahaRowoon and Hwiyoung left me with a deep impression.Their really good with fan services to FANTASY.yo... I am becoming a FANTASY hahaAutograph Poster by SF9 , its on my wall now !

Right Here Right Now

What a disappointment with all the news out lately.As a Primadonna for life, I do felt like I wasted half of my life believing and supportingthis person. But the attachment somehow isnt there anymore so Its time to say goodbye tothat person and hopefully he reflect on his immoral act for the rest of his life.As for the other members of FTISLAND, I will support Hongki, Jaejin, Seunghyun & Minhwan.Dont give up on your music.This year is going by so fast isnt it ?I started off this year reunited with some friends hahaI been so busy with my job and being all depress about it too.I feel like there was only WORK AND SLEEP, WORK AND SLEEP...Then you forget all the people around you who been keeping in touchand all they wanted to do was see you ! I forgot those moment and realize its neverto late. Even if we dont see each other or a while, its like we lefted off where we started.JUST HAVING FUN !Do you see my excitment for APRIL? hahaIm going to EPIK HIGH concert APRIL 1st.SIK-K concert APRIL 5th.SF9 concert APRIL 26th !ahhh Im so excited to see my friends the most though in Minesotta.Then visiting Kelly in San Frans to see Sik-K together.but woo-hoo Im going to see SF9, I got the VVIP ticket. heheI can not wait to see INSEONG hahaTh

2018

Its the end of the year !Time flies , I have to say 2018 went by the quickest for me.I can sum it up so easily... I turned 30 years old this year. ohh my youth is gone hahaI quitted my job in March, got a new job in July, quit that job and got a new job in October. WOO!The best moment of this year is going back to Cambodia for 2 months !& exploring Thailand for a few days. I love to see my family there and I miss them everyday.Some photos to round up the year 2018...This is the last month of 2018 so lets be cheerful and hope for better in 2019 !Beginning of the year enjoying snow time ( Connor so cute )I still can not believe Im 30 years old now ! haha T_TI miss CAMBODIA so much ! Lets return 2019 ! Wait for me GrandmaTaking Maliyah to GOT7 concert again.Love going crazy with this little girlYou know Im forever a FNC Ent. Artist supporterand I fell in love with SF9 , especially Inseong the funny smart guy& I will try to blog more in 2019 ! If your reading this TOMOKO, I MISS YOU SO MUCH.Im sorry I didnt keep in touchbut your always a friend thats in my heart.Take Care ~ until the next blogging hehe

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fk it.

I feel like I'm going crazy. maybe I am ...seem like I'm so normal out the house. happy...laughing...joking...oh my life is great. then I'm at home and all I hear is about money.... I feel so fking angry at everyone in my family. it piss me off so much, I just want to stab something. I'm not in my right mind anymore. upset and worry about everything when I'm around family. just want to get away from them. so when I'm at work, I sure take that opportunity to be happy.

longing

I can't even tell him the truth anymore .why I need to make him hate me. how can I, when I'm ready to sacrifice everything for my family. I'm ready to betray myself...and I won't ever be who I am again. I hate that I made you mad tonight, I'm sorry.... you know your they only one in my heart. but my family come first, they need me. If I can't be with you this life time, I hope there will be another life where I can be with you forever. I only wish the best for you, you deserve someone better. someone who will make you happy. I'll forget you.

I know

I used to think it wasn't so important but it's the root to every problem. even if I try to avoid making it a problem in my life. it will forever be .... and it's driving me insane sometimes. now I can see why ppl choose that path when they gave up everything.

scream

I feel like my family made a bad choice moving here to be closer to the other family. In a way I feel like they ruin my family .I cry a lot feeling like my brother distance himself from us because of them. They won't admit their mistake and keep blaming him to the point he isn't himself anymore. Their driving me crazy...and im hurt because I know how hurt my mom is too. I'm holding it in....if my mom can be strong and hold it in, I need to be like her. one day though mom, I'll leave this place with you so ppl won't look down on us.We don't need them in our life....Our family will be together for forever.please dad...watch over us.

let it go.

that feeling when you like somebody so much but you know they will never be yours. the only thing to do is wish them happiness. and I do wish him the best because he deserve only good things! but for now I really like spending time talking to him. he makes me laugh and smile all day. I should cherish these moment because in the future I can look back and be thankful. because of you, I smile so brightly.

