Well its been like hell

I dunno what to do blog.
everytime if i am not doing something
i will be emo again.
this feelin sorta sucked..

and i have no one to tell to
because none of my friends would understand

so i have no choice but to turn to her.

but if i tell her she would feel bad
and keep on saying sorry


theres no point of saying sorry.
because i dunno why it didnt really help but i felt more bad.

I think of how i did a lot and a lot of things for her..
but in the end it didnt really made her happy
i dunno la..

very uncertain of the future..
sigh.

really hope that i have the strength to carry on..

i must distract myself with a lot of works.
i hope..