Replay ☆ 1402

 

it was a week ago (again w) in library

when i came where i even didnt notice it, just did bring books to pass it and, librarian said me 'look at the tree' heh

i 've got shocked it is so awesome ~

on the top энциклопедия символов - cyclopaedia of symbols. it has a sense w

ofc it was my last time for semester in university so, when i back from library i wanted to take photo with picture on the wall wwwwwww

but,,but i did hurry to somewhere

recently was birthday of my aunt and we didnt take photos however there were so many ppl but we took it the next day w

 

i just as always ate so much ~

but i could not eat a whole part of this cake, sigh

so on next day we came to aunt and took photos together ~ 

we have so different faces but they are so young~

recently sister went to the uni while i stayed at sweet home and bought some cosmetics for care of face w

 

as well, we had used this left one and right one is a new one.

gel-pilling is awesome ~my face so gentle and really when i touch my face it feels like peach 

today i went to the post and i've got this box of gifts from secret santa 

there were book, masks for face and hands, two postcards.

i never read this book, to be honest and i waited something like that ~ 

yah, i had good intuition that i can get such book

and i really happy to get this book 

These small parts of my life make me feel better ! but most of time i feel a sadness and as Rei, i cant find a reason for, sigh

ye, it's truth that we should mix joy and sadness, and i think i prefer second ver.

some days ago i told with some people in a one day , and, you know, people who i knew before made me feel warmth than new, sigh

i dont want lose them . . .

-kahara

Replay ☆ 1401

in these days were so so so strong and dry wind, that i've got flu 

i went from home of my ex classmate with a biiiiig pages of paper ~ 

nah, students are such.... we need paper a lot here 

a few days later we went to aunt's house for a tea and i fixed her pendant whish i've maden for 

even my mom said that my face 've got smaller..uhm..UHM... REALLY?!

nah, it is goo news as well. i didnt like when people said me 'you have a great dimples with fat cheeks'

｡oﾟ(p´⌒`q)ﾟo｡ 

after library i had time so i waited in the class. when i was alone i took this photo because of winter sunset ~

 

to be honest this photo (up) i did when i ran from infornatics classes to library

just i did think i need photo for my avataaaar but...but.. i dont like it so much to make it the main photo, sigh

recently i did knit two scarfs 

this one is became to....

i liked patternt as well..

and this one ~

exactly! here is only Shlegel who i like so much ~ 

i think it booth look  ok

 

ahah, of course i did it ~ 

i need to save something with my scarf ~ 

so some days later started a great season.. this is the season when i was born, 

winter came ~

 

i took this photo because of sunlight on the top building. Just look at it! I got pleasure to stand there and look at that light

 

and...and.. sky of course! Winter here is great because of milky pink sunset ~

when i was in library i did find two great german romantic philosophers

they are.... Вакенродер et Винкельман

about Fantasy about Art and Selected letters and textes about Antique ~ 

nah.. anyone know romantic people are dying at the young age or getting crazy in this time

in the same time they created so beautiful comments about life, thoughts

and i feel native mood when i read them

as well i went to library exact two days in week and get a pleasure when i come. 

Women who have been working there are glad to see me anytime, because they didnt meet such girl as me.

nah, i dont praise myself, they said no one came to them so much. because students have interest about Internet

so, ive got a chance sit in out little department of philosophy. there are not so much books as i thought..but they are really good. i even didnt think i can find it in our city ~ 

in front of table i saw this mirror. it is impossible to go out if you dont take a photo with 

and then i went to home.. 

last such memory happened about a week ago.

you know, when i came to english class i felt so big preassure that when teacher scolded me she said 'okay, i wont ask you more'

i almost cried and didnt tell any word

sigh, i have it last two years. i mean every autumn i feel stress about education and when i feel it growing up and up then it is hard to hold inside and i just cry while a lesson 

so i took a photo of this sunset.

