man,
I think this is the longest I forgot that have ameblo...
I mean,
I'ts fckin' 5 YEARSSSS 
I've had abandoned this blog!!! 
From zero Japanese until now I already got my N1 certification (yeah, applause for me!
), this blog really shows the other side of my life. nobody except me, kamisama and maybe you what stumbledupon my random blog.
As a person with bad memory (I don't know but somehow I didn't remember that I wrote those silly blogs), this really bring back memories. 
to know that,
how much I've had grow.
how I was so happy talking about my idols. 
how I was upset with that particular thing. 
and HOW BAD MY JAPANESE WAS!!!! LOL'D 
(this is the gong)
damn, It was so bad I wanna go back and slap my face. 
how can I wrote those gibberish Japanese 
SHAMEFUL
in my last blog I wrote that I got a new job as a Japanese teacher and you know what, I've resigned www 
yeah it was my dream to be a teacher (and actually still), but in my last company, it was a company that, what should i say,
conduct training for prospective immigrant workers to Japan.
I stayed for a straight 5 years and I gave up in the end. I should. it was crazy.
so, looking bad at how my bad Japanese was, I know how hard to learn Japanese.
本当、日本語ってやっぱ難しいよ。今でもうちはどうして日本語を勉強してたなんて意味わからんw
もうN1なのに知らないことばっか。
ってだから学習者の気持ちすごい分かる。
けど
but you should know the difference between a person who give 100% for learning Japanese with a person that have no idea abt it at all.
people like me, an otaku, fonding Japanese culture, will naturally absorbs anything related to Japan. learn everything. language. culture.
and THESE people, particularly just some dumbasses who only wanna go to Japan for FLEXING and a mere MONEY
thought it will be easy,
thought using working visa as a bypass to earn easy money,
thought can go to Japan easily without so much effort,
this DUMBASSES really got nothing and only make the sensei want to b0mb the school already
こーゆー人達ってさ、すごく面倒でなんもできない。
日本に興味なし。
勉強意欲なし。
責任なし。
社会人としてマインドセットなし。
they can only bring chaos to Japan or anywhere they live.
as we know, there are so many negative news regarding those immigrants nowadays.
like, in the past 5 years it's rocketed.
in the end, the sensei or the school was targeted:
how did they sent these rubbish to other country?
didn't y'all teach them abt Japan and manners??
in fact, we DID teach them a lesson. 
but a person without adab will always be adabless.
this annoyed me so much I decided to leave. beside the high pressure from my former boss was unhinged.
their brainless behaviour is no cure + the pressure to CHANGE them.
damn.
what a job. 
now I move to a Japanese company 
remote work. so no, I'm not going back to Japan.
not as a full time sensei or educator anymore (still a freelance sensei tho).
thought that remote work will give me a high flexibility and less stress,
turns out IT IS SO DAMN STRESSFUL
it's not even a month yet, I already burnt out
then I realized, I spent almost 8 years as a corporate slave, working 9-to-5 job, commuting everyday, so, yeah, that kind of routine,
now I almost staying at home ALL the time and I'm still not accustomed to it actually.
that's why I burnt out because I didn't make boundaries and wrongly thought remote works will be easier.
well, but I least I was free from teaching those brainless brats (hopefully).
now I learn again from zero with my new job. hope everything will going well 
ok, maybe that's all, my comeback blog
still have a lots of thoughts and wanna yapping for another 5000 words
but it's almost 11 PM here, I need to rest, like, REALLY.
では、おやすみ 
