Well. As we know. Ive coupled with her from July 11th 2011
up until now it has been 10month and 4days.
We're all happy and all but..
sigh.
a lot of things happened in our love life.
Can say that if this were to be publish. it can be made as a very kickass story.
Well it all started after i coupled with her not long ago..
from that day on im very happy
its like i finally got my dream girl
a girl i met from camp.
that 3days 2nights camp in johor
was trully a crosspath of fate.
that i can truly say..
if weren't for that camp.
i would never ever meet her.
so i did try my best
to be the best guy
the perfect guy for her
but things turned bad.. in a way.. sorta...
she hung on on her ex bf.
well that was actually kinda sad because that goes on for a few months.
then usually we would argue and she would make my head burst of anger and sometimes its even hard to breathe.
then some guy at her college appeared in her life..
it was also hurting when she told me she has a small part in her heart she wanted to try...
that situation made me confused because i did truthfully treat her well..
well yeah speaking of which, that time we had a bumpy patch. that my sister case.. made her felt theres no need to even carry on anymore.. i stunned.
but eventually things turned out fine and all la.. but i'll get back to you on that later..
back to the "fung" situation.
he was really annoying. annoyed her everyday by finding her. calling her petnames and all.
and sometimes she would get angry if i stared at him.
but what can i do? im a gentleman, ive tried to speak to him but he did not reply.
he always ignored my calls.
he is too ball-less to face me..
so no choice but to meet him in the face and stare as if im gonna kill him..
fair enough right?
lol but i still got bruises from her grabbing onto my arm too hard after that, ouch!
but despite everything that has happened. we would hold on together and crossed over those bumpy patches of our love life..
sometimes she would be impatient and breaks up with me in that anger.
but in the end we would still be together
because id believe, someone so special. met truly by fate
must treat her well.
and be patient with her.
and so i did
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but on our 10th monthsery, her godfather passed away and she has to leave kl for singapore,
where the funeral was held..
she asked a favor from an old friend, whom has a crush on her since 2007.
and it happened very fast.
well. they clicked and then she return kl doubted that whether should we be together..
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Truthfully speaking. I am sad.
Its very unfair for me.
I mean, in this 10 months.
i've been with her.
and her heart would think of other person besides me..
her ex, the fung, and the old friend.
so yeah she doubted.
i think its unfair.
so we both agreed that we would give each other a breaktime.
her explination is that
she cant commit so fast..
yeah sure she wanted a stable relationship
but when that happened she scared that she would regret in the future
of all the things that she might miss out when shes with me.
she told me she doubted it ever since she keep on hanging on her ex that time..
but i never listen, thats my stubborness. =P
I did almost everything she asked me to.
I loved her more than she loved me
i can truly take care of her and give her the sense of security that she never experienced in all of her ex.
I (proudmodeon) can say that i did became the perfect guy for her..
but things still go wrong...
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You might think OMG why would she do that?
But no..
I can say I've grown up.
to be more matured and opened minded.
its true she might miss out a lot of things if she commits too early.
and she might freaked out because she found the perfect guy for her so early in her time.
but yeah i do grown up.
things are different already.
she have the will to change.
thats why its a relationship.
we are still young,
not yet married.
things will be too serious to handle if we continue on so..
she want to leave.
She kept on saying sorry.
but i dont wanna hear her say sorry
because
the only form of apology is when she really settles her heart and let of anything and love me
love me whole heartedly.
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I am sad.
Really am.
Emo.
But what can I do?
-------------------
put it this way. if we were to go long
i will love her truly with all my heart
but she might think of other guys..
so its better for her to say now..
although it hurts.
but its great to know that she really loves me and she really need time alone to think about it first
she kept saying
"if we are meant to be, then we will end up with each other"
That, i dunno.
but what i do know is.
right now she needs my support.
yes it hurts.
but seeing her be happy and really settles her heart makes me happy as well
her smile.
i would protect.
i would die for her just she could smile.
_______________________________________________________________________________________
So yeah.
hopefully in the future we might end up..
who knows?
she might love me whole-heartedly?
she might love me more in the future? =)
*fingerscrossed*
up until now it has been 10month and 4days.
