This post.
I really dunno how to start.
Because there are a lot of things I wanted to tell you but do not have the guts to.
Sometimes I just felt so unappreciated.
Yeah sure I did a lot of things for you without asking anything for return. I think I broken that promise when I felt that you don't appreciate me as much.
Maybe you don't know how to convey your appreciation towards me I am not sure.
But I just feel that when you say you will be my confidence then you left for another person it hurts me to the core.
I don't want to be inferior in my family.
I am always the quiet one in my family.
But I felt so alive when I am outside of my house. When I am with my friends. I felt superior sometimes.
I feel more confident. Am smarter and things go well for me when I am with my friends.
Yet you couldn't really see it. I really dunno how do I show you my feelings.
That is the reason why I don't want to go back to my house so early when I am out.
Even if I am at my house I am a shut in... Usually staying in my room alone.
I am close to my family. Yes. But sometimes these traumas don't just go away when I pour it out.
I want to show you I am confident. I am capable of taking care of you and so I try to meet up with all your needs. Try to solve your problems when you are too stressed to solve them.
I was your Superman.
But today, when you talk about karma and said if your child ends up like that bitch then you will feel pekcek.
The best role model you would say JingMing number 1 then say Bernard number 2.
Now it is unfair to say they are bad people without get to know them first.
But I just can't believe I am not in that same catergory as them lah.
I am not a smart scorer. I don't possess perfect scores in my report card.
But I just feel that. If your child's role model is me.
Wouldn't it be great if your child treats their partners right. Always provide and protect their partners and never let go even when times are difficult?
They are maybe better than me.. I dunno.
Or maybe I am jealous? I am not sure myself also.
But all I felt was hurt from inside and out. I just dunno how to hold it in anymore.
I felt like ending my life man.
Like this cannot, like that also cannot.
You recently start to get more distant with my friends and family.
I am scared that even one day when you are single. And I wanted to chase you back. It is impossible already because you don't want to go back to me...
i burst.
I really dunno how to start.
Because there are a lot of things I wanted to tell you but do not have the guts to.
Sometimes I just felt so unappreciated.
Yeah sure I did a lot of things for you without asking anything for return. I think I broken that promise when I felt that you don't appreciate me as much.
Maybe you don't know how to convey your appreciation towards me I am not sure.
But I just feel that when you say you will be my confidence then you left for another person it hurts me to the core.
I don't want to be inferior in my family.
I am always the quiet one in my family.
But I felt so alive when I am outside of my house. When I am with my friends. I felt superior sometimes.
I feel more confident. Am smarter and things go well for me when I am with my friends.
Yet you couldn't really see it. I really dunno how do I show you my feelings.
That is the reason why I don't want to go back to my house so early when I am out.
Even if I am at my house I am a shut in... Usually staying in my room alone.
I am close to my family. Yes. But sometimes these traumas don't just go away when I pour it out.
I want to show you I am confident. I am capable of taking care of you and so I try to meet up with all your needs. Try to solve your problems when you are too stressed to solve them.
I was your Superman.
But today, when you talk about karma and said if your child ends up like that bitch then you will feel pekcek.
The best role model you would say JingMing number 1 then say Bernard number 2.
Now it is unfair to say they are bad people without get to know them first.
But I just can't believe I am not in that same catergory as them lah.
I am not a smart scorer. I don't possess perfect scores in my report card.
But I just feel that. If your child's role model is me.
Wouldn't it be great if your child treats their partners right. Always provide and protect their partners and never let go even when times are difficult?
They are maybe better than me.. I dunno.
Or maybe I am jealous? I am not sure myself also.
But all I felt was hurt from inside and out. I just dunno how to hold it in anymore.
I felt like ending my life man.
Like this cannot, like that also cannot.
You recently start to get more distant with my friends and family.
I am scared that even one day when you are single. And I wanted to chase you back. It is impossible already because you don't want to go back to me...
i burst.