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When was the last time I visited here.... I don't even remember.

It is all because I am severely depressed. I am too depressed to do anything these days. Work is just a great agony. I know it wouldn't be like that if I weren't this depressed.

It is just amazing that I am still able to continue my work while not going to see any doctor. Anyone knows that something is wrong with me, but I know I gotta continue working because I gotta live. But I don't think I can continue this job since it brings me down and tired so bad. I hate this job. Pay is excellent, but it never gives me any joy because I am too depressed to find any means to use the money.

Next job I will do will be completely different. I want to work with plants and nature. As long as I can live the bare minimum standard of living, that would be fine. I just don't want to do any more stressful meaningless jobs because I had enough pain in my life already, together with my physical pain in my back.

It seems that the world is becoming more difficult for humans to live despite that science and engineering are progressing. Why in the hell is that? I believe it is because people don't really get interest in polishing yourself as a human anymore. Yes, you do work hard on polishing your computer skills and English proficiency, but does that really determine the true value of human? Sadly, in this world, a jerk who are good at computer and English is viewed as more valuable human than a nice person who wasn't blessed with those skills. There are hundreds of private schools for receiving those pointless skills, but I have never heard even a single school of teaching goodness. But you know, I believe that it is what actually people need to pay big tuitions for.

Since we live in such a society evolving toward stupidity, I want to go against it. Joiners are welcome.

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Haven't come here for long time. I don't even remember when was the last time I visited. I don't really care... Who gives a fuck about what I am anyway?

Whenever I close my eyes, vast corn fields and beautiful woods extending to the horizon appear in my sight. I miss US. I love the countrysides of America. Nothing is more beautiful than those...

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In Japan, I am often asked how popular the Japanese baseball players are in the US. To tell you the truth, nobody cares about a baseball in the US except for teenager males and men who have played baseball in the past. Japanese people misunderstand that baseball is super-popular because it is the most popular sports in Japan, and it was originated in the US. But no. It is not so popular sports to watch. At least, it has not grown to be an American culture.

Then, what is the most popular sports in the US? It goes without saying, it is the American football. The popularity of the baseball is nothing compared to the American football. Every weekend an entire family gather and watch football games, including grandma at a farm.