2020年2月19日
伝えるもの。残すもの。断ち切るもの。
When I heard my daughter will live in Kanto from April, I replied, "Well," with a somewhat sloppy feeling. I think it was just a few days after returning from Tokyo. Maybe about 11 or 12.
I heard that there was a person who came to Iwate by car from Kanto and bought a picture of my daughter. I was on a business trip to Tokyo, and he came and my daughteｒ rended a car to him for sightseeing. I think it's probably him who will someone living with her.
I don't want to hear a lot of things, I'm not very interested, and if I'm a little worried, it's fine if she decides on her own. I feel lonely, but I don't say that. Now, my daughter is excited and hopeful for a new life, and is going to go forward. It is my job to send it out comfortably. Saying lonely or crying here is only a hindrance for the nesting person. Even those who will set off are worried. On the other hand, I should push her back, and the deterrent behavior is only frustrating. Because I was. I shouldn't tell her that I'm worried. Parents who report it will be easier, but children who are told will only be more depressed.
A child who has been raised with compassion has grown up. my kids are alone and trying to start something useful for the world. The role of the parent is over.
If I raise the next generation, life has no meaning to live anymore.
Last night, Dlife (overseas drama)
One of the dramas named major crimes I loved was a major turning point and my longing, Sharon Raider, died. Her way of life was exactly my ideal.
Sharon has raised two children, a girl and a boy, who have grown up and each have found their way. While living with the boy she met at work in a witness protection program, Sharon watched the child grow up, gave up the man who was still a husband divorced and at the time, and adopted the child.
After that, she remarried a man she had been working with, and, as a good counselor for a boy who became a son despite having an incident, faced him as a mother and continued to be involved.
However, she suffered from cardiomyopathy and collapsed during work, and died.
I was surprised. Overseas dramas do not have such a ridiculous development that such a place is extremely dry or absolutely not. When they die, they simply die. Real, too real, surprising.
Usually, I cried very much in those situations, but then I couldn't. At that time, in that drama, my heart, thoughts and reality were closer to her than any other person. She died at that time, and was neither Rusty (the adopted son, who should be guarded), nor the loved one of his remarriage, nor any of his family. In other words, she was only myself.
'I saw the ideal' death '. I also want to die like that.
At that time, she was certainly in the middle of work. She is just about to chase the culprit, but one step away. In addition, the murderer that aimed at Rusty's life had not yet been caught, and his son's position remained complicated.
But I think Sharon wasn't worried too much anymore. A murderer targeting his son. She took the best measures to deal with it, told him that she should tell him son Rusty as a parent, and saw his college graduation. Finally, she married her long-cherished loved one and could live together.
All the children can live on their own. She grew them up that way.
Without suffering and not causing much trouble, Sharon set off with a broken heart.
I heard that the heart was a weak point of me according to divination, so Sharon's way of life was truly an ideal and longing. So, although I was shocked by the development immediately below the sudden turn, sadness has not yet come.
You know. People around her would do well without her. I think the three children will eventually overcome their sorrows, embrace their mother's death and go straight.
二日ぶりに帰ってきて、爆睡するレフと伸びてるハルくん。