Recently been disappointed at everything.
I find myself dreaming a lot about her. Of how we were an item in the dreams but waking to reality is quite hard to bear.
And so I've been sleeping a lot longer than previous times and wakes up late.
Its harder and harder to call a mate for yamcha or to go someplace with me nowadays. And I've turned my leadership to some guy which I'm starting to regret it..
Family has been good. But I've been missing her and missing us.
Been to Melaka a few times to visit her. Even the hours is short when I meet her. But still felt worth it.
Last Saturday was awesome. We went out even as friends. I felt that we were like a couple. Its fun and beats every shit I've faced.
But sadly shes not my girlfriend anymore la.
Sure its just a status. But recent events made me felt its really impossible for us to be together.
Even she kept saying she don't want to. But I feel that she wants but shes afraid of our future together.
not because I will ill-treat her or what la. But just family problems. She don't wanna get more troubles and hate from my sister.
So. because of that Im pretty much down in the dumps. Just 24hrs ago. I got drunk because I've been depression-drinking. Getting bombed makes me happy just slightly. The hangover is shit but still.. Things were okay. Just recently been emo about it again.
I just hope now that my sis and her would patch up. My sis said shes not gonna post anything about her anymore but I can't know for sure. I dunno can I trust her or not. Right now I just hope that her relationship with evy patches up lah.
Its very depressing and actually will make you lose your mind when you're in the middle between the sister and the one.
I love her very much. And I hope we have a future together.
Please god. Don't be too cruel to me. I will treat her better. Can I have her back in the future?
I find myself dreaming a lot about her. Of how we were an item in the dreams but waking to reality is quite hard to bear.
And so I've been sleeping a lot longer than previous times and wakes up late.
Its harder and harder to call a mate for yamcha or to go someplace with me nowadays. And I've turned my leadership to some guy which I'm starting to regret it..
Family has been good. But I've been missing her and missing us.
Been to Melaka a few times to visit her. Even the hours is short when I meet her. But still felt worth it.
Last Saturday was awesome. We went out even as friends. I felt that we were like a couple. Its fun and beats every shit I've faced.
But sadly shes not my girlfriend anymore la.
Sure its just a status. But recent events made me felt its really impossible for us to be together.
Even she kept saying she don't want to. But I feel that she wants but shes afraid of our future together.
not because I will ill-treat her or what la. But just family problems. She don't wanna get more troubles and hate from my sister.
So. because of that Im pretty much down in the dumps. Just 24hrs ago. I got drunk because I've been depression-drinking. Getting bombed makes me happy just slightly. The hangover is shit but still.. Things were okay. Just recently been emo about it again.
I just hope now that my sis and her would patch up. My sis said shes not gonna post anything about her anymore but I can't know for sure. I dunno can I trust her or not. Right now I just hope that her relationship with evy patches up lah.
Its very depressing and actually will make you lose your mind when you're in the middle between the sister and the one.
I love her very much. And I hope we have a future together.
Please god. Don't be too cruel to me. I will treat her better. Can I have her back in the future?