nah, i like sunrise also but ,, uhm

-kahara

Replay ☆ 1400

how many times i heard 'dont forswear'

it's like new chapter of my life and he beginning is sad again 

hah

and what happened inside? It's like someone have broken my heart second time

really, why i am stepping on the same rake 

as any girl i have stupid sensitive heart which needs something good, sigh

and second time ive got shoot to my back

it seems i give up with any relationship

and i dont se any... uhm I understand that some people cant imagine their own way or life and probably im the one of them

i really cant understand my future life and why i passed exam to get master degree. i didnt get anything if i didnt pass exam and what were i do now?

im tellying again and again about my contacts with people and im getting bored with it

i started read Emile Zola again and his first novels with so naive synopsises

ah, i understand why critics have derided his novels

it's pity but so naive and light words and phrases

anyway, may i need to rest from communication?

however i need to talk with someone,

sigh, but suddenly something inside me turn on negative attitude

nah, who can i share with it? 

Hikaru Nanase – 名瀬家の正義 

kahara

Replay ☆ 1399

yep, im trying to get new contacts, not even friends but just people who i can meet randomly and talk

but it looks awkwardly and lubberly

and as i meet or just people are around me as i feel uncomfortable and exciting

my fear in front of people is growing up suddenly and i dont know what should i do

nah, i feel more alone when i am with them, when im just walking by them

yesterday one friend  told me to get new friend in reality or just talk to person in reality, sigh

how i wish it and how i dont trust them now

i would like to cut any my contact if i can, just because im afraid they can leave me too

however how can i do it with them? and im afraid to lose them also

if im always lose them why should i get new

if i cant even hold them with me

thats mean im awful person who cant support friendship or any line in converstation

sigh, it's my bad as i see 

Ólafur Arnalds & Arnór Dan – Old Skin 

хотя я и писала неоднократно о том, что мизантров во мне только осваивается и пытается укорениться в голове, сердце мое только и подвергается нападкам жестокой реальности. 

я так не хотела их терять, но, видимо, мои чувства и правда никому не нужны.

Так глупо, да?

Столько мнений, но как говорится homo homini lupus est, и в этом я только становлюсь увереннее.

Может, потому и стремлений уйти от человеческий взаимоотношений больше во мне укрепляется? 

И больше я начинаю думать об участи одиночества как о моей судьбе?

хах, je n'e peux pas oublier cette reunion

et cela presse sur moi

-kahara

Replay ☆ 1398

Nah, my mood should bother me from my life as well (＾～＾)

so week ago we went to our aunt for....

...

...

...

food

ta-dah

yush, i cant live without it 

let me eat feijoa with lemon and sugar more and more w

and nuts for my poor brain

muahaha

do you like diaspyros as i love it?

heart's apples ~

 also a week ago after shop and uni we went to our library ~

librians asked us to be their models for PCs news

yah, ok ok

after that i found great book by Διογένης ὁ Λαέρτιος

a great source to know life of some philisopers in Antique

 

Okay, we are absolutely different now, soooooo

where is who? 

 

ya, it's pity i cant use this photo in my main pic

so, lets it will be saved here 

 

it was warm evening for November with snow w 

and,, and last wednesday i had thre classes and two classes i was alone :c

so my teacher said me 'go home if no one didnt come'

sigh

i've prepared to buuuuut,, i hope i dont forget for next class this homework ~

 

also i went to hospital and it was okay haha

just ive got three problems with my back

 

when i had free class i thought 'why not"? and did it again 

wwwwwwww

so, yesterday we went to restaraunt with our classmate and 

i ate good pasta with pesto w

not big portion as well 

but

i ate it with pleasure 

she learnt and studied francais language

so we told about this topic, about out past life in uni and about people 

as usual w

we need to take paper from her job

dont forget Masha!

even if im doing exercises i still have the pain in my back

sigh

when it will the end? 

｡ﾟ･(｡ﾉД`)ヾ(-ω-*)ﾖﾁﾖﾁ

i started watch new anime Zankyou no Terror

Somewhere i heard about it but i sterted only before yesterday

so,, if these guys are саванты

im looking forward 

o, soon will be next season Code Giass and

it is good news as well, isnt it?

also since summer i have been bad sleep last time i slept well

наконец-то ~ 

and it was good dream

yah, i hope it release soon

HAHAHA

｡oﾟ(p´⌒`q)ﾟo｡

-kahara