We're all happy and all but..
sigh.
a lot of things happened in our love life.
Can say that if this were to be publish. it can be made as a very kickass story.
Well it all started after i coupled with her not long ago..
from that day on im very happy
its like i finally got my dream girl
a girl i met from camp.
that 3days 2nights camp in johor
was trully a crosspath of fate.
that i can truly say..
if weren't for that camp.
i would never ever meet her.
so i did try my best
to be the best guy
the perfect guy for her
but things turned bad.. in a way.. sorta...
she hung on on her ex bf.
well that was actually kinda sad because that goes on for a few months.
then usually we would argue and she would make my head burst of anger and sometimes its even hard to breathe.
then some guy at her college appeared in her life..
it was also hurting when she told me she has a small part in her heart she wanted to try...
that situation made me confused because i did truthfully treat her well..
well yeah speaking of which, that time we had a bumpy patch. that my sister case.. made her felt theres no need to even carry on anymore.. i stunned.
but eventually things turned out fine and all la.. but i'll get back to you on that later..
back to the "fung" situation.
he was really annoying. annoyed her everyday by finding her. calling her petnames and all.
and sometimes she would get angry if i stared at him.
but what can i do? im a gentleman, ive tried to speak to him but he did not reply.
he always ignored my calls.
he is too ball-less to face me..
so no choice but to meet him in the face and stare as if im gonna kill him..
fair enough right?
lol but i still got bruises from her grabbing onto my arm too hard after that, ouch!
but despite everything that has happened. we would hold on together and crossed over those bumpy patches of our love life..
sometimes she would be impatient and breaks up with me in that anger.
but in the end we would still be together
because id believe, someone so special. met truly by fate
must treat her well.
and be patient with her.
and so i did
______________________________________________________________________________________________
but on our 10th monthsery, her godfather passed away and she has to leave kl for singapore,
where the funeral was held..
she asked a favor from an old friend, whom has a crush on her since 2007.
and it happened very fast.
well. they clicked and then she return kl doubted that whether should we be together..
_____________________________________________________________________________________________
Truthfully speaking. I am sad.
Its very unfair for me.
I mean, in this 10 months.
i've been with her.
and her heart would think of other person besides me..
her ex, the fung, and the old friend.
so yeah she doubted.
i think its unfair.
so we both agreed that we would give each other a breaktime.
her explination is that
she cant commit so fast..
yeah sure she wanted a stable relationship
but when that happened she scared that she would regret in the future
of all the things that she might miss out when shes with me.
she told me she doubted it ever since she keep on hanging on her ex that time..
but i never listen, thats my stubborness. =P
I did almost everything she asked me to.
I loved her more than she loved me
i can truly take care of her and give her the sense of security that she never experienced in all of her ex.
I (proudmodeon) can say that i did became the perfect guy for her..
but things still go wrong...
_____________________________________________________________________________________________
You might think OMG why would she do that?
But no..
I can say I've grown up.
to be more matured and opened minded.
its true she might miss out a lot of things if she commits too early.
and she might freaked out because she found the perfect guy for her so early in her time.
but yeah i do grown up.
things are different already.
she have the will to change.
thats why its a relationship.
we are still young,
not yet married.
things will be too serious to handle if we continue on so..
she want to leave.
She kept on saying sorry.
but i dont wanna hear her say sorry
because
the only form of apology is when she really settles her heart and let of anything and love me
love me whole heartedly.
___________________________________________________________________________________________
I am sad.
Really am.
Emo.
But what can I do?
-------------------
put it this way. if we were to go long
i will love her truly with all my heart
but she might think of other guys..
so its better for her to say now..
although it hurts.
but its great to know that she really loves me and she really need time alone to think about it first
she kept saying
"if we are meant to be, then we will end up with each other"
That, i dunno.
but what i do know is.
right now she needs my support.
yes it hurts.
but seeing her be happy and really settles her heart makes me happy as well
her smile.
i would protect.
i would die for her just she could smile.
_______________________________________________________________________________________
So yeah.
hopefully in the future we might end up..
who knows?
she might love me whole-heartedly?
she might love me more in the future? =)
*fingerscrossed*