What do you really value in life? do I just want to be in the moment all the time, each and every day? Or do I want to live a carefree life with my partner and have a good balance between my career and personal life?
I seem to seek having a full-time job even outside of working hours, like a calling so to speak, but I also easily forget I am not a machine, and I need time to rejuvenate on weekends and maintain the house.
Why am I so one-track-minded? Are most with ADHD this way? According to some reading, it seems I am not the only one who struggles with this thinking of difficulty balancing personal life and work life.
The sense of relief within, myself, and self-renewal I feel while and after I write from my soul is truly otherworldly. It is something that is my own, something I have felt and plastered onto paper from my brain. These thoughts and feelings can occasionally feel so damn fleeting. It is quite amazing how words and emotions control us so strongly, and how other times it was like they never existed, to begin with. Crazy stuff.
Journalling to me is having a conversation with myself, once I have finished word vomiting. I guess as an individual, I am still holding onto the past, the people I used to know well, the people I feel sorry for still and want to help.
I have every day to help myself and help those I genuinely care for, like Mehdi and close friends.
I may not be a writer, a legit one as a profession, but I write to heal and rebuild myself. To me, writing is a reflection of who I am, my anchor, and an endless path of personal growth.
I hope from here on out, I can depend on my editing job and develop it further until it becomes a career. I hope Ais wont take over the writing industry completely.