Back to square one!
A nice HTHT with the girls yesterday made me realised that perhaps I'm being too hard on myself, and on others as well.
But nonetheless, I'm feeling grateful for having those people whom I can connect at that level not many people can comprehend. ;)
Earn a living doing something that contributes to others, yet doesn’t rob my soul <-- that is our dream
But nonetheless, I'm feeling grateful for having those people whom I can connect at that level not many people can comprehend. ;)
Earn a living doing something that contributes to others, yet doesn’t rob my soul <-- that is our dream
The path is tough.....I guess.
I think my mood curve nowadays is like a roller coaster ride.
One day I feel exceptionally joyful and motivated, and the very next day, I feel terrible.
For the past three weeks, I've been kept in a small office, testing my limits and progress with only 5 PLEASANT individuals, I thought I had made improvement.
Gah, it's a total different experience when I'm placed in a classroom with 20 odd individuals who are emanating negative energy.
I felt down, disappointed, and disheartened.
It's really for me to accept it, suck it up, and do something about the situation, or keep on whining and mulling on the reality without taking any other action.
It's either I get motivated, or I get depressed.
To be honest, depressed really does seem like an easy option!
Oh wells........ let's start w a really small 0.000001cm baby step! :D
One day I feel exceptionally joyful and motivated, and the very next day, I feel terrible.
For the past three weeks, I've been kept in a small office, testing my limits and progress with only 5 PLEASANT individuals, I thought I had made improvement.
Gah, it's a total different experience when I'm placed in a classroom with 20 odd individuals who are emanating negative energy.
I felt down, disappointed, and disheartened.
It's really for me to accept it, suck it up, and do something about the situation, or keep on whining and mulling on the reality without taking any other action.
It's either I get motivated, or I get depressed.
To be honest, depressed really does seem like an easy option!
Oh wells........ let's start w a really small 0.000001cm baby step! :D
I took the red pill
Having immersed myself in all the out-of-the-world knowledge, sometimes I really feel that I can just quit my internship, forgo my diploma, and embark on my true journey.
Education system has totally eroded the true meaning of education.
Credentials? Okay, for those who are seeking for wealth and material possession.
What about others who think otherwise, who sees minimal value in credentials, who feels a strong urge to break free from what is considered the norm?
But oh wells, like what Steve Jobs had said, (or is it someone else?), I need to have faith that everything will connect like connecting dots someday :) And I know I'm learning more than just marketing skills and knowledge during these 3 months.
I'm learning about life.
Education system has totally eroded the true meaning of education.
Credentials? Okay, for those who are seeking for wealth and material possession.
What about others who think otherwise, who sees minimal value in credentials, who feels a strong urge to break free from what is considered the norm?
But oh wells, like what Steve Jobs had said, (or is it someone else?), I need to have faith that everything will connect like connecting dots someday :) And I know I'm learning more than just marketing skills and knowledge during these 3 months.
I'm learning about life.
Misery
I guess humans are all like that.
We seek for advice, suggestions, opinions even though deep down we knew what to do.
It's abit annoying on the side of the opinion-giver, because after feeling troubled over thinking of a good advice/suggestion, the recipient will never take in what you say.
Perhaps in situations I should see my answers a mere evidence of 'yes I am listening to what you are saying', so that I wouldn;t be so disturbed by the fact that my advice/opinion doesnt help.
True?
We seek for advice, suggestions, opinions even though deep down we knew what to do.
It's abit annoying on the side of the opinion-giver, because after feeling troubled over thinking of a good advice/suggestion, the recipient will never take in what you say.
Perhaps in situations I should see my answers a mere evidence of 'yes I am listening to what you are saying', so that I wouldn;t be so disturbed by the fact that my advice/opinion doesnt help.
True?