One day, my father said to me "why don't you walk around my house?" but my feeling wasn't to do such action because then I think that I don't go anywhere and want to stay my room anytime.
Time passed me by without notice.
Nothning changed my life and I didn't(couldn't) anything.
When I notice I'm spoiling my life, I asked me, "Why I had been persist my foolish thinking? If I noticed my foolish days, I could change something."
Long long time I thought I want not to do any active things.
Until I find my goal naturally I intend not to do act.
Only watching football is all of my life.
I dedicated my life time watching football and listening music.
I don't regret my life but I thought I could anything in addition.
When my young time, I struggled everyday because I couldn't build human relationship well and find any dream.
Time had gone so rapidly and now I think maybe nothing left in my memory.
In the end, I couldn't make real friend in my highschool days.
People says friend who made in highschool continue forever.
I want him/her but I couldn't.
I studied about computer(how to use Excel) and bookkeeping at highschool but regrettably I couldn't adapted to the subject and environment.
I like English and in the highschool life, a class of English is the most happy time.
When I stand at the crossroads of my life, I choosed English.
Therefore I went to a university of English studies.
However I couldn't adapted an evironment again.
I tired luck of my ability.
Moreover I caught OCD, so I was absent from school one year when I was senior.
Still OCD is annoying me.
After graduated university, I lost my dream.
I don't know what I had to do is the best.
Well some might say nobody knows but I want to know.
Therefore still I'm NEET...
Recently I walk everyday.
On the road I find some kind of life.
Sky shows various face, wind is blow, temparature make me high.
I walk with iPod, so music also makes me good feeling.
Lately my mind is positive because of it.
Little things changed me greatly.
I think I restudy English and German.
My little dream is to teach Japanese for foreigner.
Japanese is brriliant.
For example when call me English is only "I" but Japanese says 私、僕、俺、うち etc...
And I like English football, especially Aston Villa, Premier League, so still I want to study English!
Of course German is my favorite language, that's why I want to study.
I'm NEET, many time have, if so I want to use my lifetime effectively.
Everyone lives hard, so why I don't live make effort?
I should live happyly, so I make effort.
I dedicate my belief.☆彡