So while exploring my sudden captivation of, oddly, stained glass, I went a bit further and researched about puzzles making, since stained glasses seemed like a puzzle of some kind to me, and then from there I went to "crossword puzzle maker", and from there something kind of clicked, and I thought maybe what I crave is words, and exploring new words, and therefore, use it as a way to also form a connection with people in the world.
If anything, this is just the dopamine in my brain on rapid-fire, since I found a new thing I can learn and read about.
But if words and learning about words, is something I enjoy, then maybe to help me not burnout entirely when teaching, I can somehow focus more on using vocabulary/crossword puzzles/wor search games and other "puzzlemaker" methods to help students learn new words, and therefore, help myself sustain more interest in my profession as a teacher, by using books, and my semi-love of words.
Foood for thought.