You took my fragile life in your hands
twisted it with every bit of disgust and strength
letting all your deep-seated hatred for me show
so I built a wall of silence around myself
as it slowly consumed me and became my universe
Your words made my ears bleed
and your actions ceased my beating heart
as it folded into itself from time-stopping fear
You proved to me how much
you loathed my existence
taking me away from myself
starting with a single touch
You unknowingly put me through
years of self-hatred, loss of identity,
struggling with redefining who I was
spending many years engulfed by ineffable
self-hatred and disgust
I still wish I could have the courage to ask you
what made you do what you did
I may have a clearer purpose in my life now
but I still continue to live in silence
where you placed me all those years ago
I hope I won't have to take this secret to my grave
simply because you are far too prideful
and too much of a coward to do so
Such fears like thinking I still have to be strong
to prove to you and everyone around me that
you never broke me still plays with my heart
and I hate the reality of it
This is one story that my heart refuses to let go of
that I may never get closure from
but the best I can do now is live fully for myself