I Want to Breathe Today

I have been suffocated with all the things that surrounds me...

I just want to breathe especially today..

Today that I plan to end it all..

"Breathe Today"

You try your hardest to perfect your explanations...
You lie until they've run out of questions

You can only move as fast as,
Who's in front of you,
And if you assume,
Just like them,
What good will it do,
So find out for yourself
So your ignorance,
Will stop bleeding through.

Only one thing
Big enough to fill the void that's inside of you
It's just a breath away.
You can breathe today

So many lies swirling,
All around you,
You're suffocating,
The empty shape in you,
Steals your breath,
You're suffocating.

Logic forces me to believe in this,
And I have learned to see,
And I can only say what I've seen and heard,
And only you can choose,
And every choice you make will effect you,
Suit your own self.

You can breathe today

So many lies swirling,
All around you,
You're suffocating,
The empty shape in you,
Steals your breath,
You're suffocating.

Breathe!!!

Big enough to fill the void that's inside of you,
It's just a breath away.

So many lies swirling,
All around you,
You're suffocating,
The empty shape in you,
Steals your breath,
You're suffocating.

So many lies swirling,
All around you,
You're suffocating,
The empty shape in you,
Steals your breath (breath!),

So many lies swirling,
All around you (breath!),
You're suffocating,
The empty shape in you,

Breathe today.

Another shot tomorrow

Well this will be my forth shot.. hopefully no more pains

Now I prepare myself by listening to I'm Your Favorite Drug

What you get is what you see
it won't take much to get hooked on me
so shoot me right into your skin
and i will be your heroin

the sideaffects are sexual
are you down for a taste
the sideaffects are sexual
you know the way i say

I'm your favorite drug
your favorite drug
just one hit is never enough
i'm your favorite drug
your favorite drug
you cant break this addiction no.
your favorite drug....

i'll put my nails into your back
yeah you'll feel me like a spinal attack
you want it from me on both knees
but not until you beg me please

the sideaffects are sexual
are you down for a taste
the sideaffects are sexual
you know the way i say

I'm your favorite drug
your favorite drug
just one hit is never enough
i'm your favorite drug
your favorite drug
you cant break this addiction no.
your favorite drug....

i'm your pleasure
in your
i'm your fear just like cocaine no.
i'm your treasure
say my name

I'm your favorite drug
your favorite drug
just one hit is never enough
i'm your favorite drug
your favorite drug
you cant break this addiction no
your favorite drug...favorite drug..etc.
YOUR FAVORITE DRUG

Blindness

I watched this movie last night...

It was entitled "Blindness"

It's about all the people in the world has gone blind and only one person can see..

But even though she has the capability to see she helped everyone and never took advantage of what she has...

In the movie I saw how people can be cruel even though they are blind or handicap..

People can be as ruthless and can be immoral as ever..

And so I have experienced it since then

Broken Strings

Let me hold you for the last time
It's the last chance to feel again
But you broke me, now I can't feel anything

When I love you and so untrue
I can't even convince myself
When I'm speaking it's the voice of someone else

Oh, it tears me up
I tried to hold on but it hurts too much
I tried to forgive but it's not enough
To make it all okay

You can't play our broken strings
You can't feel anything
That your heart don't want to feel
I can't tell you something that ain't real

Oh, the truth hurts and lies worse
How can I give anymore
When I love you a little less than before?

Oh, what are we doing?
We are turning into dust
Playing house in the ruins of us

Running back through the fire
When there's nothing left to say
It's like chasing the very last train
When it's too late, too late

Oh, it tears me up
I tried to hold on but it hurts too much
I tried to forgive but it's not enough
To make it all okay

You can't play our broken strings
You can't feel anything
That your heart don't want to feel
I can't tell you something that ain't real

Oh, the truth hurts and lies worse
How can I give anymore
When I love you a little less than before?

But we're running through the fire
When there's nothing left to say
It's like chasing the very last train
When we both know it's too late, too late

You can't play our broken strings
You can't feel anything
That your heart don't want to feel
I can't tell you something that ain't real

Oh, the truth hurts and lies worse
So how can I give anymore
When I love you a little less than before?
Oh, you know that I love you a little less than before

Let me hold you for the last time
It's the last chance to feel again

I got my arms injected 4 times (＞_＜)

I was a guinea pig for my sister...


Since my sis wanted to try IV and I needed someone who will inject IV to me for the new meds that the doc gave me..

I let myself as her test subject.......

She injected the syringe 3 times and the worst thing is that it was intradermal...

Damn if you have experienced skin testing.. damn that kind of pain..

and to think it was done 3 times...

At the fourth try it was successful coz we already ask for help from my best friend's older sister who's a certified med tech..

Now both of my arms hurt