Tomorrow Again

I'll be having my shot again tomorrow


It hurt like hell at first coz it's IV


And the med does not have the same consistency as water... it's more like a milk


I think it will be administered on my right hand coz the left still aches


Hope that I'll be ok after this

Something funny... mmm...

Now that I'm back here at my parent's home and all of my siblings are here for the holiday...


I felt something weird..


Both of my sisters have boyfriends my bro is going to marry soon..


while my 2 lil bro are still young for those kind of things..


I just wonder what will happen to me the next few years...


It's funny ne?


That I might be alone for quite sometime again...

Sleep and Sleep

I'm sooooooo sleepy


After that first shot.........


My eyes grew heavy...


Got REM


I slept for a while then wake up


and not before long...


I'm sleepy again...



they said that it's just my body was adjusting...


demo for how long

Rain

Today it's raining....


I got up early to work so that I can be at ease later before I meet up with my cousin to see the doc..


I prepared some coffee for myself..


Everybody here are still sleeping...


As I watch the rain falls down..


I really feel at ease...


I really love the rain and the cold feeling of the breeze...


Not just because I can't tolerate heat it's because after the rain I feel really refresh...


And as I watch it I was thinking is there somebody out there who watches the rain the same with me?


and who loves the rain just the same as I love it too.....

April the beginning and the end

April 2001 I was diagnosed with a rare condition.
Since then I had taken meds as one of my daily routine.
At the first part of that year I was irritated and annoyed by doing it that I dared not to take it.
But I just made myself drown in agonizing pain.

My life changed drastically.

I can't do things that I usually do.
My immune system keeps getting low.
I can only feel numbness but I rather be like that than to feel this unbearable pain.
Never a day in my life that I wish that this will end.

But on this April 2009, I found hope.
They said they have something that will help me but it never promise any cure.
I was really happy to know that even if it's not a cure at least I will be free from being in and out of the hospital for check-ups.


And tomorrow will be my start........

I hope it will all go well....



Hope I can say goodbye to this