She is coming back to me.

hey mate. She is coming back again with beautiful tires and brake. She is wearing new tires, used tires though. The guy is called Gray repiared her. Now she is fixed. I paid 750 bucks for it. I spent all money I worked on the farm for Mark today with some shopping...but I can drive again, I wont be stuck here. It's great. I just have to make sure that Im gonna check the left winker wich doesnt work properly before going to Sydney. I dont wanna get any more fines. I have paid 84 for fine again today because of wearing bald tires before. my god, its bullshit. so Im pretty scared with problems even if its a little one. need a check and hopefuly the redio will fix up too. driving without music is boring. Anyway Im glad I can drive again. the brake is beautiful. I hope Im gonna drive this car at least this year, and then I will sell her.

It was raining in this morning so Im on a day off. I just went to pick her up, and then went shopping. I have to work again. yesterday I made 140 bucks a day. its not bad. I was cutting heaps of branches of almond trees. I did almost 2000 trees. my right hand hurts. its getting better though. Its good to have a rest today. my blisters on my hand is much better so I think I can work harder tomorrow if its not raining. lets make 140 again!

I have been getting up at 6 oclock these days. its great for me, isnt it? after I wake up, I have brakefast and then for a work. very healthy life these days. and plus, I quit smoking comlletely. I havent smoked for a month. its fuckin amizing for me. I didnt think I could do it but now I think its not too difficult. what is important for it was just my will. thats it. but maybe the condition of doing it, I mean, the environment to do it, is good at the momnet. It helped me. because every shops is far, sometimes I was lazy to go buy ciggarets and there are not so many smokers around me, but I tried to bear many times not to smoke again, now it is all ok with me. but I have to be careful not to reach it again. its easy to do it again. I know it can be very good break sometimes, but I just dont wanna waste my money and health and everything fo it. so I will never smoke. I have decided. in my car and room must be non smoking.

one thing I care about it is eyesight. I feel its getting weak. Im pretty sure. driving makes me tired. I dont know why its getting worse. because of contact lenz or watching the laptop everyday? I put them everyday these days. my glasses are not so suitable for my eyes.

after all, Im happy today. I just need a plan what I do after here, when I leave, where I go. so far I work for some money. maybe for 2 more weeks? I need money for petrol and everything. I should buy a lonely planet and the map of AU!!!!! I have got a bad sence of the direction. I hope it will be ok. ok??

need money and plan what I am up to.

By the way, I havent said here about the car accident in Tasmania. It was horrible. It was good that Nathan and I didnt get any hurts though,fortunataly. We were traveling around east corst in Tasmania by the car which is a small red truck Nathan bought. And we are going along east corst just going up to north to visit good beaches and camping sites. We looked for them all the time to see beautiful and feel great. There are so many beautiful places in Tasmania. That's one of the reasons I love there. So we saw a lot of beautiful thing while we were camping around. Altouhg it was not comfartable,I really enjoyed it, it impressed me so much, and I will not forget what I saw there. If I have time and money to go there again, I would love to.

Anyway we finaly got the top of island. I think it wasnt good weather and I was tired because of long time camping in cold nights and mornings. It's not so easy to camp for long time. I did a week. When we got the north, our plan was back to Hobart. so after we looked around there, we decided to go back to Hobart. "ok,we alomost complete this east cort, let's go back and get our bed" we were taking like that. and then we began to go back to Hobart to see Ash on her birthday and Salamanca market...

We were on our way. He was driving on the high way,I was sitting down next to him. His car is very old one, so we didnt drive fast. that is way many car overtook our car and we didnt care that. We had many time. When he was driving, he suddenly tried to turn right. He put the direction to right, and then he tried to get ready to turn right. I could see the picknic area on right side so I thought he waned to have look there,ok,I dont mind it, I didnt say anything to him but I was surprised it because it was suddenly. but then, he just made a car lean to turn right, the huge truck was coming from behind us and trying to overtake us but we almost ready to turn right!! unfortunataly it happened same moument, we couldnt avoid that huge truck, and the truck couldnt either. When Nathan said shit,, we felt big viberation with big aound and that truck scrached our car on right side strongly. It was only a second and freak us out. This was the accident. after that we had to talk to the driver on the truck. I think it was truck driver's falt. but we dindt have any insurance so we didnt try to inspect and the truck was alomost no damege. the driver checked the truck was no problem to drive again, he left. we checked his company, phone number and every details.

