It's here with me now~!

I have been off school officially for a week now. And the time has gone by perfectly. I haven't wasted as much time as I did last summer. I've tried to make use out of every hour. I have stayed up all night twice already! I just love staying up to watch the sun rise. Even though I can't see it through my window, I love seeing it come up from behind the trees and shine on everything else. This morning was spent sewing. I made a skirt last summer. It was made from the Barbie fabric I always see in fairy kei outfits. It wasn't how I wanted it to turn out the first time. So I remastered it last night! In the span of three hours, I put twice as much love into sewing it as I did last time. I thought, "I have all the time I need. Careful sewing makes a better product~" And it turned out beautifully!

Anyways. I have had a good start to my summer so far. I don't know what it will bring to me just yet. But I have a feeling it's going to be wonderful. I'm having my Lolita friend over on Friday. She doesn't wear Lolita to school. But she likes to borrow my clothes, and we like to spend time in it together. It's always so fun~ I like to teach her things about it. So she can start wearing it regularly like me. I plan to make cupcakes with her, and have tea while we watch "Kamikaze Girls". I've seen it many times. It's my feel good movie. So I'm excited to show it to her. We will probably go swimming, laugh at things on the computer, and stay up late in the tent. I can't wait to sleep outside for the first time this Summer~

I feel so much better! I can't hold in all of this happiness. I just want to frolic around in the sunlight in my frilly clothes. Maybe buy some ice-cream, go antique shopping, do all of the things I love! It was my one year anniversary with Golden Bomber on Monday. I celebrated by staying up all night then, and going to the beach in the day time. I enjoyed sitting by the water and drawing. I wasn't as bothered by the kids as usual. Which was nice. I'm off to make some breakfast now.

LIFE IS ALL RIGHT~!

After

After the long wait. I have finally found it.

The last day has come. The last day of my foolish days. I will be able to find happiness again. The sky, it is beginning to clear for me. Everything is falling together again. The smile I once held upon my face has returned. Truthfully. Not the smile I tried to wear... but never fit. The real smile has broken the false one. I no longer have to wait for the Summer nights. They have come. Summer is running towards me with such haste that we are about to make a collision. This collision will cause memories to be made... a Summer full of joyful moments spent enjoying the nostalgia. I won't let the days of this Summer go to waste. Every moment will be cherished.

Words cannot express my happiness.

Life is all right.

One
more
day.

My Heart

The last days of school don't phase me. The annoying people, and uncomfortable environment doesn't make me frown as much. Because I know that Summer and I will be reunited. We will finally be able to spend another night together. We will finally be able to breathe the same air, and share more memories, to create more nostalgia for a place that will never be the same twice. I know that this summer will be different. But I can't wait. I love and cherish the memories I made last summer. And I will do the same with these.

I can almost say I've made it. I'm almost free. This year has gone by so quickly when I look back at it at a glance. But then I remember all of the painful memories. And I decide to never look back again. I will curse the ugly pieces of my past. They won't get the better of me next year. Because the pain isn't worth my time. That amount anyways. I've learned from it. And it should never cause me to cry that many times again.

Life is all right.

6 more days.