i dont know why i stopped to write here
in autumn i wanted to refresh a page here every weekend, but you know what happened next
it was a difficult period for the next reasons: my graduation and got a master's degree, got a job and some things in a relationship
i took that picture with wonderful old windows when we bought tapestry for aunt's sofa
i remember the walk and that we took some more photos of us
and how i asked aunt to take some good photos that i got in the end
last year we visited every (except one, if i remember right) lecture about Rainessaince
our Art museum invited lectures from Hermitage Museum of Petersburg, so it was a really great experience to visit the lecture and feel an air of history from researchers
and of course, we saw outstanding pictures of Holland artists
i think i put some pictures here, just to show their excellent skills
i have no words to describe it, i was and am just admire of them and to see their pictures so close!
ah, i loved it.
now there are other works that didn't show to visitors before and it is from the collection of our local museum so i would like to visit it
in September we went with sister to Kaliningrad through two countries. and the night on the train was terrible. we didnt sleep well because every two hours or 40 mins we got trouble with board administration, with policemen and dogs
we didnt get big problems. we didnt get them at all
every day during the week we walked from the early morning till evening.
almost every museum, houses, cafe we wanted to visit - we visited
we saw wonderful kirkas that later became churches
we ate wonderful bread in local cafes (Kenigcbaker)
we visited the Museum of History and Museum of Art
these above photos are from one museum.
but, we got so many photos and now they are refresh in my mind: the arch of the 18th century and the same hospital where people live now, Kant's grave, fountains etc
here is behind of me is a typical area of living houses, where we lived. it is typical German architecture of the beginning of 20th century or earlier.
like from Kafka's novel, you know
and this one is done in Kursk already
but i remember that this bag i bought in an awesome bookstore
somehow but i regret a bit that i didnt buy Emile Zola biography there. i did read it here, where i took from the local library, but if i would buy it, it was my own book
sigh
tnow i can see how many things happened, that i got book Eleonor & Park, that i didnt like though and some books i bought in Kaliningrad and took from the library and just ordered in a bookstore
and you know, one girl did sew skirts for me and sister
this one ^
dark shades but the colour of dark red wine, and it is wool. you can imagine how wonderful it is, right?
later i will wear it often but now, i don't want to wear it so much, i am afraid to over wear it heh
moreover, i watched some anime last summer and autumn
Full Metal Panic! Invisible Victory
Shiki
Darker than Black
Violet Evergarden
Shingeki no Kyojin Season 3
Banana Fish
finally, i finished first season of Darker, you know how i didn't want to finish it because of some reasons.
finally, i finished Shiki, and again i didn't want to finish it so quickly because of same reasons as it was with Darker.
i dont know could i watch them just if i didn't know something, but i liked it so far and.. i am kind of glad to know them now. they had a sense and, well...
In my childhood, i liked Full Metal Panic so i couldn't miss it. seiyu were same, and yah, it was an amazing time
Why did I start to watch Violet? because there is a moment, even idea: she tried to survive and live in the time after she missed him. In short words. and, yeah, now i realize how it is difficult.
Banana Fish. The thing i cant stop think without emotion. Even mangaka told it is not about love. And, come on, it is like 91 Days but even deeper. How character tried to reach something invisible and he didnt reach. With all his intelligence, strength and wish. I dindn't think i can find something strong in such kind of anime. well, i cannot tell that there is another anime that affected to me so much. maybe it is because i got the special condition in this time, and during time i watched it ongoing.
i cut a connection earlier than we promised and.
well i am so confused,, so empty inside that i. you know that things that i did write here before about sadness are nothing that i feel now. it is something over than just tears. it is a big stone in my chest that i cant throw out. it follows me so hard.
I think i have no right to write something about it. not because it is betrayal and i dont think i can overcome, it stays with me.
ah, i don not know what should i do to feel a bit better even!
before i could disappear among books, music or anything! But now it doesn't work! I cant read well, i cant listen to. I became so careless with anything that even last two times a car almost knocked me down
now i am trying to abstract to watch Dororo, Persona 5 and Yakusoku no Neverland
and first one affected to me even worse, sigh
-kahara