as usual ...
hello again blo 
久しぶり、かなw
so now I'm back to my home country 
surprise(?)
yeah after all these cowid happened then my sh!t workplace went out of business (finally LOL) even there's chances to another job but I really had enough living in yipun. it was like hell... 
well, cowid is still roaming around and after about 3 months being NEET,
I'm officially a "beban keluarga" 
*crying in multilanguage*
ok set aside,
I FINALLY CHANGE MY MBP HDD TO SDD AND IT WAS one of
THE
BEST
THING
*in 2019*
so in my last post I said that I currently どハマり中 *what was that in english?* with taylen biel drama... 
and actually after I went crazy over ossanzu, I found thantaip, and it continues to wru, dai daeng (myblue right here
), then I migrating(?) to CH & TW to found out about addicted (this d4mn series NEED A S2!!!) and HIStory (gosh, I LOVE TRAPPED and CTL!!!!!)
and now currently crazy over WBL and MOD 
*after finishing chen qing ling*
talking bout chen qing ling, at first I was super hesitated since it has a massive 50 episodes (even though 1EP is just around less than 40 minutes long)
yeah it's not biel, it's bR0m4ncE 
but it was adapted from a biel novel so...
but I mean, dai daeng has 18 episodes, yes it has beautiful story, but some scenes just boring and too long... *chan khotod na phi newwwww 555*
and out of nowhere, I think it was when I just finished EP7 of MOD, my NEET self don't have anything to do and just nonchalantly clicked cql while thinking "ok maybe I should try to watch it right now" and that one click changed my whole life completely lol
I finished it mayble in 3-4 days(?) and every episodes just MAGNIFICENT and later I know why this drama was a huge hit back then. well, it is.
vvvvvewwwwyyy outstanding
50 episodes feel like 5 mins 
I might be super late but it better than never, aight? 
well, the cql boom has passed tho, so I didn't really catch some "dramas" haha
I feel sorry to zhan-ge tho, when I read about the incident.
that's why I'm uncomfortable being linked into a fandom...
I'm just a fans, support them when I am able to and also give them time to have their own life.
I really respect each actor respectively.
even if they are couple in the drama, I don't like to ship them outside no matter how far they give us fanservice.
yeah they're so cuuutttteeeee *accckkk* but they're professional actors, right?
they could make us crazy but we need to remain sane
they can have a GF, wife, or maybe they are really together, whichever it is, I really hope people understand that they're also human. why there are people forcing them to be together? they are actors so they should be able to play in many kind of roles, shouldn't they?
their happiness is more vital than our wild imagination 
I just started to dig about biel/801 since 2006-2007, maybe? I used to labelled my self as fuj0shi too and read lotssssssssa 801 manga, but now I'm just a solitude fangirl lol? since there are irrational fans increasing, and people got into the web easier, fandom getting uncontrolled(?)
I also don't like to ship non-biel or straight men.
I just don't understand why people can be evil 
yes our beloved phi or gege or nong or oppa need our support, but I hope people can be healthy fans and support them in a proper manner 
also for senior fans(?), being a top spender or rich fans doesn't mean you OWNED them
we have our unique way to show our love to them, no one is special.
we are ALL special
(well, it depends on the artist and the management *cough*)
ok, I'll stop ranting heheh
I believe there are many of healthy fans out there who think the same as I do
and I hope we can create a better fandom where everyone can enjoy 
actually I want to retire from this hell lol
I even sold almost all my 801 collections like saezuru, bluemorning and tencount 
but then I just simply flipped to the live action version which is waaaay more indulging 
well, the good thing is I started learning thai 555 *at my own pace tho*
and since I watch TW and CH drama too, I finally learn how to read mandarin *thanks to my japanese ability, it sounds easier tee-hee*
hokay, what was it?
lol 
talking about this is better than cursing about my past live and job
now I'm just *trying* enjoying my life, spending my saving for I-know-it-is-not-important-but-it-give-me-happiness goods and merchadise lol, and watching (and re-watching) all-time-favorites everyday 
hope everything's going well in our life! 
and go away cowid!!!!!! 