Its been about a month... 2 more days to be exact.. Since we put a comma in our relationship..
The month was pretty hard for me. Sadly to say.
I felt very lonely..
that realization that shes no longer mine to hold.
I felt all sorts of things.
I felt that love no longer exists because its easily replaceable..
She used to say she loves me but now she is saying the same to the other guy.
That feeling sorta hurts in a way...
All my life..
In my relationships I've had.
I've realized that 3 out of 4 exes of mine replaced their love for me to someone else..
Usually after they broke up with me they would get with the guy few weeks later...
hurt. yes. but at least she told me the truth.. if not then eventually i would get hurt again...
But I still haven't lost hope on her..
I still really love her.
I found out that of all the times I am frowning. I truly smile and laugh when i was with her..
She is my happiness.
I really hope that one day she would be the one that would love me as much as I love her.
get married and
grow old together.
She keep asking me to give up..
lose hope..
but its not easy..
I felt it.
we are meant to be.
So how can I move on? when shes already right in front of me?
I love her.
And.
I think I'm gonna marry her.