After he has gone, we realised our car was almost fucked up. right side of the car body was bent and the all lights broke. We even coulnt start the engine. but it was because the electric line was disconnected by shock of the accident. we connected it again then we could start a car. ok we can still drive, first of all, we decided to go to the nearest car garage to get car check. Nathan tried to put a gear to first, but it didnt work,the gear box was fucked up,,,but only forth gear worked. so he put just forth and then began to drive again. If I think of it now, It's kinda funny.

and we got the grage and mechanic fixed it for free. thanks,at least we can go to Hobart. so we went back there and stay in backpackers. we went to the garage again and we knew we were not able to drive this car any more. we decided to put the car away. and we lost the plan and it confused us. we had alredy got a ticket of the ferry for carrying the car also. but our coworker wanted to sale her car 300 bucks fortunataly, and it's very cheap,we can put our money easily.so we got the car as soon as we could, and then we got the ferry to Melbourne.

Tasmania did many things to me but I still like there. I stayed in Melbourne for a few days and then I started to go up to north with a new car.

and now, the new car is broken down. bad luck. the brake broke and its in the garage at the moument. I hasitated to have the car again because the car makes a lot of money.it costs so much. I have to change tires probably all of them. and I have got fines from those fuckin tires, and parking fine. Its too much but
I really want to visit east corst of mainland and the car would be convinient there. I also want to go up north. and the end of this year actually I dont know yet what Im going to do and where I will be,,,it should be all right. now I wrok on the farm again and I can make money and try to save money.

I quit smoking too. I havent been smoking for a couple of weeks. Im trying not to smoke again never.

Im still in Robinvale. I think I will stay here for a few weeks, one mothe or so. Im not sure though. I need money now for the shit car....yesterday I got a car insurance at ANZ too. Im ready to drive car again. I have to pay 450 for the broken brake,100 for picking up the car from the place car broke down and probably tires,100 each or something? so almost 1000...fucking hell. so expensive but I have already decided it. Im gonna have a car again this year and travel with that. If something happens with that shit next time, I would give up the car. but please run safety.

make money now and then plan what you gonna do!!

In Robinvale

Hey,I've got a farming job in close to Robinvale.It's really shit job which is pulling out branch of grapes. It's quite hard to earn but I'm doing my best.I say my best..I don't have enough strength at the moument but later,I would get powerful body and now I have a pain on my mscle and hand.I have to pull a lot of branch strongly,and go on as much as I can. 1 line have around 140 trees so there are 2 sides on 1 line. And If I do 1 line, I will get 70 bucks not so much because it takes long time to finish up a line.If I get used to doing it,it maybe easier but a hard job is ever hard.. As soon as we can save money,let's go another place where it is warm.here,there are many Indian and .Asian.No Europian,Aussie except Nathan,farmers and the owener of this house where I live.It's rainig today that means day off.We can't work when It's raining.So I'm just relaxing at home where I'm staying in Robinvale.Actually not Robinvale,Euston but, I don't know where exactly.There is the boundary very nearby.I think I'm in NSW but Victria is very soon from here.Anyway I've got a bad sense of direction so I still don't remenber most of the way here.bullshit.
My mom has sent me a mail but I haven't replayed yet.She has asked me,What do you think the real happiness is?.oh,I don't know.I can't know it.We all are looking for it on whole life spent,aren't we?No? She is a little strange and misterious.She gives me a difficlut thing like this sometimes so I don't understand her what she says,sometimes.I'm proud of her though.turn back to that question,what would I say for that? The happiness.It's really getting difficult if I think of that deeply and seriously.But I think there is happiness all around us.And there is sadness and whatever all around.just if we notice or not.How think of happiness depends on people.But that gives us all people.I don't know what I'm saying finaly.Just be happy!!I'm going to be happy of course.And everyone too. right?