Without words

声を聴くだけでそっちの気持ちが分かることもある。

でも、ときどき　涙を隠し、平気なふりするように笑う。
言えない悲しみは言葉にならない時にも　全部　見付けられる。

言葉は必要ないよ。その瞳がずべて伝えた。

泣きたいなら、泣いて。

泣きやすい人と言われても、弱い人わけじゃないよ。　自分の気持ちをそのままで生きてる人間は強いのよ。
だから、大丈夫、泣いて！
その涙を受けいれ、いつか幸せの涙に変えてあげたい。

泣くほど幸せなら、私に微笑んでね。そんな涙も全部受け入れたい。自分の痛みを消すために。。。

Miss the rain

夢を見た。その夢の中にあなたが感じてたけど、顔も姿も見えなかった。

現実は辛いが、なぜ夢までもそんなに辛かった？

いつも会いたいのに会えない。それは現実だわ！なぜ、夢にも顔が見えなかった？

久しぶりにそんなにきれいな青空を見た。それなのに、ふと雨に焦がれてる。
青空を見たら、私の幼い頃の夢は高くて遠く飛んでいったことを思い出すのよ。
でも雨の日なら、寂しい感じがある。

ねぇ、今、夢を追いかけて間に合うか？その光の当たる場所に届ける？

Why couldn't I cry ?

I hate it when I couldn't protect you....
I hate it when I realize that I was so useless.....
And I hate it when I try to be wise but in the end I still can't understand myself.......

Why do people always like that?
No one can decide others' life. No one has the right to say someone can live or someone should die. So why when you were born, all people around said that you would die? And why did I also think the same? ?????

I'm so scare of myself. No, I'm just feel so horrible, so disgusting, that I have such a cruel thought.

There are so many things that I want to show you. When I hold you in my arms, I knew that I wouldn't have much time left. but I couldn't do anything. You was the one that taught me how much a life costs. I just want to thanks you for that.

I wish you happy after-life. I'm sorry that, I didn't share with you the pain you had suffered. But I did keep my promise right? I didn't let you be alone when the last moment came.

I'm still so sorry. That time, I couldn't cry.

But, by now, I can cry, cry for you.... Let's meet some day in the world where there's no pain.

Please be happy! Best wishes for you !!!