GOT7 LA Concert

Took Mills to her first concert on July 11th ! Shes loves GOT7 and she got to do a Hi-Touch after the concert.hahaha Hey I was happy too ~ they are so adorable and JB is so handsome.Great concert, I want to see them again!

romance year

don't know what's going on....too much guys in my life right now. Sethya who still wants to marry me...Jan at work who always makes me laugh. he's so bright and cheerful! Nate who's still so young but smart and serious. he still tell me age ain't nothing but a number..lol I don't know...me and him still awkward.Malissa telling me he's always looking at me. ahhhhhh he's a good boy, he need to find someone better than me. Then there's Cory who I been eyeing because his talent in art interest me. now there's Alec... lol he's too young though but he always smile at me like the cutest thing you ever seen. ahhhhhhforget about all of them!

trying

it's so hard to fake that your fine. everyday my life is like this and the worst part is there so no one by my side. but who fault is it in the end....it's my own.you live your life the way you want it to go but reality it just never fall through.even if you try to make the best out of it...I'm so sad that my heart hurt so much.everyday I wish it was the end.

Confused

aw I love my job but then theres so many things going on there too.Ann introduce me to another co worker name Nate and I think HE THINKS i like him.What the hell, I didnt say anything.Ann just called him over and said HAVE YOU MET DALIS ?and hes like not yet, HELLO there and shook my hand and ask me to pronoun my nameand whats my last name.SO awkward ! then later on he comes to my machine again and ask if I have an extra tote.I said go ahead and take it and he said he will return it back.But he brought 4 back HAHAHA , that was nice of him. but he keeps coming by after thatsaying HI to me. Also im so confuse with Richard... he keep coming to my machine desktaking my glove as if he cant go walk over the cabinet and get some.I swear me and richard been staring at each other a lot hahah but I dont like him...So Nate is my problem... today clocking in he said Hi to me again.And honestly Im so shy and the worst part is NATE is only 20. But funny thing he said out loud to Ann "AGE AINT NOTHING BUT A NUMBER"and looked at me and im just like OH FUCK PLEASE JUST GO AWAY ! After 2nd break, I was talking to L-JAY about Harry Potter...Clearly I never cared for it and L-JAY keep yapping on and on.Then NATE appeared out of nowhere and ask WHAT ARE WE TALKING ABOUT...and Im just like WHERE THE HELL HE COME FROM.L-JAY is like HELLO NATE and NATE Looks at me saying Hi there again. HAHAH FUCK MY LIFE IS AWKWARD AS FUCK ! I been cussing so much becauseIm stress about this love life shit. Every time I walk by Nate now... he just smile and say hi and Im so shy...like just look down and say Hello back ~ AHHHHHHHHHHHHH T_T

Knock Knock

So much has happened this year so far.I started a new job ! I like it really, because It doesnt require me to use my energy like my previous job. I was always so tired and unhappy. This new job at SDI is so much better ! Our Ceo is Japanese & main location is in Japan.But they have other branches in Germany, Thailand, California , China too and of course here in Arizona. I cant believe Im already 28. People dont believe me . haha Just yesterday my new co-worker asked me how old I was... and their like NO WAY, thought you were 17 HAHA ok thats so unrealistic... but the other lady Maria is like I THOUGHT YOU WERE 20 at least. Well thank you ! its nice to hear that I dont LOOK OLD YET! JUST YET ! I celebrated my Birthday this year with Mills since her B-day is 2 days before me.I love Mills & Connor so much, my life wouldnt mean a thing without them two.I have something to live for every day haha .Even if this guy still annoying me... I cant accept his feelings.I feel even more bad for hurting his feelings. Really dont see what he SEE'S in me ! I DONT understand it either. PHOTO UPDATES !

be happy

Life is really short, you can't predict the future. It might feel like you have everything but the next second all that can change.I only pray that I can live a simple life.I don't want to ask for much but to just live a simple life.

Happy 2016

Happy new year ! I'm going to try to write here every Monday now. My new year wasn't that great hahaI got stomach flu Dec 31 which is my sister birthday... I stayed home and missed all the celebration. Then on new year day Jan1I missed work because I was still sick. Anyways I hope that's done with! And the rest of the year will be great. Let me post photos from last year 2015.December month.Family came over and I went to Las Vegas.Love my niece and nephew.Mills and Connor Hope 2016 will be good to us all. I have many hope and dreams.Let it come true please, I'll try to make it come true. Lots of love!

the roots

Seriously the root to all problem is money.I feel like even though we're normal and happy but our problem we have is still because of money... it really ruin our mood to one another.I don't understand how we're all working but still don't have enough compare to living in California when two of us was jobless. My life there was so much fun...Now that I'm working and have money it's never enough and just stressful.My brother piss me off even more...he makes twice as much as me but always late on some bills. It really piss us off cuz he's so spending money on his stupid girlfriend. Ugh life is horrible here....for me. I'm more depress and stress out really. At work.... at home... why has my life become like this.That's why I want to think only about my self but hey get real...that's impossible! I still have to deal with everything...Just hope I can save for 2016 , I'm ready for another vacation. Away from this stress.