Spring is almost here...

Even though it's still cold... The days are getting longer. And the clouds are starting to come back. Those summer clouds. I'm being reminded of summer. I can't wait to leave my grandparent's house tomorrow and come back home. And admire the sky from my window. Like I once did in the summer. Like I once did on all of the Summer days. Summer. I can't wait to see you again. I know you'll come back just as you were when you left. I just realized... Where I am now... is where y first Summer memories were made. On June 25th... That reminds me! 94 days until Summer! 13 weeks. I can't wait. Seeing that the weeks go by quickly when school is in session... that doesn't seem so long to me.

On Thursday, my grandparents took me to see "The Lorax". And I fell in love with The Once-ler. Oncey! SEXY BEANPOLE. But I don't just admire him because he is handsome looking. But his character was also charming. Today is St. Patrick's day OR Once-ler day~ From now on, I'll celebrate it this way. I know it sounds silly, but that's how I'd like to do it. I don't really like the fandom... I like to stay away from fandoms.

Anyways~ I'm trying my best not to be depressed anymore.
Life is all right!

Now I don't want to close my eyes...

My older sister came into my room and said she had just thrown up several times in a row... I started to worry because I didn't want to become sick because of her. So after she left, I felt sick. But I had only imagined it. I do feel a bit ill though. But I know I'm not going to throw up. But somehow... I feel so scared to sleep because I think the feeling will come back. So, I'm waiting for the sunrise. The sun makes everything better...

Maybe I'll get tired soon... and then I will just fall asleep peacefully.

People

My friend recently went home today. All of a sudden... I am full of negativity. I feel sad. I feel lonely, but somehow... I don't want to be around anyone. I wish the thick clouds would disappear. They make everything worse. I can't wait to fall asleep tonight. I just want to close my eyes, and when I wake up, everything will be better. I won't feel this strangeness anymore. I am also a bit upset. I showed my sister and my friend Golden Bomber PVs... and they kept on making fun of me. They acted like it was okay to make fun of the people who saved my life. I've never told anyone about it except my friends on tumblr. No one else understands... so I just keep quiet.

Anyways. I hate the darkness of the clouds. These clouds aren't friendly. I only like the ones that will dance with the sunshine. I hope that when school goes back... I won't get pushed around anymore.

I hate everyone.