i've been realizing so many bands are disbanding right now....
its kinda concerning me.
you guys... are you moving on with your lives?
im wondering i should do the same. ive been wanting a band since i was in jr. high.
but right now... im wondering what exactly to do with my life as is.
i decided to go back to school for a career.
at the current moment im contemplating on taking off my snake bites. i dont know yet.
i know my hair is going back to burgundy though.
....... i really dont know whats going on with the world anymore.
what do you guys do when you fall off the face of the earth like many of you do?
do you just go to school and after getting educated you just jump into the world that is busines?
or just take up some random job that pays well enough?....
so many questions. and i cant sit down with anyone to talk bout them cause i really dont think they would understand me at all...
so ive sat down and reflected on what i will be doing this year.
this is what ive pretty much decided.
like i've said before im moving to nyc, regardless of what happens im leaving.
once i get down there i'll wait a bit and start going to school again. yes i just said the s word....
i figured that if i want to get a job that pays me more than the common 10/hr i have to go,,,,
ill go for marketing and advertising which is what promotion falls under.
hopefully i can get a minor on linguistics so i can finally learn japanese!
and also possibility of being exchange student in japan
that'd be sweet if i can get an exchange. cause then i can visit my friends over there.
go to osaka, nagoya, kyoto and sapporo (i know someone there lol)
i havent been outside of tokyo and i wanna see the rest of japan, even if i love tokyo to pieces.
....
as far as guys go, i think im just gonna forget about the whole idea of relationships TRULY.
i wont have time anyways!
so screw that shit..... i just get hurt anyways.
in all im gonna broden my horizons this year. musically, career wise, etc.
i think its bout time i do something. everyone else is doing something of theirs and i feel like im stuck in the back corner watching without being able to change the channel cause the remote is lost....
yeah that's how my life feels like right now ( ￣っ￣)
well let's get this bitch done now....
this is what ive pretty much decided.
like i've said before im moving to nyc, regardless of what happens im leaving.
once i get down there i'll wait a bit and start going to school again. yes i just said the s word....
i figured that if i want to get a job that pays me more than the common 10/hr i have to go,,,,
ill go for marketing and advertising which is what promotion falls under.
hopefully i can get a minor on linguistics so i can finally learn japanese!
and also possibility of being exchange student in japan
that'd be sweet if i can get an exchange. cause then i can visit my friends over there.
go to osaka, nagoya, kyoto and sapporo (i know someone there lol)
i havent been outside of tokyo and i wanna see the rest of japan, even if i love tokyo to pieces.
....
as far as guys go, i think im just gonna forget about the whole idea of relationships TRULY.
i wont have time anyways!
so screw that shit..... i just get hurt anyways.
in all im gonna broden my horizons this year. musically, career wise, etc.
i think its bout time i do something. everyone else is doing something of theirs and i feel like im stuck in the back corner watching without being able to change the channel cause the remote is lost....
yeah that's how my life feels like right now ( ￣っ￣)
well let's get this bitch done now....
yep...... he's getting hitched...
in a way im happy for him cause he's gone through alot of shit.
but at the same time..... im fairly jealous.
not of his girlfriend
but just in general.... cause i dont have a guy to say anything sweet to me....
this is gonna be the end of me... wtf
in a way im happy for him cause he's gone through alot of shit.
but at the same time..... im fairly jealous.
not of his girlfriend
but just in general.... cause i dont have a guy to say anything sweet to me....
this is gonna be the end of me... wtf
so the day started with me waking to a dream of him telling me he didnt like me and blah blah blah.
me almost getting raped in the streets of san juan (dont ask, it was a dream after all). etc....
it wasnt a good dream at all.....
so i shove it off and go to work. ok so its fucking dead....
etc. i just get through my day
then i realize.... i should get a pregnancy test now shouldnt i?
i havent even been getting cramps! so i go to cvs and grab one.
it said negative. but it might be too early to tell so i gotta do one two wks from now and see wtf...
ok....
keeps rolling by and 4 o'clock comes
i suddenly get a bit of a rush of customers out of nowhere. me and my coworker trying to take care of them.
move my phone to a more unreachable spot since i had to run to the back quick to grab something for someone.
.....
rush is done....
i go to put my phone to charge so it wont die on the way home.....
its not there.......
so i think well prob my coworker pulled a tatsurou and hid it on me!
....nope.... i asked him and he knew absolutely nothing bout it.
ok.... so i call it... it rings then goes to the voicemail.....
i tried looking while it rang and heard nothing...
so i call again.....
straight to the voicemail......
now mind you it had more than enough battery that it wouldnt just die like that suddenly.....
so yeah... that's how my phone got stolen....
i had to spend around 1.5 hr running around the mall and filling reports and shits to get a new phone....
which mind u i have to overdraw my account for since i dont have enough money.
fucktastically LOVELY!
everything gets sorta fixed...
i put my clothes and coat to go back home.,..
i realize 'hey~~ my cig can is not in my pocket!'
look for it everywhere.....
nope. it went POOF!
so i went outide where i sat to smoke for lunch and i see a full cig of mine.... but no cig can....
FUCKING FUCKTASTICALLY AMAZING!
not only do i manage to possibly be pregnant and have my phone stolen.
but also i have to overdraw my account AND loose my cigs!
fucking god just shoot me down pls.....
if my luck isnt bad right now then i dunno what is.
i wanna talk to jd too but he's not getting on since he's watching a movie.....
rather not worry him and tell him there IS something wrong.....
(sigh) please let this god forsaken horrid day end
me almost getting raped in the streets of san juan (dont ask, it was a dream after all). etc....
it wasnt a good dream at all.....
so i shove it off and go to work. ok so its fucking dead....
etc. i just get through my day
then i realize.... i should get a pregnancy test now shouldnt i?
i havent even been getting cramps! so i go to cvs and grab one.
it said negative. but it might be too early to tell so i gotta do one two wks from now and see wtf...
ok....
keeps rolling by and 4 o'clock comes
i suddenly get a bit of a rush of customers out of nowhere. me and my coworker trying to take care of them.
move my phone to a more unreachable spot since i had to run to the back quick to grab something for someone.
.....
rush is done....
i go to put my phone to charge so it wont die on the way home.....
its not there.......
so i think well prob my coworker pulled a tatsurou and hid it on me!
....nope.... i asked him and he knew absolutely nothing bout it.
ok.... so i call it... it rings then goes to the voicemail.....
i tried looking while it rang and heard nothing...
so i call again.....
straight to the voicemail......
now mind you it had more than enough battery that it wouldnt just die like that suddenly.....
so yeah... that's how my phone got stolen....
i had to spend around 1.5 hr running around the mall and filling reports and shits to get a new phone....
which mind u i have to overdraw my account for since i dont have enough money.
fucktastically LOVELY!
everything gets sorta fixed...
i put my clothes and coat to go back home.,..
i realize 'hey~~ my cig can is not in my pocket!'
look for it everywhere.....
nope. it went POOF!
so i went outide where i sat to smoke for lunch and i see a full cig of mine.... but no cig can....
FUCKING FUCKTASTICALLY AMAZING!
not only do i manage to possibly be pregnant and have my phone stolen.
but also i have to overdraw my account AND loose my cigs!
fucking god just shoot me down pls.....
if my luck isnt bad right now then i dunno what is.
i wanna talk to jd too but he's not getting on since he's watching a movie.....
rather not worry him and tell him there IS something wrong.....
(sigh) please let this god forsaken horrid day end
whoever said that they wanted to be my friend then never talked to me is a fucking liar!
yes true i shouldnt have asked if u liked me like a few times. i just didnt want to get my heart raped like i have had now.
seriously, if u dont like me tell me dont fucking leave me hanging (￣∩￣#
that's the worst thing you could do to a person that cares about you!
but you know what? even if you dont read this or if you dont ever again want to talk to me its ok
i dont care bout you that way anymore, i just wanted to be friends.
but since youre IGNORING me. then you can go FUCK YOURSELF!
shit.... i dont fuckin want someone as a friend that wont answer me and ignore me. i dont think im such low scum to deserve that.
and to all you fuckers that have broken my heart before also..... FUCK YOU ASSHOLES! (￣へ ￣ 凸
seriously. i thought men in this country were better than this.
so far i've only been with ONE that hasnt heart rapped me!
god im so sick of this shit. why cant i just give up and never think bout it ever ever again?
michelina girl let's go to bar together soon. we can keep each other company～
yes true i shouldnt have asked if u liked me like a few times. i just didnt want to get my heart raped like i have had now.
seriously, if u dont like me tell me dont fucking leave me hanging (￣∩￣#
that's the worst thing you could do to a person that cares about you!
but you know what? even if you dont read this or if you dont ever again want to talk to me its ok
i dont care bout you that way anymore, i just wanted to be friends.
but since youre IGNORING me. then you can go FUCK YOURSELF!
shit.... i dont fuckin want someone as a friend that wont answer me and ignore me. i dont think im such low scum to deserve that.
and to all you fuckers that have broken my heart before also..... FUCK YOU ASSHOLES! (￣へ ￣ 凸
seriously. i thought men in this country were better than this.
so far i've only been with ONE that hasnt heart rapped me!
god im so sick of this shit. why cant i just give up and never think bout it ever ever again?
michelina girl let's go to bar together soon. we can keep each other company～